irritation

aiyo. it sucks really. about how much personal time he needs.

i mean, yar, girls need their own personal time too of course. but somehow, the amount of private space guys need seem to be able to fill up the universe, which happens to be expanding by the second. sheesh.

let's see how long can i tahan being the sweet, tolerant and understanding one. regarding this issue of course. well, for many other issues, he's the sweet tolerant understanding one. so i shouldn't complain too much HAHAHA.

and the best part? no point if my mind ever decides to play with the idea of changing. 'cause all males are the same. SHEESH.


to best express how i feel, i shall let images do the talking (and this one, is my all time favourite piece):

























The Scream by Edvard Munch.


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Epilogue(hahahaha):

to be fair, he did tell me to let him know whenever i think he's neglecting me, and he's afraid that he would whenever he goes deep in thought, swimming in his own world. today i'm just more easily irritated, think it's my menses. makes me mental. haha! hey, 4 Ms. Menses Makes Me Mental! ok i'm going nuts lol.

feeling better after ranting it on the blog. i'm quite stupid and easily placated actually, once i saw our photo on his display pic. sheeesh. i'm SO LOUSY. *bangs head*

i'm the biggest chicken backside lar. oh sheesh. :(


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FINAL Epilogue:

ok to cut the story short, we talked it out, and we are happy again! AHHAHAHA. being together with another person is a skill. oosh. very cheem, very cheem....

Transformers // University woes, half gone! :)

Transformers; More Than Meets The Eye


I watched Transformers on monday, and GOSH, it's GOOD!!

action packed and very, very funny. the image of the indian telephone operator is stuck firmly in my head. the only other show that i've really, really enjoyed in recent times is Shrek 3.

oooh, i love Bumblebee.
























ok. just realised that the image in xun's entry is also bumblebee... but heck lar. cuz he's my fav autobot!

this movie was worth my $7, definitely. even if it was $9, still worth it. go catch it, everyone! it's more than meets the eye! ;)



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guess what, everyone? i've gotten an email from Monash today. and it says that i'm offered a place for medicine over there!


YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY









































WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! :))


gosh, i'm basking in pure happiness now. or at least when i first read it hahahaha. the official package and offer letter will reach me in 2 weeks time.

so yep, i'm going to call up smu and give up my place. i'm entering monash with the 2008 intake. so i'm going to be very free, especially when all of you guys start school. will look for a job soon.

it's really interesting to see how my emotions changed with time.

when i first saw the email, i was in total disbelief. had to read it a second time before things started sinking in slowly. then i was totally happy. just numb happiness. first thing i did was to fwd to him the email, then i tried to call him(which he didn't pick up :P). then i told my mom who was about to pass me a postcard about the SMU matriculation (she wasn't sure whether to give it to me. she was afraid that i'd be upset on being reminded that i was to enter SMU). she too, very happy, started calling all the relatives who have been bugging my mom about my uni stuff.

after a while, my emotions became less intensive. it became more of numb, with mini outbursts of joy here and there. when reality sank in (i.e: being alone overseas for at least 5 years, having to leave my love ones, being away from him as he'd be in another part of australia, being lonely and scared and having to make new friends in a totally foreign environment with no support, ETC.), i started panicking. my heart thumped faster, i sweat more. and this horrid weather doesn't help.

also, i started worrying that what if the email wasn't true. what if they pang seh me!! ok play me out is a more appropriate term haha. i need the package, to feel it in my hands, to assure me truly.

in between, i decided to research a little bit on the unis, and thats when discontentment started kicking in, cuz according to wiki monash is the 3rd in ranking amongst the australian unis for med, whereas melbourne is the 1st. aiyar, this is purely an ego problem. a very stupid and redundant ego problem. guess it stems from my anxiety on whether monash is good enough, or if she's better than NUS. and when i tried to find photos of the campus, the very few images i found werent very impressive, and i liked the architecture of the university of melbourne better. that didn't help at all. i like pretty buildings. hahahaha.

but now, i guess all the emotions have started to die down. have a little of all in me. and the discontentment part is quite dissolved. i'm very happy. but i'm still feeling a bit anxious about the cultural differences and my ability to adapt. gaaahh. aiyar. nvm. i have loads of time to prep myself for it.

anyway, thank you, everyone! for your support and belief that i can make it (in business or in medicine). i know i've been a real whiny pig throughout the process of applying for unis, and you people were really sweet to tahan, even giving me words of encouragement! thank you so, so much. :)



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lastly, i'd like to leave all of you with this pic:





















isn't that so cute?!! gosh, the little girl reminds me of myself when i was a child. this scene happened rather regularly whenever my bros and my cousin tried to steal a kiss from me. oh, those were the days. hahaha.





Last 3 Images taken from deviant art (in order):
1. ___Happiness____by_punkshits
2. Exploration_of_JOY_by_zquan85
3. Unwanted_Kiss_by_frixin

Inspiration: The Path

The Five Precepts

1. Panatipata veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami

I undertake the precept to refrain from destroying living creatures.

2. Adinnadana veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami

I undertake the precept to refrain from taking that which is not given.

3. Kamesu micchacara veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami

I undertake the precept to refrain from sexual misconduct.

4. Musavada veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami

I undertake the precept to refrain from incorrect speech.

5. Suramerayamajja pamadatthana veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami

I undertake the precept to refrain from intoxicating drinks and drugs which lead to carelessness.

Metta Sutta

This is what should be done
By one who is skilled in goodness,
And who knows the path of peace:

Let them be able and upright,
Straightforward and gentle in speech.
Humble and not conceited,
Contented and easily satisfied.
Unburdened with duties and frugal in their ways.
Peaceful and calm, and wise and skillful,
Not proud and demanding in nature.

