once again, i have come to the conclusion that words can hurt a lot. and to be careful about what you write on your blog. no matter what, it's the WWW. anybody can see it. especially if you've told others about your blog before, and you actually type out people's names.
de-identify, if you just HAVE to write about it.
it's bugging me.
Friday, November 07, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Everything - Michael Buble
"Everything"
You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.
And you play it coy but it's kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true.
'cause you can see it when I look at you.
[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.
And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.
[Chorus]
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
oo i love this song! especially the tune. loved it when zhilin played it on the guitar :).
You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.
And you play it coy but it's kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true.
'cause you can see it when I look at you.
[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.
And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.
[Chorus]
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
oo i love this song! especially the tune. loved it when zhilin played it on the guitar :).
Sunday, October 05, 2008
quick ramblings
GAH i'm so fat! really need to exercise!!!
singapore day was pretty fun. met peter monksfield! that totally made my day :).
singapore day was pretty fun. met peter monksfield! that totally made my day :).
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
P M S
when you thought The Grudge was bad enough... now you have The Grouch.
..approach at your own risk!
..approach at your own risk!
Monday, September 29, 2008
Flowers and "I"
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was thinking about ego and some of my friends. and how she always goes "i don't understand why (for eg) you dont like to eat this" etc. then i realised that why we often do not understand others is often because we're too full of ourselves. we tend to look at matters from where WE are standing from. the big letter "I". where "I" would behave in a particular way in a particular situation, and "I" cannot understand why people do not behave in the same way as "I" would. for isn't it natural, to behave as "I" am?
if we could really disregard ourselves, and put ourselves fully into the person's shoes, surely we can understand them, no matter how perverse or warped their thoughts are.
sometimes, we do accept other people's opinion, and weave them with our own, creating a new hybrid opinion that is now Mine. but as long as there's ego, where "I" exists, there can never be an opinion more important and correct than "Mine".
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flowers.
i never knew that i was that much of a flower person, till i came to melbourne. in spring (which happens to be now), wow, it's so beautiful! all of the flowers are blooming, you can never imagine that that was the same place just a month ago.
i realised that i really love small flowers. i don't really have a liking for large ones as i find them rather... vulgar. it's so big that it's ugly. from far, it catches your eyes first and may look really beautiful with its bold stunning colours; but when you come near, there's nothing more to it. you get to see its insides, the style, anthers, stigma, pollen... nothing pretty. just huge and vulgar.
small flowers are different. they look really sweet but they might not attract as much attention from far. but if you bother to come close and really observe it, it's really pretty and delicate. the internal structures are small too. and they tend to bloom in a bunch, really pretty! *smiles happily*
of course, there are some large flowers that can be beautiful too. for eg: spider lily. really elegant. if they are huge, they better be elegant. if not.. ah not my taste.
my dream house would be a cottage! with orangey-red bricks. and have a beautiful garden with manicured bushes and lawns, and with pretty pretty flowers! and there will be a tea table in the middle, where we can have afternoon tea. lovely :D! but yea, that's only possible if my house is in aussie though. and i hate their summer and winter. so too bad. hahaha.
talking about the weather, it's currently spring. and the flies are reviving :(.
was thinking about ego and some of my friends. and how she always goes "i don't understand why (for eg) you dont like to eat this" etc. then i realised that why we often do not understand others is often because we're too full of ourselves. we tend to look at matters from where WE are standing from. the big letter "I". where "I" would behave in a particular way in a particular situation, and "I" cannot understand why people do not behave in the same way as "I" would. for isn't it natural, to behave as "I" am?
if we could really disregard ourselves, and put ourselves fully into the person's shoes, surely we can understand them, no matter how perverse or warped their thoughts are.
sometimes, we do accept other people's opinion, and weave them with our own, creating a new hybrid opinion that is now Mine. but as long as there's ego, where "I" exists, there can never be an opinion more important and correct than "Mine".
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
flowers.
i never knew that i was that much of a flower person, till i came to melbourne. in spring (which happens to be now), wow, it's so beautiful! all of the flowers are blooming, you can never imagine that that was the same place just a month ago.
i realised that i really love small flowers. i don't really have a liking for large ones as i find them rather... vulgar. it's so big that it's ugly. from far, it catches your eyes first and may look really beautiful with its bold stunning colours; but when you come near, there's nothing more to it. you get to see its insides, the style, anthers, stigma, pollen... nothing pretty. just huge and vulgar.
small flowers are different. they look really sweet but they might not attract as much attention from far. but if you bother to come close and really observe it, it's really pretty and delicate. the internal structures are small too. and they tend to bloom in a bunch, really pretty! *smiles happily*
of course, there are some large flowers that can be beautiful too. for eg: spider lily. really elegant. if they are huge, they better be elegant. if not.. ah not my taste.
my dream house would be a cottage! with orangey-red bricks. and have a beautiful garden with manicured bushes and lawns, and with pretty pretty flowers! and there will be a tea table in the middle, where we can have afternoon tea. lovely :D! but yea, that's only possible if my house is in aussie though. and i hate their summer and winter. so too bad. hahaha.
talking about the weather, it's currently spring. and the flies are reviving :(.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
food for thought
"A dream that will come true is not a real dream."
An interesting perspective yea? and it makes perfect sense!
the best part is, guess where it came from?
...Fullmetal Alchemist. loL!
An interesting perspective yea? and it makes perfect sense!
the best part is, guess where it came from?
...Fullmetal Alchemist. loL!
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
speech check
ok thanks to veron's entry, i was reminded about my own resolution to myself to reduce the amount of profanities i've been using.
i shall avoid using:
what the sai (replace with: what the crap)
wah lao/piang (replace with: ??)
shit (replace with: sheesh/shucks/crap)
damn (replace with: darn. ok this one is really hard to stop saying)
bloody (replace with: bleaghh)
oh my god (replace with: oh my goodness/oh my mama/oh my)
ok, jia you!
i shall avoid using:
what the sai (replace with: what the crap)
wah lao/piang (replace with: ??)
shit (replace with: sheesh/shucks/crap)
damn (replace with: darn. ok this one is really hard to stop saying)
bloody (replace with: bleaghh)
oh my god (replace with: oh my goodness/oh my mama/oh my)
ok, jia you!
