Wednesday, February 25, 2009

byebye singapore

i'm leaving my house in 1 and a half hours.

and guess what am i doing? i'm cleaning up the desktops in my house (grabbing whatever that shld be with me in australia; ie. Manga), and am frantically downloading whatever manga that i missed out. i'm also furiously ripping music off cds which i have at home.

there's one thing that i should have done, but haven't done in my hols in singapore. ok fine, a few things.

1) buy an extra mechanical pencil.
2) study.

aiyar, i can do both of them in australia right? no hurry. thus no worries.

will be handicapped for the next week without internet. sobs. how, oh how.

anyway, goodbye singapore. will miss you.(?)

:)

Thursday, February 19, 2009

blah blah

this is going to be a useless entry again. you have been warned.


decided to youtube the song mentioned in the manga Kiss. the song is "Je te veux" by Satie. very nice :). it's been a while since i've appreciated an instrumental piece by a westerner. yet again, maybe it's simply because i haven't been listening to enough variety.

Gymnopedie No. 1 by satie is good too!

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sometimes i wonder what do i fear so much. is it due to repulsion, ego, or... aiis it's just me thinking too much again. learn to live and let live. and do what i have to do. yeppers.

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watched He's Just Not That Into You (HJNTIU). it's an ok show, not bad la. love the jennifer anniston and ben affleck pairing. their story is sooo sweet. hate the adulterous couple pairing (jennifer connelly, scarlet johansson and some guy). even though it's 9 mins longer than slumdog millionaire (SM), SM feels much longer. perhaps it's due to the theme, very heavy. HJNTIU is a nice sweet romantic movie with some heavy parts here and there, but overall palatable. SM is more unnique though.

Monday, February 16, 2009

just enjoy the show

it's been a pretty good day so far!

even though i woke up feeling sick (actually i've been feeling sick ever since i sent the bf off at the airport), the day's been really good.

first, i received the email that i am granted the fee payment extension. and i managed to transfer half the money over. then i received the earrings that i bought online in the mail today. later, i had a nice little chat with j.

and the best part of the day was, the bf called! oh, the sound of his voice was like music to my ears! ok that's really cheesy. HAHAHA. anyway, to hear his voice and know that he's safe and sound; it totally made my day :).

i love this song "The Show" by Lenka! it has a very cute tune and mtv. the music makes me feel happy.

"I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
"



ok to be fair, the bf calling wasn't like the best part of the day. instead, it's more appropriately labeled as the very important point of the day. that's because after his call, everything and anything became good and enjoyable! his call changed my perspective. even my flu and sore throat ain't making me feel as miserable as i had been feeling before. therefore, his call is even better than "the best part of the day".

:)

see you again in a few months. :)

the bf's on the plane:).

spent the day at his place today. almost cried twice then (ok i teared la hahaha). almost cried on the way to the airport too. but i managed to tahan at the airport! good on ya! *pats her own back*

chatted with his parents and met his uncle and auntie. and i really enjoyed it. one thing that i like about it is that i feel really at ease with his family. i don't have to purposely talk a lot, i don't have to put in effort to impress them or anything. it's a really comfortable atmosphere where i can be sincere and be myself. no pressure at all. and they are all really funny, cute, and down to earth. so real and humbling.

learnt a lot from his father. his father is really cute and funny! think he had a great influence on wj. they have very refreshing and wise perspectives on things. was a very enriching conversation. there were two "lessons" that i really liked:

1) 世上没有爱情, 只有感情. (and some nice cheem thing in chinese about starting a relationship by falling in love, and ending the relationship due to wrong views)
2) 世上没有好人和坏人, 只有好事和坏事. [There's no such thing as good people and bad people; there's only good deeds and bad deeds.]

liked the second one the most. hope i won't forget that.

on the way back home, while i was still his parents and relatives, i met my big uncle (da jiu jiu) on the mrt! like OMG. fate la. hahaha. luckily i had to tahan the slightly weird atmosphere for only 1 stop. was actually feeling worried that da jiu jiu will talk to wj's family after i get off, and that he will find out tt i'm attached, and he will report to my mom, and i will die, and and and... hahaha. then i decided that i was worrying too much for nothing. and if that really happened, then it's fate! everything will be in the open then and i won't have to avoid talking about him all the time. it will be shiok la! thus, either way? win-win :).

i realised that our relationship has really matured, as compared to how it was 1 year ago. may we continue on our journey together with faith, dilligence, and right effort. thank the buddha, dhamma, sangha!

feeling contented. yet i can feel the temptation to think about the lack of his presence, which will cause the hollow feeling in my heart to arise, making me feel like crying again.

ahh! i'm thinking too much!!

despite fearing separation and death, i do appreciate it. it is always a good way to remind ourselves to be in the present moment and LIVE. enjoy, appreciate, be.