Let them not do the slightest thing
That the wise would later reprove.

Wishing: In gladness and in safety,
May all beings be happy.
Whatever living beings there may be;
Whether they are weak or strong, omitting none,
The great or the mighty, medium, short or small,
The seen and the unseen,
Those living near and far away,
Those born and to-be-born,
May all beings be happy!

Let none deceive another,
Or despise any being in any state.
Let none through anger or ill-will
Wish harm upon another.

Even as a mother protects with her life
Her child, her only child,
So with a boundless heart
Should one cherish all living beings:
Radiating kindness over the entire world
Spreading upwards to the skies,
And downwards to the depths;
Outwards and unbounded,
Freed from hatred and ill-will.

Whether standing or walking, seated or lying down
Free from drowsiness,
One should sustain this recollection.

This is said to be the sublime abiding.
By not holding to fixed views,
The pure-hearted one, having clarity of vision,
Being freed from all sense desires,
Is not born again into this world.

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sudden inspiration to search on the chants. i broke the 4th precept. sigh. i was aware of it when i did it. now on hindsight i wonder if by speaking the truth, would the repercussions have been less? for sure my guilt would have been much less.

i'm feeling inspired to start practising. maybe i should go poh ern shih more often, not just on saturdays. and use the time to practise, right intention.


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The Noble Eightfold Path

• Wisdom (paññā)

1. Right view

2. Right intention

• Ethical conduct (sīla)

3. Right speech

4. Right action

5. Right livelihood

• Mental discipline (samādhi)

6. Right effort

7. Right mindfulness

8. Right concentration

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may posting this up serve as a reminder to me. remember, remember.

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ok i'll reply to tags when i'm less tired. my physical body is unrested.

May all beings be well and happy!

emo me.

image taken from deviant art, by 7th Heaven Creative.



i want to look like that... and feel like that. joy and happiness.

when i think of the separation that is to come... gah. i don't know how am i going to deal with it. logic and rationality are gone from me, only my heart is working, and it's suffering. i know it's to do with labels and clinging, attachment. but knowing what it is doesn't mean i truly understand it.

doesn't help that my mom likes to pretend and act dumb. even though i don't usually admit this, my mom is an important pillar of support for me. now with one pillar gone...

i see one major major problem for the future though. it's the inability to compromise regarding that issue!! BAAH. and it's what i've ALWAYS wanted. as i grow up i begin to understand the weight and responsibility that comes with it, but i still want it! and some things you want, i can't give in. not that i don't want to, but hey, i'm born like this. can't provide that. haha. unless you want me to have an early death!

aiyar, on the big scale, this is considered kachang butih. in other words, very small issue. but aiyar. being a FEMALE, (or being HUI LIN), i just think too much. think too far ahead as well. live in the present moment!!


ok the stupid ssdc site is not working properly. i'm getting super, super irritated and pissed off. bitter icing on the yucky tasting cake. fantastic.


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. *screams*

My Sassy Girl / Week's updates / Things to do

i just watched My Sassy Girl. bought the vcd yesterday.

AHHH it's SO SO SO NICE. at first i was like wth, especially for the first half of the movie. but it was quite funny lar. then when the ending came, suddenly everything made sense. and wow, it links back to the beginning, and it's so sweet. *FAINTS*. and as usual, i cried. HAHAHA. but not much! considerably a lot less than usual. well done, hui lin :)!

and the girl's SO PRETTY. the guy's... well. the nerdy type. hahahaha.

i'm hooked onto the soundtrack (I Believe).

what's nice about this movie that it makes you think that it might be a true story. but well, after much research (hahaha this is what happily unemployed people do with their time), this movie is inspired from a true story. so baseline is, it's not real lar.


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ok! updates on my life... aren't you curious about what happily unemployed people do? okie let's do this in an organised fashion.


15 June, Fri:
morning - had final theory prac.
evening - cold rock's opening and lena+genia's bday celebration!

16 June, Sat:
3:30pm - had a bf youth + bedside support group bbq at east coast! so.. yum yum. watched sandcastle building for the first time!
11:45pm - went to cold rock for ice cream immediately after the bbq. lol.

17 June, Sun:
whole day - did nothing. which means i was a total sloth, woke up late, ate and watched tv. and also thought too much and worried unnecessarily about things that don't need to be worried about.

18 June, Mon:
morning - had my final theory trial test, and i passed! which is quite amazing given the amount i've studied, or the lack of it. btw, i have to pass a trial test before i am qualified to take the REAL final theory test. grr.
evening - had a belated bday dinner with ade, shu, pam! thanks babes :)!

19 June, Tues:
evening - driving session. boo.
night - dinner with him! and i was late again. oopsie :p.

20 June, Wed:
afternoon - bf meeting, to discuss about moonlight. after it was over, i bummed around in marina sq and esplanade, till he finished his other meeting.
night - STINGRAY DINNER at CHOMP CHOMP!! with gilly and kaori :)! chompchompchomp. thought we weren't full at first, but it turned out to be pure greed.

21 June, Thurs (TODAY):
went for monash interview at 12:30pm. how nerve wrecking! turns out that qi en went for it as well. hahaha she vry cute lar. she found out that i was going through her kay poh methods. amazing. wish her all the best! :) oh, oh, and i watched My Sassy Girl!

22 June, Fri (TOMORROW):
ok given what a sloth i am, i shall blog in advance since i'm already here, HAHA. tmr i'll wake up late, slack and watch tv (i'm clairvoyant... ohmmm...). then i'll be going out for dinner with lena and my 2nd bro! ok anything more then this i can't promise you. lalala :)


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ok it's high time to list the things to do. i'm just wasting my life away at this rate!