Kurosagi
just watched the drama Kurosagi.
it's pretty good, gave it a 7/10 - 7.5/10. it'd have been better if the female lead character and the supporting female character wasn't in the story at all, they totally piss me off. can you imagine, i'd rather the show have zero romance in it. that's how bad they irritate me. lol.
yamapi was pretty good in the show. i didn't take to him immediately though (unlike chuns and chris hahaha). i think i started to like him more only in the 4th episode? that's quite pathetic actually haha.
i can't stand the police officer too. actually, the "good guys" in the show are all irritating. the "bad guys" (the swindlers) generally grow on you.
ok, the end. hehheh
it's pretty good, gave it a 7/10 - 7.5/10. it'd have been better if the female lead character and the supporting female character wasn't in the story at all, they totally piss me off. can you imagine, i'd rather the show have zero romance in it. that's how bad they irritate me. lol.
yamapi was pretty good in the show. i didn't take to him immediately though (unlike chuns and chris hahaha). i think i started to like him more only in the 4th episode? that's quite pathetic actually haha.
i can't stand the police officer too. actually, the "good guys" in the show are all irritating. the "bad guys" (the swindlers) generally grow on you.
ok, the end. hehheh
Monday, September 22, 2008
Med Ball 2008 - 20/09/08
alright, med ball's over! end of the days of restricting my diet! (yeah right)
mini bimbo talk: heng my make up this time round ok. realised that foundation and concealor are VERY impt. esp foundation.
felt that some ugly sides of me surfaced. didn't like those aspects of me. shall work on them.
after looking at how people get wasted and drunk and high, i'm even more turned off alcohol. think it's rather ugly, even when you see people who are just high. the things they can do.. given that i can get high without alcohol given the right conditions (and surely many others can as well), i shudder to think of my behaviour with alcohol, when you get less and less inhibited. i'd rather keep that side of me hidden and buried, preferably non-existant.
it was actually a pretty scary experience for me to see people get drunk and stuff. yes, as you can imagine, i'm very guai. hahaha. never see before. and i didn't drink a single drop of alcohol that day (much to the deprecating looks of at least 3 other people). {ok i'm pretty sure i phrased that sentence in the brackets wrongly, can somebody correct me? thanks hahaha.} seriously, what's so cool about drinking? if a person doesn't want to drink, leave her be. especially when ****** kept on asking me to drink, and gave me the oh-you-pussy-you-just-don't-dare-to-drink look (parden my crudeness), and i had to repeatedly reject him and explain myself. till i gave up cuz he wasn't worth my effort anyway. luckily C came to my rescue and told him that it's not that i don't dare to drink, it's just that i chose not to drink (and that's what i kept telling him anyway). and he looked really surprised when i mentioned that the last time i went to a jazz bar i drank a cocktail (before i chose to abstain from alcohol). i guess people just don't understand why some others choose to abstain from it? maybe it's because it seems to represent normalcy, socialbility, or simply "being in and cool". this might be a generalization, but i think people who are really empty in their hearts and don't have anything solid to fall back on and choose to drink to "add meaning", "zest", "depth" and "fun" to their lives might be even more deluded about it. like ******. urgh.
and when they think i'm not up to the challenge because i don't drink alcohol, i beg to differ. isn't it more challenging to stay off alcohol? when everybody seems to think that drinking is cool and is a form of socialising, and desire to obtain that "high feeling" which misleads them to think that they are happy for that one hour? it's THEM who are not up to the challenge. they would rather take the short cut to what seems like happiness. in reality, that isn't true happiness. it's short lived, you do stupid things that you regret, and you get hangovers and feel like shit soon after. it's empty. but so what? it's fast and you can obtain it with money, just throw the notes and down the pot. that's why many people get stuck in the horrid cycle of drinking and get addicted to alcohol.
to any others who read my blog, if you drink, i hope you aren't offended. it's ok if you want to drink, but just don't think that you are more hip and cool than those who don't, and don't force them to drink. i don't care about what you do, just don't impose your will on me.
sheesh, hope i've ranted most my cheesed-offness. heh heh!
bye guys, bathing time!
to Veron: hmm love life ahh, hahaha. dunno. that's why need u to tell me if got any mah! plus ur blog lyrics always so "dodgy". hehehe ;). oo analytical chem! not that i know what it is. but what's wrong with studying human body parts in detail?? i can teach u if u want... *cheeky wink* ;)
mini bimbo talk: heng my make up this time round ok. realised that foundation and concealor are VERY impt. esp foundation.
felt that some ugly sides of me surfaced. didn't like those aspects of me. shall work on them.
after looking at how people get wasted and drunk and high, i'm even more turned off alcohol. think it's rather ugly, even when you see people who are just high. the things they can do.. given that i can get high without alcohol given the right conditions (and surely many others can as well), i shudder to think of my behaviour with alcohol, when you get less and less inhibited. i'd rather keep that side of me hidden and buried, preferably non-existant.
it was actually a pretty scary experience for me to see people get drunk and stuff. yes, as you can imagine, i'm very guai. hahaha. never see before. and i didn't drink a single drop of alcohol that day (much to the deprecating looks of at least 3 other people). {ok i'm pretty sure i phrased that sentence in the brackets wrongly, can somebody correct me? thanks hahaha.} seriously, what's so cool about drinking? if a person doesn't want to drink, leave her be. especially when ****** kept on asking me to drink, and gave me the oh-you-pussy-you-just-don't-dare-to-drink look (parden my crudeness), and i had to repeatedly reject him and explain myself. till i gave up cuz he wasn't worth my effort anyway. luckily C came to my rescue and told him that it's not that i don't dare to drink, it's just that i chose not to drink (and that's what i kept telling him anyway). and he looked really surprised when i mentioned that the last time i went to a jazz bar i drank a cocktail (before i chose to abstain from alcohol). i guess people just don't understand why some others choose to abstain from it? maybe it's because it seems to represent normalcy, socialbility, or simply "being in and cool". this might be a generalization, but i think people who are really empty in their hearts and don't have anything solid to fall back on and choose to drink to "add meaning", "zest", "depth" and "fun" to their lives might be even more deluded about it. like ******. urgh.
