(: driving and stuff

whee! i've attended my first 2 driving lessons ytd and today!

so funny. ytd i saw gaius, and that totally freaked me out. what happened was i was seated in the passenger's seat with my instructor in the driver's seat, and he was explaining to me certain basics of driving. there were 2 other cars near me (we were parked in this space. think all of us were having our first lesson). then halfway through the explanation of the rules, i notice the instructor and the student in the car on my left both got out of the car to switch places. the student looked really familier, and he was smiling to himself in a funny way(hahaha). then i realised... GAIUS! gosh. i started freaking out and becoming really excited. but i couldnt do anything! i couldnt shout(didn't want my instructor to think i'm nuts or get pissed off) or wave(he was facing away from me). wah lao, so i got distracted for about a minute. luckily my instructor didn't ask me qns then, if not sure die hahaha. later when i got to drive, things were fine. could concentrate. then at a junction, where me and the car facing me in the opposite direction had to stop, i realised that the driver was gaius, again! AHHH! so irritating. luckily later at the end of the whole lesson, when i was walking back to the centre, i saw him and managed to catch his attention. chatted with him a bit. what a funny experience :).


today when i went for driving, i met xiao ting :)! yay, got to meet so many friends. haha. anyway today's a good day! driving was good and fun. and the instructor praised me leh. he said that i got driving sense. YAY. hahahaha. (aiyar let me boast a bit can. must make myself feel good hahahahaha) so yep! happy happy :). probably will get to drive on the real road during my next lesson. how exciting! for your info, i've been driving in the circuit so far. lalala~~


oh today certain things made me a little bit upset. but aiyar, grow up lar hui lin. so yar. i'm fine already. hahahaha. and life's getting pretty interesting recently. at first i was super shocked and embarrassed.. but AIYAR, GROW UP LAR HUI LIN. so yes, as expected, i'm alright liao :)! but gosh, what a weird development. trying to come to terms with it still.


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reply to tags:

yee wen: ya! she's fussy right. haha. hope ur all well :)!

jiali: hey dear :)! i visited it but NO i'm not joining the competition. my blog's so uninteresting! and i dont want it to be publicised anyway. not suffering from attention deficiency hehehehe. hope all's going well! and rmb, the pen is mightier than the sword! -roars!!- :)

xiu jing: hey dear :)! hope all's good!

alex: hmm are u veron? haha! ok yar as u can see i'm suspicious of male names that i'm not acquainted with...

da xiang: oh, you havent seen me WITHOUT my hairband.. it's currently a permanant feature on my lovely head hehheh. yep, results are probably coming out then.

just the way you are

Don't go changing, to try and please me
You never let me down before
Don't imagine you're too familiar
And I don't see you anymore

I wouldn't leave you in times of trouble
We never could have come this far
I took the good times, I'll take the bad times
I'll take you just the way you are

Don't go trying some new fashion
Don't change the color of your hair
You always have my unspoken passion
Although I might not seem to care

I don't want clever conversation
I never want to work that hard
I just want someone that I can talk to
I want you just the way you are.

I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew
What will it take till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you.

I said I love you and that's forever
And this I promise from the heart
I could not love you any better
I love you just the way you are.

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gosh. i love this song. it's so sweet and the way billy joel sings it just melts my heart.

anyway, i've finally caught up with Bleach during the cny hols. it's currently at ep 116 (just uploaded today on youtube). ahHH so exciting. i'm hooked all over again.

and veron, aiyo! hahaha. i think u look nice in there what. i like ur smile! so yar. what's wrong with it???! so fussy.. hahahaha :p.

dependence (edit)

i hate being dependent on another person.

just yesterday, i was trying to comfort her, telling her that emotional dependence is inevitable and it's natural. gosh, now i feel like i've just slapped myself across the face.

it's just so friggin irritating. to be waiting all the time. and to feel disturbed while waiting. because you simply just cannot concentrate. and you start speculating and speculating until the reply comes. and you get either very happy, or very sad. and you start speculating again, and not concentrating. you forgot what being rational means.

it sucks, really. i obviously have forgotten the sucky parts of this phase. hahaha. nvm, looks like a reminder was necessary, and has been issued.


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just an update, i spoke to hot mama ytd night, and i'm feeling so much better. and aiyar, she has a point. this is the most fun time, when you are put on an emotional rollercoaster. very exciting what. haha.

shall just live in the present moment :)! lalalaa

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outings and stuff

hi everybaaarrrdddyyy :)! hope u guys have had a great new year!


hmmx, i'm currently too lazy to talk. so i shall let photos do the talking as a picture speaks a thousand words :p.




















ok. so here the thousand words begin hahahaha :p. well, on friday(the eve before new year's eve hahaha) i knocked off earlier from my work place, rmb? well, if you don't rmb, this shows that you aren't my die-hard fan and thus you ought to die! heh heh. it's in the previous entry, if i may so kindly point out.

anyway so this is the photo of veron in her venezia apron slacking. and that's me with my new haircut! wahahaha. don't we two look so happy? i tell you, it must have been the festive season dabbling our brains.