THINGS TO DO:
1) Clean up my room.
2) Upload photos and send photos. (genia+lena's bday, kaori+gil)
3) Spend my $20 Taka voucher and $60 Borders voucher (whoopee!)
4) Medical Checkup
5) SMU Matriculation
6a) Send photos for printing
6b) Buy photo album
6c) Paste photos into album/scrapbook
7) Study final theory on the day of the test (18 July)
8) Plan and settle driving sessions
9) Write notes for driving
10) [to be continued... *cues ominous music*]


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Tags:

ning: HAHAHA. great consolation. thanks! (no i'm not being sarcastic here even though it might sound sarcastic, please trust me!!) and anyway, u would be going in TWO years later! boo :(

veron: thanks babe! yar la it'll be fine. i just need time :). hope canada's nice to u!

jw: hey girl! it was a pleasant surprise to see you! because genia said you weren't be there at that night. so yar. wish we could talk more! see you around (if i decide to grow my fats and visit cold rock hahaha) take care! :)

cold rock!

hey guys! my friend's ice cream shop is finally opening today:)!! come and check it out. there's complimentary sample creations from 7pm-9pm today! it's at holland village, next to spizza. here's the poster:






























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reply to tags:


K: yes, all hail ur photography skills lol! aiyar quite unglam. but i liked it somehow. hahaha

eric: thanks dude :). yea. one step at a time. xinyi got into business is it??

sua: ahhh sua.. thing is, i can't think of anything else that i like other than medicine :/. (no i dont like dentistry or pharmacy or nursing so naaahh) so i guess i went for practicality? and aiyar, i guess i'd like business, after a while. maybe after a long while. and i'd go for med, if overseas would take me. but thanks anyway, got ur point :).

uni blues

i just got the email from SMU regarding my matriculation.

............. :(


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. this is SO SAD. ok i shouldn't be saying this but AHHHHHHHH. i need to let this out, after weeks of trying to be positive.

i DON'T WANT to go to smu because i don't want to do business! what i really, really want is to do medicine! GAAAHH.

i keep trying to tell myself that i'm crazily lucky to go to smu and to take a double degree! ok let's admit, i'm so unprepared to go there. i mean, i don't even know what am i going to study. i totally have no ideas what kind of modules you have to take, and how many years i have to study for! i don't know how much am i to pay per year. i don't know anything, and everything.

now you know how ready i am to enter smu.

my heart sank when i got the email about the matriculation. so being a bit more concerned about my future, i went to check out the website provided. the more i read, the worse i felt. god, there's going to be a camp. ARGHHHH. this is one of the few times that i don't feel a teeny weeny bit of excitement when it comes to camps. actually, this is the only time! unless my memory failed me once again, which tends to happen rather frequently.

great. and i have to pay thousands of bucks for a course i don't want to take. GAAAHH.

and i have to go for stupid health screenings, go for the matriculation, go for orientation, go for blah blah blah. in summary? things i don't want to go for because i don't want to be there.

ok i'm behaving like a spoilt brat. if you guys are put off by me, especially those who are entering smu, i'm sorry. it's not because i think that being a doctor is much more prestigious than being in business. but it's simply because i WANT to be a doctor. that's what i've always wanted to be. and honestly, i think being in business requires more brains, a lot more interpersonal skills. sure, having good social skills is a plus point in every occupation, but i feel it's more essential in business. if you can't really speak well as a doctor, u wont die, if you can give correct diagnosis and give the correct solution to the problem, you are safe! perhaps you wont be very popular, then just don't go private lar! GAAAAHHH.

*rant rant rant rant rant*

*GRUMBLES*

and i've not gotten any replies from the other 3 aust unis. this sucks. maybe i should be positive, no news is good news! but i need to get on with life. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. whatever, anything.

anything, whatever.


*pulls hair*

for now, i'll just try to pretend that i didn't receive that email. for as long as possible? bwaaah :(.


can't things ever, ever go right?


.....sigh.

my birthday (11 june:)) + photos

b4 i start, i have to announce something. i'm stuck on that stupid gatsby song where takuya kimura looks so ugly and gay(not in the jolly way). and all thanks to veron after she posted it up onto her blog and i couldn't resist listening to it more and more. ughhh.

and oh, i just watched 200 Pounds Beauty on youtube! it's real good! i liked it at least. love the songs. marriaaaaa.........~~~

if you wanna watch, you can go to my playlist, i've it all up there in order. my username's linteoh :).


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ok! let's talk abt my bday! :)

ytd was my bday, it was great. not particularly exciting or anything, but having great company and minor surprises here and there. had a great time :).

went to meet up with my ex-colleagues for lunch.went to thai express at tiong bahru. they drew this really cute "card" for me. courtesy of gil and kaori. can always depend on them for these kind of things. lol. i should scan it and put it up! they also gave me this cute pig that plays music and can move its head. but it has no eyes and mouth. lol.

anyway so lunch was goodie goodie! then i went to vivo and shopped! gosh, bought 3 pieces of clothing there. how exciting.

then met up with him at around 3:15pm, which was earlier then expected. walked around, got me a present and a slice of cake(which i was too full to eat). bummed around and tried to get tix for ocean's 13 in vivo, but timings weren't good. so we went to clarke quay to bum around (hahaha). then we went to plaza sing! managed to get tix for oceans. the show was not bad, but i preferred oceans 12. yet again, ocean's 12 was a bit on the complicated side. guess 13's about simplicity. and i heart george clooney + brad pitt. :)

went to cafe cartel for dinner, gosh they serve such HUGE portions. he sent me home after that.

thanks everyone for the smses, the calls, the tags! really appreciate it :). thanks veron for the call! didn't expect you to call from toronto! and sua too! help me thank your section mates too(that's what they are right?) that's the nice thing about army boys. always happy to join in the birthday wishing hahaha.