and when they think i'm not up to the challenge because i don't drink alcohol, i beg to differ. isn't it more challenging to stay off alcohol? when everybody seems to think that drinking is cool and is a form of socialising, and desire to obtain that "high feeling" which misleads them to think that they are happy for that one hour? it's THEM who are not up to the challenge. they would rather take the short cut to what seems like happiness. in reality, that isn't true happiness. it's short lived, you do stupid things that you regret, and you get hangovers and feel like shit soon after. it's empty. but so what? it's fast and you can obtain it with money, just throw the notes and down the pot. that's why many people get stuck in the horrid cycle of drinking and get addicted to alcohol.
to any others who read my blog, if you drink, i hope you aren't offended. it's ok if you want to drink, but just don't think that you are more hip and cool than those who don't, and don't force them to drink. i don't care about what you do, just don't impose your will on me.
sheesh, hope i've ranted most my cheesed-offness. heh heh!
bye guys, bathing time!
to Veron: hmm love life ahh, hahaha. dunno. that's why need u to tell me if got any mah! plus ur blog lyrics always so "dodgy". hehehe ;). oo analytical chem! not that i know what it is. but what's wrong with studying human body parts in detail?? i can teach u if u want... *cheeky wink* ;)
Friday, September 19, 2008
hainan :)
just talked to des about the trip. omg i'm getting so excited!!!
we plan to go backpacking. shall talk more about our plans after it's confirmed. AHHH *jumps around happily* :)
oh, and regarding my assignment.. well, i managed to survive it. barely. hehhh.
cheers ;)!
we plan to go backpacking. shall talk more about our plans after it's confirmed. AHHH *jumps around happily* :)
oh, and regarding my assignment.. well, i managed to survive it. barely. hehhh.
cheers ;)!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
5:03am
a bit more to go.. shall try to do my annotated biblio now... then tmr do editing and summary.
my eyes are starting to defocus. and i can hear loads of birds chirping! it's a sign of a new day alr. AHHHHHHHHHhhh
teoh hui lin... you are simply amazing.
[edited 5 mins later] ok buay sai. heart palpatations and seriously can't think. good night world hahaha. [/edit]
my eyes are starting to defocus. and i can hear loads of birds chirping! it's a sign of a new day alr. AHHHHHHHHHhhh
teoh hui lin... you are simply amazing.
[edited 5 mins later] ok buay sai. heart palpatations and seriously can't think. good night world hahaha. [/edit]
procastinator is my second name
i'm so amazed by my ability to procastinate, if there's a job that requires procastination, i'd earn big money, big money!
a bit more to go with epi assignment, or maybe i'm underestimating it. remind me NEVER to procastinate to this extent again. this is one of the worst situations of procastination i've ever been in. urgh.
[EDIT] update! i left conclusion, biblio, and overall editing plus summarising. aw man, my brain and eyes are dead laaa. i can't believe myself. i'm amazing. *sigh*[/EDIT]
a bit more to go with epi assignment, or maybe i'm underestimating it. remind me NEVER to procastinate to this extent again. this is one of the worst situations of procastination i've ever been in. urgh.
[EDIT] update! i left conclusion, biblio, and overall editing plus summarising. aw man, my brain and eyes are dead laaa. i can't believe myself. i'm amazing. *sigh*[/EDIT]
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
pon queen
wah at the rate i'm ponning lessons, i can be a pon star lar. haha!
ok la, not that bad. so far i've ponned 1 lesson of epi, 2 lessons of selectives (i'm going to pon my second lesson today), 1 lesson of clinical skills, 1 lesson of socio. that's for the entire year so far la. that should be all.
hmm i didn't count how many lectures i've skipped though. didn't skip many la.. maybe 4 for the entire year? and those i've skipped were seriously useless.
feel so pai as compared to myself in sec sch and in jc. hehehehe.
ok, better use my extra time wisely and finish my damn assignment!!!
ok la, not that bad. so far i've ponned 1 lesson of epi, 2 lessons of selectives (i'm going to pon my second lesson today), 1 lesson of clinical skills, 1 lesson of socio. that's for the entire year so far la. that should be all.
hmm i didn't count how many lectures i've skipped though. didn't skip many la.. maybe 4 for the entire year? and those i've skipped were seriously useless.
feel so pai as compared to myself in sec sch and in jc. hehehehe.
ok, better use my extra time wisely and finish my damn assignment!!!
Quote of the day
"A flower falls,
even though we love it;
and a weed grows,
even though we do not love it." ~Dogen
even though we love it;
and a weed grows,
even though we do not love it." ~Dogen
Thursday, September 11, 2008
HERO
[EDIT] ok i sort of take my words back on how wonderful kimutaku is. because clara brought up a very good point... don't you think not only does he not age, he is also looking younger and younger??!! which can be rather freaky. no surprise if he did stuff like botox i guess.. and if he did, that's a super turn off. but really, i was looking at his photos, then i realised those photos that he looked really young and good in, are actually taken THIS YEAR. omg. either he had botox, or they did some photoshop. i still like him, but erm, less :p. [/EDIT]
i just watched finish HERO (the old jap drama starring takuya kimura and matsu takako).
the drama's VERY good. the directing is excellent, and it's very funny. loads of funny moments, and i grew to love all of the characters in it. ok, ALMOST all :p.
oh, it's about public prosecutors by the way. and i dont think they glorified the profession of lawyers as much as other tv shows. they did portray their work as being dull and mundane (which i appreciated), although of course there are cool moments la, involving my wonderful kimura.