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on tuesday, i went out with the bf youths to east coast! perry brought along his frens and sis too. ok amidst my insecurities, somehow things worked out. so yea. happy lar haha.




















in the photo above from right: soong teng, me, yi wei, wen jie, yue guang

ok, i have to sidetrack, isn't guang adorable?? ahhahaha. he has very nice smooth hair. patting his head is surprisingly thereupatic. the other day i was feeling quite down, but after patting his head... whoosh! back to my lala self. hahaha :). oh, he's sec 4 btw. heheh!


























(left to right)
front: jayson, perry(coconut), jenn
back: kori, me, soong teng, yi wei, wen jie, guang, yu lin, hui teng, boyboy(he's soong teng's and hui teng's bro. couldnt catch his real name.), jenn's bro(ok i forgot his name too, sorry!)



i really like hanging out with these people. it's so rare that you get such good vibes from people that you barely know. very nice people. i suspect if not for bf, i probably will feel that i'm totally wasting my time away, especially during these 8 months.


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equanimity. we are all keepers of our own karma. SIGH. oh wELL. heh heh heh.

you reap what you sow, hui lin. YOU REAP WHAT YOU SOW!!


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hahaha :)

happy chinese new year :)

well, it's 1:17am, and it's officially chu yi! happy chinese new year everyone :)!

hmmx, actually i have quite a lot to say about my life, but my second brother doesn't seem to enjoy my presence in this room. so haiyar. suddenly not much motivation to write. sucks :(.

firstly, let's talk about Feb 14, valentine's day. qi en, yohannes and i went for night call! well it's very interesting. followed a very nice house officer (HO). started from around 8pm. just ran around on autopilot as my senses gradually deteriorate. around 5am, i decided to go and sleep. fell asleep around 5:30am in the medical officer (MO) room and was awoken by yohannes at 6:30am. then tmh came around 7:15am to debrief us, and he told us that we had to go to work and stay till 1pm! gosh. that was unexpected(but i guess it isn't much of a surprise, coming from him HAHAHA). so well, we worked till 1pm and took half day off. went home, slept from 3pm-7:30pm, and then from 12 midnight all the way till 6am the next day. so more or less recovered. think mh was rather disappointed tt i was pretty much alive and functional. hahaha! he's a real funny guy lar. i wanna go on call again!

ytd's chu xi ye. new year's eve, for the chinese illiterate (haha i sound as if i'm very pro in chi right hahahaaa). our relatives came over, ate, played mahjong. heh heh. i realised that we are finding less and less value in cny? as in, just look at what we wore. all of us just wore t shirt and shorts. all look damn slack. too lazy to look gd. hahaha.

oh, on friday, i was let off early because of cny! left the office at 3pm, and i went to visit veron at tiong's venezia! haha was quite an amusing experience looking at veron working and being totally PR. took a lot of photos with her using our hp(but only a few of them passed her stringent quality check). will post them up one day :p. then u guys can see my new hair cut! hehhehheh

after that, i met up with wj and p. there were supposed to be more people, but well, things happen. so yea. was an enjoyable outing. heard about the tough training that the navy divers had to go through and their hell week. gosh, i'm so proud to know a navy diver! and now, i totally have no sympathy for all of my other guy friends who complain about army all of them time. hahaha. it's like, so whimpy to complain lor. cause their training is heaven compared to that of the navy divers. anyway, they took me to their hideout. a very nice place. didn't know that such a place can exist in orchard. to be honest, if i could, i wouldnt have gone home. that place was really nice. just that we might need to bring insect repellant or baygon. HEHH. anyway, i was sent home, and felt really bad about it. AH WELLS.



anyway dear friends, sorry for the late update. thanks for the tags! and you guys take care too yea? stay happy :)!

rant

oh, i just feel like ranting.

i don't know what on earth am i doing. but that's where things get fun, right? :p

the release of the results are getting closer.. well, nothing to say lar. feeling kinda terrible inside. usually can keep it in, unless some people decide to discuss about when it's going to be released of ask me about my plans. must act strong! HEH HEH.

sheesh i havent cleaned up my room since A's. it's in a MESS. and i'm too lazy to do something about it. grr.

i miss going to the beach. i miss cycling. i miss smiling really happily or crying like the world's going to end. i'm just so... tensed. i don't like high-strung me. there can be some distractions here and there, but the tension's still there.

maybe one of these days i'll go to the beach. like the coming monday! if i happen to be free. then i'll need to hunt for kah kees.