oh i got punked by eric heah and sufyan. URGHHHH. those two boys. that was really highly unexpected hahaha. suf made his sis call me (i didn't know who was she then), and she went like "hi, is this hui lin? you have a voice msg for you." and proceeded to play this sound clip of some male singing happy birthday to me. at the end of the song, the guy said " hi hui lin. how are you? hope you've had a great day. do you know who's this? this is me. wuzun. the one and only. as promised. take care." i could hear suf's sis giggle in the background at the end. then she went "thank you!" and put down the phone. WTH.

then later, suf called. he told me that that was his sis. and he asked me to guess who was that guy. i guessed eric (wrong ans) and choon heng (still wrong ans) and then finally aravin (yesss!!). WTH. ARAVIN??? ARAVIN = WUZUN. no no no. this can't be happening....>!!!!

so i was like in shock. luckily The BF was with me then. so yar. damage control done. hahaha. then when i went home, eric called me and told me that suf told him abt it. on hindsight, that makes suf a real big mouth, which he usually isnt. so hmm. ahhaha. then i went online and chatted with suf and eric. i just couldnt believe that aravin's wuzun. yada yada yada. then finally, at the climax (there's always a climax somehow), suf said that eric's wuzun! then eric went "you got punked!" WAAAHHHH. WHAT THE *TOOT*!!!

hahaha. was a really funny thing. i still have the sound clip. i'm so so so amused. and eric was using his accent and trying to sound mysterious and sexy and what not. HAHAHAHA. memorable.

so anyway, that's in summary of my bday! oh, oh, let me post the photos i took!


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At Thai Express:



















that's rachel looking really excited like a typical auntie who has to light up a candle for her kid's bday cake. hahaha. (gil and kaori, shhhhhhh)





















wanna fight?






















wheeeee :)!!























"can i blow already??"






















*wishes*





















the kawaii era. kaori, me, gil. oh look, gil's not wearing her blue shirt :)!





















me and auntie rachel and my cake and my present and the rabbit fingers.





















"foooooddd...!!" ok i wanted to laugh. gil was laughing, or grinning at least. kaori's THE PRO.




















i look like i've something that smells really unpleasant under my nose. or something like that. ok copied that from gil, from harry potter.





















































"NOBODY STANDS BETWEEN ME AND MY FOOODDD!!!"



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The Boyfriend. ('nuff said ;))


































PUNK.


















ok yar yar, i'm always acting cute... :p



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Tags:

jw: OOO ur working there?? how exciting!! ok if all goes well, i'd be your latest colleague ;))!! how's the training?

fs: FS!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! long time no see!! your hiatus was really long. and of course you are not an it. you are a he! or simply, FS :). how have u been?

zp: thanks babe :)! hope life's been great for u!!

wuzun: ...*growls*

wuzun's sidekick: ....*growls more*. hahahhaa

andre: hahaha yep! thanks :)! your's in june too right, if my memory didn't fail me? happy belated bday to u too!!

jc: thanks dude :)!

update!! first up on.. meditation

YO HUMANS!

i'm back! ok i shld have updated a long time ago but i was too lazy soo... hahaha. first i shall talk about my meditation retreat!

it ended on 6 June. it was tough, especially for me, a first time beginner. whoaa. let me copy and paste the schedule for you (excluding the first and last day)

4:30-5:00	am	Rising/Walking Meditation 起身/行禅
5:00-6:30	am	Group Sitting 集体坐禅
6:30-7:30	am	Breakfast 早餐 Area Cleaning 打扫
7:30-8:00	am	Walking Meditation 行禅
8:00-9:30	am	Group Sitting 集体坐禅
9:30-10:00	am	Walking Meditation/Interview 行禅/小参
10:00-11:00	am	Group Sitting 集体坐禅
11:00-12:00	am	Lunch 午餐
12:00-2:00	pm	Rest/Bathing休息/冲凉时间
2:00-3:30	pm	Group Sitting 集体坐禅
3:30-4:00	pm	Walking Meditation/Interview 行禅/小参
4:00-5:30	pm	Sitting Meditation 坐禅
5:30-7:15	pm	Bathing /Refreshment冲凉/茶点
7:15	pm	Puja 颂经
7:30-9:00	pm	Group Sitting 集体坐禅3rd June Dhamma Talk 佛法开示2nd, 5th June CD Recording 4th June
9:00	pm	Lights off 熄灯

plus, we had to take the 8 precepts and maintain noble silence (basically no talking), and go vegetarian.

The 8 precepts are:
1^st: Abstaining from killing living creatures.
2^nd: Abstaining from taking what is not given.
3^rd: Abstaining from all sexual conduct.
4^th: Abstaining from wrong speech.
5^th: Abstaining from intoxicants.
6^th: Abstaining from eating after noon.
7^th: Abstaining from dancing, singing, worldly entertainment; adorning oneself with garlands, perfumes, or cosmetics.
8^th: Abstaining from using high or luxurious seats & beds.

anyway the meditation itself was ok lar.i guess it's a good start, plant a seed, and may it grow.

during the retreat i couldnt really tell if anything was different, but what was really interesting was to see how your perception changed after meditation

1) on the last day, the moment we (parents+me) went into the car to go home and we started talking, we started getting irritated with one another! gosh, noble silence is real important, allows a lot of peace and harmony.

2) when i got home (4pm), i wasn't really hungry? so i drank a cup of milo. and then after that, whatever i ate, i knew it was out of greed. i didn't have to eat dinner. but the more u eat, the more hungry you seem to get. real pure greed. feeds on itself. and your stomach doesn't feel good. so the 6th precept is good!