and i just HAVE to talk about kimura. he's.. SO HOT. WAAAHH. ok honestly, at first i found him ok only. but by the end of the show, whoaaa. he's the charismatic kind. especially at the last part of the last episode, the screen shots of him are SO GOOD. super super hot, HAHAHA. and he's the um chio ("secretly smile") kind in the show. his character is very different from that portrayed in Long Vacation. and also different from Beautiful Life (which i didn't finish watching, got sian by the general sombre mood of the show, will watch when i'm the right mood for it). i realised that i didn't find kimura hot at the beginning of Long Vacation either, and he wasn't hot at all in Beautiful Life (yet again, i only caught maybe about 2 episodes?) it's his overall charisma that wins you over in the end. ok i'm just repeating myself, but heck it. HAHA.
matsu takako seemed to look hotter when i saw her when i was young. hmm.
the plot's good because they don't focus much on love? there IS the theme of love, but the show isn't about love. how refreshing! and the criminal cases are interesting. the love between the leads are so subtlely and realistically created and the progression was natural. very goood.
and i love the music! especially the end theme: Can You Keep A Secret by Utada Hikaru. it's hilarious how they gave utada so much screen time in her cameo role. it's very little screen time in reality, but for a role as a cameo waitress, it's unbelievably how much time they spent focusing on her face. i didn't know it was her when i was watching, and found it so bizarre until i realised that it's utada, and then things started to make sense.
kimura is so cute! he looks best when he looks directly at the camera. pity that he has crooked teeth. matsu also has crooked teeth. oh wells.
shucks, i'm as meaty, or even MORE meaty than matsu takako then. oh no. i better lose weight!!
and look at the pictures of kimura, he is looking hotter with age. and he doesnt seem to have aged at all!! goodness.. what is this..
ok end of my bimbo rant :)!
i just watched finish HERO (the old jap drama starring takuya kimura and matsu takako).
the drama's VERY good. the directing is excellent, and it's very funny. loads of funny moments, and i grew to love all of the characters in it. ok, ALMOST all :p.
oh, it's about public prosecutors by the way. and i dont think they glorified the profession of lawyers as much as other tv shows. they did portray their work as being dull and mundane (which i appreciated), although of course there are cool moments la, involving my wonderful kimura.
and i just HAVE to talk about kimura. he's.. SO HOT. WAAAHH. ok honestly, at first i found him ok only. but by the end of the show, whoaaa. he's the charismatic kind. especially at the last part of the last episode, the screen shots of him are SO GOOD. super super hot, HAHAHA. and he's the um chio ("secretly smile") kind in the show. his character is very different from that portrayed in Long Vacation. and also different from Beautiful Life (which i didn't finish watching, got sian by the general sombre mood of the show, will watch when i'm the right mood for it). i realised that i didn't find kimura hot at the beginning of Long Vacation either, and he wasn't hot at all in Beautiful Life (yet again, i only caught maybe about 2 episodes?) it's his overall charisma that wins you over in the end. ok i'm just repeating myself, but heck it. HAHA.
matsu takako seemed to look hotter when i saw her when i was young. hmm.
the plot's good because they don't focus much on love? there IS the theme of love, but the show isn't about love. how refreshing! and the criminal cases are interesting. the love between the leads are so subtlely and realistically created and the progression was natural. very goood.
and i love the music! especially the end theme: Can You Keep A Secret by Utada Hikaru. it's hilarious how they gave utada so much screen time in her cameo role. it's very little screen time in reality, but for a role as a cameo waitress, it's unbelievably how much time they spent focusing on her face. i didn't know it was her when i was watching, and found it so bizarre until i realised that it's utada, and then things started to make sense.
kimura is so cute! he looks best when he looks directly at the camera. pity that he has crooked teeth. matsu also has crooked teeth. oh wells.
shucks, i'm as meaty, or even MORE meaty than matsu takako then. oh no. i better lose weight!!
and look at the pictures of kimura, he is looking hotter with age. and he doesnt seem to have aged at all!! goodness.. what is this..
ok end of my bimbo rant :)!
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
Ueno Juri
She's currently my favourite actress. gosh, she's so beautiful, and she acts so well! she has a lot of on screen charisma.
watched Nodame Cantabile and Swing Girls. saw her photos from Last Friends (where she acted as a butch). she looks so different, especially in Last Friends. have to admit that she looks very hot (as a female in her other shows, and as a lesbian in Last Friends).
i do wish that one day i can do a role like hers. really challenging and exciting :).
watched Nodame Cantabile and Swing Girls. saw her photos from Last Friends (where she acted as a butch). she looks so different, especially in Last Friends. have to admit that she looks very hot (as a female in her other shows, and as a lesbian in Last Friends).
i do wish that one day i can do a role like hers. really challenging and exciting :).
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
a happy day
today's such a good day!
I have a new love.... *shy shy*... and he's GERRY!!
ok don't think in the wrong direction... he's one of the anatomy lecturers. and yesterday, our PCL tutor was not free, so he came to teach us! oh, he's SO GOOD.
today, during dissection, Dan came along and made me answer 2 qns! ahh he made my day! reminds me of last semester's PCL. feel pampered and have some importance and less stupid in front of him than *some other tutor*.
and to add the icing on the cake, Gerry appeared! and so i requested to look at his body. ok, his cadaver, i mean. and he went through the wrist with me. waaah, he's so so so good. and you can tell that he really enjoys teaching. *beams*
went for clinical skills tute, and felt really happy as i'm getting gradually increasingly comfortable with my class. happy happy :).
hmm, at the end of this year, if the *some other tutor* still doesn't call out my name, i'd seriously consider shaking his hand, thanking him for teaching us, and say "oh, by the way, my name is lin." hahaha!