anyway, i passed my basic theory test. finished it in 10mins, decided to check, but gave up on checking halfway cuz i felt like i was wasting my time. so in arnd 15mins, i decided to just click the end test button. thank gawd i passed, or i'll kill myself for not checking properly haha!

and now, i got to study for advanced theory. baah, it's so much thicker!! -complain complain-.

i don't know what i want. or do i? i just don't want to hurt people, that's clear. but other than that, my mind's a mess.

i'm pretty bored with my life right now i think. not that it's super uneventful, in fact it's pretty eventful given that i do go out still. and i have things to do(but i am procastinating. dont wanna work my brain). but something's lacking. and i don't know what, not consciously at least.

and whatever's missing, is making my life damn dull.

i was just telling jia li, that sometimes i feel like a really bad friend? because i don't know what to say or do. how do you move on? how to you help others to move on? talking about it doesn't seem right, acting normal is not right either. acting normal is not being normal, it's merely pretending. so i avoid. and that is really bad.

ahhhh. sigh.

ok i'm going off. some things cannot be said here. maybe i should change my blog add so that only the selected few can view it.

night all, and please take care.

yada

ok b4 i start, let's reply to tags:


to all ppl who were perioding: haiyo. at this rate, you guys must have bled to death :p. stop ur periods!

to ppl who were talking abt bfs in army: no, i'm not afraid of them becoming gay. it's just emotionally draining cuz u only see them on weekends(jw, spot on!) and sometimes u dont see them every week. sometimes u cant talk to them on the phone or msg cuz they are bz, having field camps or have low batt HAHAHA. and you cant look around at other guys without feeling guilty, while they only have you to look forward to. what if u spot a better guy??? HAHAHAHA. ok i'm evil. but yea. and usually army guys are despo (ok sorry. no offence, but this is what everyone tells me, even guys who alr went to NS).

to sua: nooo!! plz lor, u didnt put up a photo of urself too when u cut ur hair lor :p.


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ok, i deleted some of my angsty entries because i'm angsty-no-more! whee :)!!!

ok, it's confirmed, i'm doing night call on valentine's day, and i'll be doing it overnight! meaning it will start at 6pm(or whenever i'm let off from work) and end the next day morning, when i go for work(8am?). no, i wasn't that nut. it's cuz the reg on call will only allow me to tag along if i stayed overnight! baaahh :/. hahahaha. but nvm, how often will u do overnight calls on vday right? it's an experience! i have a life, i have a life!

hehheh. but ok honestly, i'm pretty excited about it. got to thank tmh actually. if not, i wont stay overnight, given tt i got work the nxt day. aiyar, if i'm really dead, i'll take leave the next day. so no prob!


met up with circle of trust and tangent ytd at PS for dinner. tran didnt come though. she was ploughing padi fields in vietnam HAHAHA.

fyi, the above was just a joke, created by veronica how. hehheh.

gosh, i need to do something about my clothes! i think my friends have such a great sense of style. gaaahhH!! i need money. i need to go SHOPPING!!!

oh yes, my pay check has arrived today. whee! actually there was a screw up cuz i was supposed to get it ytd. SOME department thought that i was working for free! gosh, free labour. can you believe it?? only know how to take advantage of me. -grumbles-. but luckily SOMEONE saved the day for me :)!! if not i'd only get my pay next month. wth. nuts lar.

eh. so now tt i have got money, i can go shopping :)! but honestly, i will feel guilty if i shop. i dont wanna spend my own money. hehhehheh.

anyway, work's good. lalalalala~~.

driving test is coming soon. i shall go study now! :)

hair

just went to cut my hair. goodbye fringe. and guess what, my bro said that i look OLD. i look like i'm 26 years old!! AHHH NOOOO. goodbye youth :(

shall edit this post or update later.

army boys and their girlfriends

hahaha what an interesting title right?? no lar, i'm not talking about witnessing these ppl doing horny stuff. so those who wanted to see such stuff, too bad.

today i talked to two friends online, and both of them were being upset because their bf's in army. it's pretty amusing and sad at the same time. cuz dear friends, i know what ur talking about! life sucks! i went through it last year, and ew, i dont wanna go thru that period again. loads of emotional turbulance loL! aiyar, NS sucks lar.

it's really interesting, cuz even though they sound pretty sad(and sometimes even slightly pissed with their bf for very understandable female reasons), and i say some stuff that aint very positive about their bf just to show that i empathise with them, they start defending their bfs! like aiyar, no lar, even though he did this to me, i know that it's because he's bz blah blah blah.

hahaha. very sweet of them actually. aiyar. people in love. ooOooOooOoo :).

actually hor, it's super boh hua to have bf who's in NS or going to NS soon. so emotionally draining! best to get after they get out. plus they have grown to become men(we can only hope).

nevertheless, what an interesting time. gosh, i'm like being empathetic, sympathetic, evil, all at the same time. oh heck. i shall just have fun. hope everyone's having fun too :)!!