3) i was watching So You Think You Can Dance. and i felt so so so sad at the end of the show. because the host told the audience to stay tune to the next episode to watch the contestants fight it out. and i was thinking, gosh, this world is so sad! we have programmes that encourage fighting and disharmony. and the best part was there were audience to watch it, and they were cheering so happily about it! people were happy watching others fighting and crying! gosh. and most of our variety shows involve fighting in some way, and the movies we watch tend to have violence and sex and unhappiness. sigh.

4) you get tired very very easily. even though i didn't do much when i got home, i just went to watch tv, i got SO TIRED and SO DRAINED. during the retreat i had to walk around, stay awake and meditate, and no, i was always feeling alert. this world is moving too fast lar. it's too noisy. and you realise there are many redundant distractions around us(like tv)

5) the next day when i wore my contacts, i realised that my eyesight improved!! omg. it's usually blur and i can;t see things clearly, but that day it was super clear and sharp. it's either cuz of the meditation, or cuz of not wearing contacts for 6 days. hahaha

ok those are the main difference that i noticed. of course, i've inducted myself back into the rat race. super not peaceful and restless now. one more thing, i finally feel guilty when i eat meat. hahaha.

i'm leaving! + photos

hey everyone!!

i'm leaving today for a meditation retreat in poh ern shih temple, singapore. will be back on the 6th June, evening. so yep, will be cut off from the world. how exciting! think i'd die though. cuz it's a strict retreat and yea. it'll be tough. may i survive and not give up! see you guys when i get back :)!

wednesday was my last day of work. hope i didn't leave too many loose strings hanging. gah, forgot to return my name tag. this sucks. all the best kaori, gil and rachel!! oh, i'm so tempted to work for may wern in her ice cream shop called Cold Rock! it'll be so exciting! it'll be in holland village, next to spizza, opening on 15 june. wheeee :).

i'm finally done with uploading my photos. go to this place: http://pics.livejournal.com/linteoh/

i added a few more photos in and for <@ Work :)>. plus two more galleries where the next 2 days of the passage of time photos are kept.

yesterday was vesak day. oh it's the best vesak day i've ever had. really enjoyed myself. love the company. and went to watch Shrek 3! oh, it's really good! better than pirates of the carribean. happy happy :).

the impending separation is still not registered in my head. oh well.

oh here are the photos i took when i went for Circle of Trust outing!



















christine, ruth, xiaohui




















the above + veron





















me, jiali, nuans




















all of us :)!




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Suf: nah, dont wanna appeal. very tired of singapore. hahaha. have a strong dislike for nus now :p. ok i'm just being sour grapes, haha!

passerby: haha! ok that's kind of confusing, you think you know me, but you dont. anyway aiyar dunno la. business woman. er. *scratches head*. we will see. but thanks yar? :)

jw: thanks jw :)! ya will take rmb your advice.

wuzun: aiyar, dude can apply for both males and females laar. ok sorry, i'll refer to you as 'it' ok? hahaha :). ok jk. thanks dearie :).

anony: ok point taken. but just to clarify, i'm not looking down on njc. precisely because i don't think we are lousy, that's why i get so upset about the different treatment we get because of our name. i'm not ashamed to be an njcian. on the contrary, no matter how much i joke about my school, i'm proud to be one. but yea, thanks anyway for the comment. good to be happy with what you have :).

k: yar la yar la.. you are the nicest hc person around ok... hahahaha. hope work's alright :).

idiot: loL! thanks for protecting the sanctity of my tag board. i appreciate it :). and aiyar, life's as fulfilling as we want it to be!

eric: whoa you spammer. i've always doubt the quality of the malaysian's network. ok jk hee :). and aiyar upset for what, of course i wont call to talk to u what. it's expected that i made used of u to talk to nuans. ok jk hehehe :). i prefer medicine still, after asking myself properly. we'll see ya? but i've already accepted SMU biz. and yar those are nonya clothes. gee thanks for the compliment! *BLUSH* waahaahaaa ;p. you better dont say that i look ol... if not u die. hehh. how are u now anyway?

photos!!

yay ok some of my photos are up! updating and uploading now.. grrrr

http://pics.livejournal.com/linteoh/

uni update

woohoo!!

i can finally access my blog on my work com! how exciting.

think it was the blogskin that was causing me problems, for whatever reasons. this blogskin is temporary. don't like it too much.

anyway, let me update you on my uni stuff.

i've been rejected by NUS med, given my 2nd choice(biz). think i'm choosing SMU over NUS. afterall SMU's giving me a double degree. if i really do end up in biz, might as well have more degrees right?? hahaha.

at the same time, i'm waiting for the 3 unis that i've applied for in australia to reply me. just took my ISAT test (for monash and western aust) and well. i have no comments. it's been 6 months since i used my brain? wow. really rusty. can die. but aiyar. what the heck. i'm not sure if i need to take any test for adelaide. shall go check. oh for the record, i've been rejected by UNSW. apparently the reason for rejection is due to my previous academic results, which probably means my O's? well. i got 9points then. it just shows how competitive things are. who would have known that my history would have come back to haunt me. *shrugs*. kids out there still taking your O's or PSLE, please study VERY HARD. hahahahaha.

man. me, a business woman? wow. i can't imagine.

aiyar, my biggest angst is that i have to network and fight fight fight. i hate networking! and i'm a peace loving creature(hahaha). ok not that being a doctor is not full of fighting, but i think there's less of it? (ok many docs would have disagreed with my statement) ok and apparently being a doctor does not mean you have an iron rice bowl anymore. but how about porcelain? if all goes well, your rice bowl's good. make a mistake and it can break. but business? i think of a rice bowl made up of earth. if all's good, fine. but it's super vulnerable to environmental conditions. too hot, will crack. rain? will dissolve. cold? i don't know, something bad to fit my description i guess. hahahhaa.