I have a new love.... *shy shy*... and he's GERRY!!
ok don't think in the wrong direction... he's one of the anatomy lecturers. and yesterday, our PCL tutor was not free, so he came to teach us! oh, he's SO GOOD.
today, during dissection, Dan came along and made me answer 2 qns! ahh he made my day! reminds me of last semester's PCL. feel pampered and have some importance and less stupid in front of him than *some other tutor*.
and to add the icing on the cake, Gerry appeared! and so i requested to look at his body. ok, his cadaver, i mean. and he went through the wrist with me. waaah, he's so so so good. and you can tell that he really enjoys teaching. *beams*
went for clinical skills tute, and felt really happy as i'm getting gradually increasingly comfortable with my class. happy happy :).
hmm, at the end of this year, if the *some other tutor* still doesn't call out my name, i'd seriously consider shaking his hand, thanking him for teaching us, and say "oh, by the way, my name is lin." hahaha!
Monday, August 11, 2008
"fathering found" and olympics
got this from the staits times online..
http://www.straitstimes.com/Prime%2BNews/Story/STIStory_266726.html
super cute la!
watched the olympics (swimming) in school today during our 2 hour break in the lunch area. it was quite a site, to see a crowd of people from various nationalities sitting on the floor together, watching the silent projection on the wall.
it was rather amusing how some of us were deciding who to support. ie, the criteria based on, firstly, an athelete from your country (happened once today); secondly, your favourite athelete; thirdly, nationality (preferably asians of course). and when we can't find anybody that fits into that criteria, we go back to basics: height, physique and looks. of course, that's for the male swimmers *drools*. the female swimmers were generally too bulky to admire.
then when it was Tao Li's swim, whoa! the small bunch of us in the middle of the sea of australians were like cheering and going all excited because she was in the finals. and she made it to the 5th place, which is very good! 5th in the whole world! aiya, after a while, you just give up having hopes that singapore will get gold medals for such events.
the most amazing event that i've seen today is the 4X100m men's relay. everyone seated there was rooting for australia (duh, cuz singapore ain't in it) and we were all cheering for them. it was a super exciting race, and someone was going "wtf" at the speed of the americans. and the world record was broken by 5 of the teams in that race. everyone applauded when USA won, especially seeing how they won just at the VERY END. waaahh. i was never interested in olympics, and never watched it till today. now i'm interested.
ok, life's sucky and good all at the same time. too much work to do. GAH. :/
Friday, July 04, 2008
favourite quotes
"If you cannot improve on the silence, do not speak."
"If you care to know of past live's causes,
Look at rewards you are reaping today
If you wish to find out about future lives,
You need but notice what you're doing right now."
the 2nd and 3rd quote are basically the same thing with a slightly different focus. liked both, so put both in haha. these 3 quotes have kept me grounded recently :). especially the first quote. helped me trememdously when i was in australia. hope these quotes can be of inspiration to you!
"If you care to know of past live's causes,
Look at rewards you are reaping today
If you wish to find out about future lives,
You need but notice what you're doing right now."
"It is said that if you want to know what you were doing in the past, look at your body now; if you want to know what will happen to you in the future, look at what your mind is doing now."
The Dalai Lama
the 2nd and 3rd quote are basically the same thing with a slightly different focus. liked both, so put both in haha. these 3 quotes have kept me grounded recently :). especially the first quote. helped me trememdously when i was in australia. hope these quotes can be of inspiration to you!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Saturday, June 14, 2008
anaphylaxis
i'm like damn round now. as round as a char siew bao. (see my problem?? i love food so much, i even use them to describe myself) scared ppl can't recognise me when i go back to singapore. boo :(.
aim to run everyday back in singapore!! woohoo!! hehh. hope i do get down to it.
ihate anat. it's pissing me off. gaaaahhh. and we look like sai when we are foetuses. ugly parasitic lifeforms.
hahahaaa dont mind me, i'm just a bit mad now. and bitter. bitter mad meddie. heh.
soleus muscle.
gaah why do i always do start studying so late, i might as well just go and die. argh
i'm allergic to studying.... getting histamine released from mast cells which originate from basophils (granulocyte). due to IgE binding to it's Fc receptors. my arteries are dilating and capillary permeability increasing, losing circulatory volume and decrease in bp... getting an anaphylactic shock... and as there's no adrenaline to administer to me subcutaneously... i'm officially pronounced dead!!
whheeeeeeeeEEE~~!
oh, oh! on a happier note, i can't wait to go to Thai Express!!! *salivates* ...wait, did i just give in to my stomach again? :/
aim to run everyday back in singapore!! woohoo!! hehh. hope i do get down to it.
i
hahahaaa dont mind me, i'm just a bit mad now. and bitter. bitter mad meddie. heh.
soleus muscle.
gaah why do i always do start studying so late, i might as well just go and die. argh
i'm allergic to studying.... getting histamine released from mast cells which originate from basophils (granulocyte). due to IgE binding to it's Fc receptors. my arteries are dilating and capillary permeability increasing, losing circulatory volume and decrease in bp... getting an anaphylactic shock... and as there's no adrenaline to administer to me subcutaneously... i'm officially pronounced dead!!
whheeeeeeeeEEE~~!
oh, oh! on a happier note, i can't wait to go to Thai Express!!! *salivates* ...wait, did i just give in to my stomach again? :/
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
wishlist
1) sambal stingray
2) katong laksa
3) bah chor mee
4) jap food. soft shell crab
5) sambal kang kong
6) crab (black pepper/chilli/ tang hoon)
7) san lao he fen
8) mom's food. actually that's at the top. :)
2) katong laksa
3) bah chor mee
4) jap food. soft shell crab
5) sambal kang kong
6) crab (black pepper/chilli/ tang hoon)
7) san lao he fen
8) mom's food. actually that's at the top. :)
Saturday, May 31, 2008
amusing medical quotes
A Short History of Medicine
2000 B.C. - "Here, eat this root."
1000 B.C. - "That root is heathen, say this prayer."
1850 A.D. - "That prayer is superstition, drink this potion."
1940 A.D. - "That potion is snake oil, swallow this pill."
1985 A.D. - "That pill is ineffective, take this antibiotic."
2000 A.D. - "That antibiotic is artificial. Here, eat this root."
~Author Unknown
When a lot of remedies are suggested for a disease, that means it cannot be cured. ~Anton Chekhov, The Cherry Orchard
It is a mathematical fact that fifty percent of all doctors graduate in the bottom half of their class. ~Author Unknown
Did God who gave us flowers and trees,
Also provide the allergies?