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dammit, haven't paid my sch fees due to a screw up with the bank. and my application for a fee extension was rejected! urgh. just emailed the course administrator, and pray that i'll be given a few days grace. damn stressed.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

where we come together. and we part once again.

went to my aunt's house today to pray as it's my grandma's death anniversary. rushed over as i was late. have to say that i didn't regret going at all. it was a nice warm feeling to see everyone again, given that we usually only see each other twice a year (christmas and chinese new year. also qing ming jie, but i won't be around for that any time soon i think). had a nice chat with my cousin! i really love my cousins and aunts and uncles. one thing that i sort of regret about is that we just don't meet up often enough. oh wells. you can't have everything in the world!

and indeed, you can't have everything in the world. like the bf is leaving tmr.

:(

yet, would i rather have a lousy relationship and be with him 24/7, or have a happy and loving relationship but not see him often enough?

the latter for me, then.

hahaha. sometimes i think i'm really sick. humans are sick. we like to torture ourselves. like how i'd just keep thinking of him and get lovesick. what sick nature.

lalalaaaa :)

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Valentine's Day 2009

had a wonderful valentine's day. though it started off well, it became rocky in the middle, had issues resolved, and it ended off wonderfully. went to bf for valentine's celebrations at night, met up with old friends then, and had great heart to heart moments with my loved one. full of gratitude for my friends, for him, and for the many lessons i've learnt today.



My valentine's day in summary:

Teh Ping (Iced Tea) - $1.50
Roses - $0 (free from buddhist fellowship)
Taxi fare - $15
Slumdog Millionaire - $21 (subsidised)
Simply being with my friends and loved one - Priceless.

:)

Monday, February 09, 2009

a pretty useless entry on MVs that i've seen recently

christine recommended me to watch Truth by Arashi. went to check it out, and the music was good. liked the violins, it added a touch of class to the entire thing. but other than that... their dancing was so-so. think it's because they can't really dance, and their physiques are just too scrawny for my liking.

because of that MV(music video), i was inspired to watch Mirotic by DBSK again! in contrast, the Mirotic MV made me all flushed hahaha. DBSK had really nice dance moves AND the members can dance really well. In addition, they have very good bodies. their choice of clothes for the MV was very good. showed off just enough skin (HAHAHAHA). main problem is their hair. 3 out of 5 of them had sucky hair. anyway if you are bored and you wanna look at hot guys, check out that MV on youtube.

was reading this manga called Kiss. it's a love story between this piano teacher and his student, aged 25 and 17 respectively if i'm not wrong. love it as it's quite real and sweet. character development is good so far. the mangaka explores the emotions experienced by the characters well. the art and style of story telling is nice and yet simple. fuss free. i guess the most unrealistic thing about the manga is that the lead male character is really good looking and talented. the more important characters are also very attractive too. so far, it's one of my favourite series.

ok this is quite a useless entry. just needed to unload my rubbish somewhere hehe. night all :).

Thursday, February 05, 2009

Ponyo!

just watched Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea! and i looovvveee it :)!! it's SO CUTE.

amazing how it's up on the internet already. and it's of relatively good quality, despite having a woman's trip to the toilet captured on the film twice (yes it's an illegal filming in the cinema, so you get to see the woman's silhouette moving up and down)

i really like the show. it's a vibrant and honest and cute! the main thing is cute, in a very refreshing way. yayness! can't wait for it to be out on dvd, will definitely buy it:).


ok looks like i'm too lazy to continue the previous entry. HAHAHA. till another time then, when i have the mood :p.


*hums the ponyo song to herself ladidum*