anyway photos are on their way up. have been busy still, not much time to do what i want. OH WELL.

the news about the UNSW singapore campus closing down is really devastating.. and it even affects me indirectly. oh well. don't understand why is life like that. *shrugs*


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Tags:

passerby: ok i hope i didn't mention anything that offended you. but ya i know that there are rj people who didn't get into the course of their choice. it's just that sometimes you see so many rj people around and so few others (for eg. in med) that you wonder if there's any biasness involved? even just to get shortlisted. unless we people from other schools are really that lousy and of sub standard, that we cant be compared with rjc/hci etc on paper or in person. or maybe we are just being sour grapes. i hope you understand that we are just trying to understand why are we "not good enough" and may jump the gun at times in our frustration and anger. really sorry if any of us said anything offensive. cheers, and hope that you managed to get the course and uni of your choice, if you are also applying for unis now. :)

gil: thanks babe :). you too!!

xh: yar, soon soon, the photos will be up hahaha. and yes, JIA YOU!! i dont think i'd be appealing anyway for NUS med.

wuzun: hey thanks dude. but anyway it's in black and white now. AHAHAHAA. hey i cant stand it, who are u?? ahhaha

k: thanks dear :). oh, you doodle enough. too much. hahahahaha. but it's really cute la i admit :p.

bella: ok long overdue reply to your tag. hahaha! but i agree, crying is a good tool. but heard that it wont work if you use it too many times :p. so please, cry in moderation. hHAHA

tran: ok dont think you will read this. but AHH. so irritating. didnt get to see you. really hope our paths will cross again one day. saw your pic at veron's blog. wah, you damn hot la! getting hotter by the day. *GRRR* hahahaha. take care babe, and if i can't become a doc, i'll come and find you to treat me when i'm ill, alright? love you and take care :)

i am so tired.

Passage of Time / Circle of Trust / Work / Uni

Passage of Time

AHHH!! it's OVEEERR!!!

the musical i was doing (The Passage of Time) has finally ended! it was from last friday to sunday at jubilee hall, raffles hotel.

gosh i'm still on high. so happy that nuans, xinyi, shu and ade came. and glad that there were many positive comments about the play. very very happy :). the music and lines are still being played on repeatedly in my head! lalalaaaa :):):). oooh, and many people requested for us to restage it! that's the greatest compliment ever. tentatively it will be restaged from 7-9 december 2007! how exciting!

ok at first i was groaning at the thought of restaging it (angie, the bf pres, suggested that to us on the 2nd day of performance). but now that it's all over, i can't wait to do it once more!! i enjoyed myself so very much. the line reading, the 3-times-or-more practices a week, the crappy and funny moments with everyone, the frustrating full dress rehearsal, the frenzy in the backstage, the tiring but happy hotel stay... gosh. i want more!!

i took many MANY photos. think i'll upload all of it here. but i have like 100 over photos? think blogger will vomit html when i do that. ok. maybe i'll create another blog just for photos? or livejournal? errr. ok shall think about it :). cuz i don't wanna use yahoo photos or some image hosting site as so far all of them are less than satisfactory.

it was so fun. gosh. still basking in the glory and jubilation of the play. (and in celebration of the event, my pimples and eyebags have decided to pop out and beautify my face. sweet.)

shall blog more about the play later!

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Circle of Trust

went for Circle of Trust (COT) outing ytd after work. linghui couldn't make it, and tran was back in vietnam ploughing padi fields, so that leaves just me, veron, nuans, jiali, xiaohui, christine, and ruth.

went to sakae. despite having lack of rest, i still found it a pretty enjoyable experience. (in case you don't know, my mood can get really foul if i dont have enough sleep. that explains my perpetual pms.)

decided to leave earlier though at around 9pm. my bed beckons in a seductive tone! ok i don't know why am i adding such weird adjectives and it all doesn't really make sense but heck laaarr hahaha.

ok i will add in photos from the outing too :).


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Work

ooh yea, even Work gets to be blogged about, and have a seperate title of its own! and it's no longer labled as "shit" or "crap" or "sucky". wheee :)!

recently, a new temp staff, kaori, has come and joined us! ok not that recent, she has been with us since like the beginning of this month. yar la i'm lag laarr. sorry kaori, if your reading this. you aren't important enough for me to blog about you immediately mah. HAHAHA. ok just kidding, JUST KIDDING :).

anyway she's really nice and funny. and finally work isn't such a chore! at least i've got a kah kee of my era(hahaha) with me here. and not forgetting the ridiculously heavy work load(depends on the time of the day of course) is lightened with her presence. hope she won't suffer too badly, especially when i'm gone, when she has to take on the job by herself. but her, if hui lin can do it for 1 month on her own, so can you :)!

ooohh, we (gil, kaori, and i) will be going for a stingray dinner soon! ok not THAT soon, but soon enough. maybe around 7 june. how exciting!!! i'll be sure to miss those 2 girls. these 2 girls make work life more bearable. and it'll be quite sad if gil's really leaving. no more "hello wello" and "saddie waddie". (yes, gil says these kind of things. it's highly addictive and gets stuck in your head, unfortunately). it's so weird. aiyar whatever laar. *does a whatever hand gesture*

ooh, i'll be unemployed soon!! at the end of this month! i'll be as free as a little birdie... *chirp chirp chirp* but no more income from the outside world. i'll become a leech and suck my parents dry of their moneeeeyyy. not good not good.

actually hor. i just realised that it's really weird that i'm complimenting gil and kaori on my blog, when they read them. it seems like i'm bootlicking right? but yet again, as they would claim that i'm right and that they really are such nice and adorable girls, they would say that i'm not sucking up to them and i'm just stating the facts. HAAHAA. ok now i'm really monologuing. *continues to talk to herself*