~E.Y. Harburg, "A Nose Is a Nose Is a Nose," 1965
It is a good thing for a physician to have prematurely grey hair and itching piles. The first makes him appear to know more than he does, and the second gives him an expression of concern which the patient interprets as being on his behalf. ~A. Benson Cannon
anyway urgh i have fever :(. for the past few days. and i cant rest cuz of the stupid assignment!!! omg i cant wait for this crap to be over.
2000 B.C. - "Here, eat this root."
1000 B.C. - "That root is heathen, say this prayer."
1850 A.D. - "That prayer is superstition, drink this potion."
1940 A.D. - "That potion is snake oil, swallow this pill."
1985 A.D. - "That pill is ineffective, take this antibiotic."
2000 A.D. - "That antibiotic is artificial. Here, eat this root."
~Author Unknown
When a lot of remedies are suggested for a disease, that means it cannot be cured. ~Anton Chekhov, The Cherry Orchard
It is a mathematical fact that fifty percent of all doctors graduate in the bottom half of their class. ~Author Unknown
Did God who gave us flowers and trees,
Also provide the allergies?
~E.Y. Harburg, "A Nose Is a Nose Is a Nose," 1965
It is a good thing for a physician to have prematurely grey hair and itching piles. The first makes him appear to know more than he does, and the second gives him an expression of concern which the patient interprets as being on his behalf. ~A. Benson Cannon
anyway urgh i have fever :(. for the past few days. and i cant rest cuz of the stupid assignment!!! omg i cant wait for this crap to be over.
Friday, May 30, 2008
lesson to be learnt
...don't anyhow bo dai bo ji go and find trouble.
attitude to take up: Don't Care, Don't Know, Don't Bother.
keep your mouth shut.
argh.
attitude to take up: Don't Care, Don't Know, Don't Bother.
keep your mouth shut.
argh.
Saturday, April 05, 2008
A Stroke of Insight
http://www.ted.com/talks/view/id/229
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lOUpldRBxyg&feature=email
amazing videos on peace and happiness. the first one is about a woman who experienced a stroke. the second one is about prem rawat maharaji. i cried. really worth your time, for if you have time to check out my blog, you sure do have time to watch those videos :).
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lOUpldRBxyg&feature=email
amazing videos on peace and happiness. the first one is about a woman who experienced a stroke. the second one is about prem rawat maharaji. i cried. really worth your time, for if you have time to check out my blog, you sure do have time to watch those videos :).
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
To rmb
hello darlings!
sorry for the lack of updates. have been really busy. no time laa. haha. but in a nutshell, life has been good and interesting :). hope life has been good for you guys too! shall blog more another time.
personal note: to keep my mouth shut. right speech dear, right speech.
sorry for the lack of updates. have been really busy. no time laa. haha. but in a nutshell, life has been good and interesting :). hope life has been good for you guys too! shall blog more another time.
personal note: to keep my mouth shut. right speech dear, right speech.
Saturday, February 02, 2008
Beverly Craven - Promise Me
You light up another cigarette
And I pour the wine
It’s four o’clock in the morning
And it’s starting to get light
Now I’m right where I want to be
Losing track of time
But I wish that it was still last night
You look like you’re in another world
But I can read your mind
How can you be so far away
Lying by my side
When I go away I’ll miss you
And I will be thinking of you
Every night and day just ...
Promise me you’ll wait for me
’cos I’ll be saving all my love for you
And I will be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And I’ll be home, I’ll be home soon
When I go away I’ll miss you
And I will be thinking of you
Every night and day just ...
Promise me you’ll wait for me
’cos I’ll be saving all my love for you
And I will be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And I’ll be home, I’ll be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
’cos I’ll be saving all my love for you
And I will be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And I’ll be home, I’ll be home soon
beautiful song, it's ringing in my head.
..and i'll be home, i'll be home soon.
And I pour the wine
It’s four o’clock in the morning
And it’s starting to get light
Now I’m right where I want to be
Losing track of time
But I wish that it was still last night
You look like you’re in another world
But I can read your mind
How can you be so far away
Lying by my side
When I go away I’ll miss you
And I will be thinking of you
Every night and day just ...
Promise me you’ll wait for me
’cos I’ll be saving all my love for you
And I will be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And I’ll be home, I’ll be home soon
When I go away I’ll miss you
And I will be thinking of you
Every night and day just ...
Promise me you’ll wait for me
’cos I’ll be saving all my love for you
And I will be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And I’ll be home, I’ll be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
’cos I’ll be saving all my love for you
And I will be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And I’ll be home, I’ll be home soon
beautiful song, it's ringing in my head.
..and i'll be home, i'll be home soon.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
周华健 - 其实不想走
你总是说我在
这样孤单时候
才会想与你联络
然而谈的情
说的爱不够
说来就来说走就走
怎么会不懂我
怎么会不知道
女人的心是脆弱
寂寞不是我
不能够忍受
只是每一天
我想你太多
其实不想走
其实我想留
留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬
你要相信我
再不用多久
我要你和我今生一起度过
其实不想走
其实我想留
留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬
你要相信我
再不用多久
我要你和我今生一起度过
(music)
怎么会不懂我
怎么会不知道
女人的心是脆弱
寂寞不是我
不能够忍受
只是每一天
我想你太多
其实不想走
其实我想留
留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬
你要相信我
再不用多久
我要你和我今生一起度过
其实不想走
其实我想留
留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬
你要相信我
再不用多久
我要你和我今生一起度过
i love this song. happen to hear it on the radio today. the lyrics sound nearly quite suitable. hahaha!
这样孤单时候
才会想与你联络
然而谈的情
说的爱不够
说来就来说走就走
怎么会不懂我
怎么会不知道
女人的心是脆弱
寂寞不是我
不能够忍受
只是每一天
我想你太多
其实不想走
其实我想留
留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬
你要相信我
再不用多久
我要你和我今生一起度过
其实不想走
其实我想留
留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬
你要相信我
再不用多久
我要你和我今生一起度过
(music)
怎么会不懂我
怎么会不知道
女人的心是脆弱
寂寞不是我
不能够忍受
只是每一天
我想你太多
其实不想走
其实我想留
留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬
你要相信我
再不用多久
我要你和我今生一起度过
其实不想走
其实我想留
留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬
你要相信我
再不用多久
我要你和我今生一起度过
i love this song. happen to hear it on the radio today. the lyrics sound nearly quite suitable. hahaha!
Monday, January 28, 2008
india pilgrimage slides
i'm preparing the slides for india pilgrimage now. oh my goooodneeessss, can die laaa. got SO MANY PHOTOS. going to take 10 years to go through this. gaaaaaaaaahhhh :/
and thus it has ended. :)
24 - 27 january, those 4 days flew by.
i feel a great sense of satisfaction and accomplishment, and yet also a sense of loss.
anyway, for those who don't know what i'm talking about, i've been acting in the play Passage of Time for those 4 days. let me recount my experience....
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24th January 2008; The First Night
loads of glitches. people missing their cues, coming out onto the scene late, etc. it's like a rehearsal la. in fact, we didn't have a rehearsal at all on the same day. the last rehearsal was the night before. felt it was pretty sucky, it was the worst of all the shows.
25th January 2008; The Second Night
we had a good show! but i almost had a heart attack, when i went backstage in between scenes to change, as i discovered that my costume was missing! turned out that auntie tusita took my clothes and ran off to the changing room. luckily someone ran to find her and i managed to somehow miraculously change in time for my scene (which was next). had a minor short circuit in my head, and almost screwed up the lines for that scene and the next one. luckily, nothing bad happened and all turned out well in the end hahahaha.
26th January 2008; The Third Day (Matinee)
the cast and some bf members were invited to a special lunch dana with Ajahn Brahm. but due to the lack of time, the cast left before finishing lunch :(. super rushed. didn't have much time for make up and stuff, back stage was chaotic. 3 mins to 5 mins before the play started, shu and pam came backstage to find me (thank you babes!) even though by right they weren't supposed to. and i was still doing my hair and make-up! gosh. so yes, under-prepared, partly complacent too. result was an extremely terrible first half. thank goodness things improved after the interval, managed to get some mood back. was feeling so apologetic towards my friends who came. thank you veron, juncheng, ta, pam and shu for coming! really appreciate your presence :).
26th January 2008; The Third Day (Night Show)
a lot of negativity while preparing for the night show. kept on thinking of how badly i acted in the day. thank goodness for angie, nick, wj, and everyone else who kept on encouraging me and told me to let go. this round i had time to get into character, and nick pulled me to send metta together with him to the audience. think it worked. hahaha. things went very very well, as if it was to make up for the afternoon show. the energy of the entire cast was very high. despite minor mistakes made here and there for the Finale, everyone was just so happy and joyful. felt extremely happy that night. the audience left very happy :). oh oh, Edmund Chen, Xiang Yun and their kids came. had compliments from them, made me very happy!
27th January 2008; The Last Night
ahh, the VIP night. had Minister of Health, Mr Khaw Boon Wan, and his wife to grace the event. Liu Ling Ling (actress of 881) came too! that night was very very good too. personally, i felt that i peaked on this night. however, as a cast, the best was the night before, the energy was higher. as an actress, this was my personal best. very happy.
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overall, i'm very satisfied with how things turned out. things have improved as a whole from last year's show. and despite my lack lustre performance on the first night and the matinee show, i still recieved kind and positive comments. so yes. it's very encouraging! should i ever get a chance to act again, i'll strive and work even harder!!
as individuals, everyone has grown, in both acting and maturity. it's amazing to see how much things have changed in just 1 year. i will miss everyone terribly when i leave.
have loads of things to do before i leave. i have 13 more days. jia you hui lin!
i feel a great sense of satisfaction and accomplishment, and yet also a sense of loss.
anyway, for those who don't know what i'm talking about, i've been acting in the play Passage of Time for those 4 days. let me recount my experience....
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
24th January 2008; The First Night
loads of glitches. people missing their cues, coming out onto the scene late, etc. it's like a rehearsal la. in fact, we didn't have a rehearsal at all on the same day. the last rehearsal was the night before. felt it was pretty sucky, it was the worst of all the shows.
25th January 2008; The Second Night
we had a good show! but i almost had a heart attack, when i went backstage in between scenes to change, as i discovered that my costume was missing! turned out that auntie tusita took my clothes and ran off to the changing room. luckily someone ran to find her and i managed to somehow miraculously change in time for my scene (which was next). had a minor short circuit in my head, and almost screwed up the lines for that scene and the next one. luckily, nothing bad happened and all turned out well in the end hahahaha.
26th January 2008; The Third Day (Matinee)
the cast and some bf members were invited to a special lunch dana with Ajahn Brahm. but due to the lack of time, the cast left before finishing lunch :(. super rushed. didn't have much time for make up and stuff, back stage was chaotic. 3 mins to 5 mins before the play started, shu and pam came backstage to find me (thank you babes!) even though by right they weren't supposed to. and i was still doing my hair and make-up! gosh. so yes, under-prepared, partly complacent too. result was an extremely terrible first half. thank goodness things improved after the interval, managed to get some mood back. was feeling so apologetic towards my friends who came. thank you veron, juncheng, ta, pam and shu for coming! really appreciate your presence :).