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Uni

ok i've decided to add this last topic in.

in short, i'm very stressed about it now. i havent gotten anything from NUS, and i suspect they are just damn freaking biased. i was so stressed that i finally cried in the middle of orchard mrt ytd(with COT surrounding me, thank gawd). and ok lar didn't really CRY like sobsob, but tears just poured out of my eyes.

i hate it that the world is so elitist, and unfairness of it all. and i'm already considered part of the elite(when you compare me with the rest of singapore). however among the elite, njcians are like the bottom of the pool. aiyar everything's just so unfair lar. labels always seem to matter all the time. where you are from, what family you are from, which school you are from... people never take you as who you are.

yet again, how much time do people have to get to know another person? so labels become important, to place a finger on WHAT are you, even if it is inaccurate. it's to give us a false sense of security and confidence that we KNOW.

ok. it's time for work. hope everyone's doing well. tata :)!

funny emails

today i've gotten two funny emails! as i'm sucha kind girl, i shall share my joy and happiness with you all :):):)



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Email 1:

Guys' Rules
At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down.
Finally, the guys' side of the story. (I must admit, it's pretty good.)
We always hear "the rules "From the female side.
Now here are the rules from the male side.
These are our rules!
Please note... these are all numbered "1" ON PURPOSE!


1. Men are NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides.Let it be.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one:Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work!Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do.Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a Problem. See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't Expect us to act like soap opera guys.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of them makes you sad or angry, then we meant the other one

1. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done.Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong.We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle, besides we know you will bring it up again later.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine... Really.

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation, or golf.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;


But did you know men really don't mind that?
It's like camping.

Pass this to as many men as you can - to give them a laugh.
Pass this to as many women as you can - to give them a bigger laugh

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Email 2:

Why I Fired My Secretary

Last week was my birthday
And I didn't feel very well
Waking up on that morning.

I went downstairs for breakfast
Hoping my wife would be pleasant and say, "Happy Birthday!", and
Possibly have a small present for me.

As it turned out,
She barely said good morning,
Let alone
" Happy Birthday."

I thought...
Well,
that's marriage for you,
But the kids....
They will remember.

My kids came bounding down stairs to breakfast and didn't say a word.
So when I left for the office,
I felt pretty low
And somewhat despondent.

As I walked into my office,
My secretary Jane said,
"Good Morning Boss,
And by the way
Happy Birthday ! "
It felt a little better
That at least someone had remembered.

I worked until one o'clock ,
When Jane knocked on my door
And said, "You know,
It's such a beautiful day outside,
And it is your Birthday,
What do you say we go out to lunch,
Just you and me."
I said, "Thanks, Jane,
that's the greatest thing
I've heard all day.
Let's go !"

We went to lunch.
But we didn't go
Where we normally would go.
She chose instead a quiet bistro
With a private table.
We had two martinis each
And I enjoyed the meal tremendously.

On the way back to the office,
Jane said, "You know,
It's such a beautiful day...
We don't need to go straight back to the office, Do We ?"

I responded,
"I guess not.
What do you have in mind ?"
She said,
"Let's drop by my apartment,
it's just around the corner."

After arriving at her apartment,
Jane turned to me and said,
" Boss, if you don't mind,
I'm going to step into the bedroom
For just a moment.
I'll be right back."

"Ok." I nervously replied.

She went into the bedroom and,
After a couple of minutes,
She came out
Carrying a huge birthday cake ...
Followed
By my wife,
My kids,
And dozens of my friends
And co-workers,
All singing "Happy Birthday".

And I just sat there...

On the couch...

Naked.


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HAHAHAA. ok well I was amused. hope you are. wheeee :):):)!!

ok i well one of the reasons why i'm blogging is cuz i got a comment from gil that i ain't updating enough. so yar. i'll reply tags when i'm home or something. laalaaalaaaaaa~~~~~!

BOO

ok. an update. hahahaha. it's exactly 1am now!

ok i know many ppl are wondering why i havent been updating.. reason is because i've been busy with my rehearsals. out of 7 days this week, 5 days have been used for rehearsals. i'm burnt out. the actual performance is like, next friday? aw man. i'm not prepared. my costumes are more or less ok, but not the props. AHHH. not to mention i havent checked for everyone else yet when i'm supposed to be in charge of props and costumes(with big huiling).

at this moment i really wish that i aint working, so that i can concentrate on what i really like and want to do. and to do it WELL.

i'm so glad that i joined bf. there are so many amazing people around. talented, strong, kind, compassionate, loving. simply amazing.

ok tmr's a rest day, probably. if i choose to go home and rest that is.

anyway regarding medicine interviews, it went alright. heard rumours of results coming up this or next week. so yar! we'll see. hehhehheh.

ok i'm too tired to continue blogging. sorry for the lack of content, folks. and replies to tags will come later. i reached home at 1am ytd, and 12:15am today. and havent caught up on my sleep dept. ok, good night everyone. hope all's going well!! :)

AHH MED INTERVIEW

ok great. mad interview's tmr. get it? med=mad. HAW HAW HAW.


ok great. i'm going mad. hahahahahaaaa. too much SELF IMPOSED stress can be no good.


oh check out this article from SMJ (singapore medical journal) written by this guy who goes by the pen name "The Hobbit". it's super funny! it's not cheem, just really funny and quite full of bull.
http://news.sma.org.sg/3903/Hobbit.pdf

ok i'm doing a Last Minute Hug Buddha's Leg (ling shi bao fo jiao). going to MOH website... SMA website. and i havent thought through properly about why i wanna be a doctor and all those ffunny funny qns! AHHHH. and i'm ONLINE typing on my BLOG. siao ah.

my interview's tmr at 2:30pm. gaaaahhh. *pulls hair out*

anyway to everyone out there, JIA YOU!! :)


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Replies to tags:

selina: yar you call me so often that even your accent is sounds singlish!

bee: haha thanks. i was quite GRR at that moment. in need for inspirational quotes. hahaa

wuzun: aww thanks for showering me with love but it's ok really. lol. well as u can see i havent had my interview. had my SMU's interview and it sucked but i've gotten an offer from them so. well. *shrugs*. ahhaha. how bout u?

the REAL wuzun: sorry. i dont want you to shower me. HAHAHA.

jw: thanks! haha

mortal: well i answered you when i saw you online so er this reply is just to take up space. hehehe

xh: thanks dear!! sure hope i do well in it. gosh, i MUST GET IN. ok now i'm sounding kinda desperate hahaha. and all the best to you too :)!!

quotes (to be updated)

*edit: i just realised that the html code for the title of my entries are not included in my template! how irritating. ok too lazy to fix it for now. lalalalaaa**

anyway, here are some quotes that i found today. was feeling quite negative you see. so i needed quotes of specific genre to keep me going. hahahaha. i don't usually go for this genre, cause i'm usually happy enough to go for something more inspirational than something of conciliatory nature. only the last few are more inspirational.

ok, to me, this is considered conciliatory enough :p.

remember, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger! and guess what? i'm still alive! WOOHOO. i'm STRONGERRR *does a little wriggle of the ass*

without further ado, here are the quotes....


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A man's own good breeding is the best security against other people's ill manners.
Lord Chesterfield


Arguing with a fool proves there are two.
Doris M. Smith


A good word is an easy obligation; but not to speak ill requires only our silence; which costs us nothing.
John Tillotson


It requires less character to discover the faults of others than is does to tolerate them.
J. Petit Senn


Go before the people with your example, and be laborious in their affairs.
Confucius


The art of being wise is knowing what to overlook.
William James


The less men think, the more they talk.
Baron Montesquieu


People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.
Elizabeth Kubler Ross


Don't let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do.
John Wooden


Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
Mark Twain


Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadow.
Helen Keller

some photos

announcement! elects camp is on 27april! so yar. all ex councillors, appear if u wish to hahaha. time to flaunt your power! heh heh heh.

for more details.. ask xiu jing. cuz she told me one. i have no details with me. gosh i feel so smart. i know how to do taiji! *pushes all the qns to the victim* hahaha.


ok jw! so sorry i forgot to ans ur qns. first, you can check out this site.. http://www.buddhistfellowship.org/ this is the website of the fellowship that i go to lar. you can check out the announcements and activities and see if there's any retreats. currently i'm going to got for two retreats. one's from 2-6june (but fully booked alr from what i know), the other's in late july. the late july one i think got space. ur not online now so i'll email u about it :).


anyway, gosh, as i've mentioned in my tagboard, my letter from NUS finally arrived on sat evening. almost died waiting for it. so yar, got shortlisted for med. thank gawd. i didn't know that i wanted to get in so badly until this week. ok i think i alr knew, just that i pretend to not know. hahahaha. all the best to everyone for ur uni apps k! :)

shall post some photos to update show snippets on what's been happening in my lifeee :).


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jiali, xiao hui, me, nuans. out on a group date! ahhahaa.


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bf outing on good fri. in sentosa.
back: lorr, me, soongteng. front: genia, wernie, lena, huiling


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wenjie (wearing wernie's sunglasses) and me :).

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lena(hot mama), my bro (hot papa) and me. at changi airport (1o April). his hair was shaved during his farewell on sat. all the best bro :).


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now i'm wearing hot mama's sunglasses. in changi airport's staff canteen after sending my bro off.


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pam's bday dinner on 11 april :)! that's shu, pam, me, ade. lalalaaa~~


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overdue

ok. this post is long overdue. hahahahaha.

a few reasons as to why i havent been blogging...
1) i'm too lazy. as usual.
2) i've too many things to do. if i pen everything down.. aiyar. might as well just shut up and do my stuff. more practical.
3) my blog cant be viewed at my work place. think there's something wrong with the template? hmm. and my template somehow does not motivate me to write.
4) i don't want certain people to see certain things on my blog. oh, how irritating!
5) i'm too lazy. wait a second, did i say that already?


heh heh. anyway my main motivation for blogging today... is because i'm feeling so stressed over my stupid NUS applications!!! ARGHHH. i'm like praying and waiting for stupid NUS to call to say that they have shortlisted me. if they have that is. AHHHHHH

:(.

other than that, my life's been happy happy happy :). oh. my eldest bro just left for australia yesterday. he's going to spend a year in bodhiyana(whatever the spelling), a buddhist monastary, to meditate. he ain't going to contact us for a full year, no calls, no internet. oh well. :/

and i'm acting in bf's vesak day's musical! woohoo. how exciting. it's going to be in jubilee hall, raffles hotel. on 18,19,20 may, 8:30pm. tix going at $10, $20, $50. anybody interested, let me know :). oh, and so my monday and thursday nights are gone by default, for rehearsals. heh heh heh...

life has been really exciting! and tiring. so tiring. i cant wait May to end. come june, i have my freedom! but he's leaving for a month :(. so well oh well. and my birthday month somemore! what a sweet dude huh.. hahaha.

OK. i wanna sleep. tmr's rehearsals again. sorry for the stagnant tag board, i obviously wasnt replying and just enjoying it. but really, the whole wu zun, Real wu zun and ella episodes were really entertaining :). i just wonder if u guys are all the same person. hahaha.


ok take care everyone :)!