26th January 2008; The Third Day (Night Show)
a lot of negativity while preparing for the night show. kept on thinking of how badly i acted in the day. thank goodness for angie, nick, wj, and everyone else who kept on encouraging me and told me to let go. this round i had time to get into character, and nick pulled me to send metta together with him to the audience. think it worked. hahaha. things went very very well, as if it was to make up for the afternoon show. the energy of the entire cast was very high. despite minor mistakes made here and there for the Finale, everyone was just so happy and joyful. felt extremely happy that night. the audience left very happy :). oh oh, Edmund Chen, Xiang Yun and their kids came. had compliments from them, made me very happy!
27th January 2008; The Last Night
ahh, the VIP night. had Minister of Health, Mr Khaw Boon Wan, and his wife to grace the event. Liu Ling Ling (actress of 881) came too! that night was very very good too. personally, i felt that i peaked on this night. however, as a cast, the best was the night before, the energy was higher. as an actress, this was my personal best. very happy.
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overall, i'm very satisfied with how things turned out. things have improved as a whole from last year's show. and despite my lack lustre performance on the first night and the matinee show, i still recieved kind and positive comments. so yes. it's very encouraging! should i ever get a chance to act again, i'll strive and work even harder!!
as individuals, everyone has grown, in both acting and maturity. it's amazing to see how much things have changed in just 1 year. i will miss everyone terribly when i leave.
have loads of things to do before i leave. i have 13 more days. jia you hui lin!
Monday, January 21, 2008
goodbye, zen neeon
my zen neeon's like dead. i can't turn it on, and when it doesn't respond when i hook it up to the computer.
ok, it IS dead.
so yes, i'll have to buy a new mp3 player. actually i don't HAVE to, but i want to. oops? hahaha.
dear friends, i don't mind getting a mp3 player as a farewell gift. take it as 5 years worth of bday presents.quite a good deal really, especially if you are sharing. hahaha.
ok just kidding, cuz i know no one will buy one for me :p. i'm just too lazy to go and buy lar. and i don't know what's good in the market now. any suggestions?
oh, i can't bear to lose all of my songs. cuz now my songs are all over the place, some of them are already deleted from the com. geez. oh wells.
ok, it IS dead.
so yes, i'll have to buy a new mp3 player. actually i don't HAVE to, but i want to. oops? hahaha.
dear friends, i don't mind getting a mp3 player as a farewell gift. take it as 5 years worth of bday presents.quite a good deal really, especially if you are sharing. hahaha.
ok just kidding, cuz i know no one will buy one for me :p. i'm just too lazy to go and buy lar. and i don't know what's good in the market now. any suggestions?
oh, i can't bear to lose all of my songs. cuz now my songs are all over the place, some of them are already deleted from the com. geez. oh wells.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
yawn**
lousy blog post title i know. hehheh. today i had another tiring round of rehearsals. wah. can die can die ahhaha. anyway feel like posting photos... posted in chronological order.
taken during Real Run 07, where we ran 10km with some other bf members. my virgin jump. wheeeee
taken on thurs. where only me, wj, mandy, ly turned up for this supposedly full cast rehearsal. hahaha. was so bored that day. didnt help that 3 of us were sick.
taken during today's rehearsal. hohoho. hmm we are quite sadistic actually. and we took that in front of the buddha statue some more. haha.
dinner:)
lovely sky today. the sky has been beautiful lately.
my latest photoshop product. woohoo. bored la, bored la.
taken during Real Run 07, where we ran 10km with some other bf members. my virgin jump. wheeeee
taken on thurs. where only me, wj, mandy, ly turned up for this supposedly full cast rehearsal. hahaha. was so bored that day. didnt help that 3 of us were sick.
taken during today's rehearsal. hohoho. hmm we are quite sadistic actually. and we took that in front of the buddha statue some more. haha.
dinner:)
lovely sky today. the sky has been beautiful lately.
my latest photoshop product. woohoo. bored la, bored la.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Envy
gosh, ego and envy is such a big ugly monster.
even though i tell myself to let go, the feeling still arises in me. like why does ___ get such treatment but not me?? [even though it's not confirmed that i wont be treated that way, but it's probably so, based on unfortunate experiences]
yet again, i can understand why i'm not given such treatment. it's just unfortunate that i'm sort of involved in ___ treatment, so i'm aware of it. such a horrid feeling.
aiya what a waste of time thinking of it. ok i'm done. hahaha :).
even though i tell myself to let go, the feeling still arises in me. like why does ___ get such treatment but not me?? [even though it's not confirmed that i wont be treated that way, but it's probably so, based on unfortunate experiences]
yet again, i can understand why i'm not given such treatment. it's just unfortunate that i'm sort of involved in ___ treatment, so i'm aware of it. such a horrid feeling.
aiya what a waste of time thinking of it. ok i'm done. hahaha :).
Friday, January 18, 2008
Movies // film
whoa ho! i was browsing through Rotten Tomatoes, and then i remembered this favourite movie of mine, Who Framed Roger Rabbit! goodness, a classic. i remembered watching this on tape over and over again. and guess what? some kind soul has actually uploaded the whole thing onto youtube! think i'm going to watch it again now even though i'm super tired.
i just found out that it was made in 1988! the year i was born. wow. ok it's amazing to me hahahhaa.
and guys, if you haven't watched Pan's Labyrinth, go watch it. it's.... very, very good. very dark, very sad, very touching. can't remember who i watched it with. anyway, it garnered 96% thumbs up in Rotten Tomatoes! wowee.
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so, the filming has come to an end.
my verdict:
1. i'm NOT videogenic. gawd.
2. i'm too used to theatre style.
3. please refer to point number 1.
despite my complaints, i thoroughly enjoyed myself. i have met very nice people there. very interesting people who are really talented. one of them composes his own songs, and they are very nice. another takes beautiful photographs (actually they all like taking photos, just that i happened to see the photos from one guy).
part of me aspires to be like them. to be so talented in the artistic side. like photography, always in the moment. beautiful.
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regretted not speaking to joce and alicia more when i met them today. oh wells.
haha, he's like an ah peh now. bought salon pas for him, which didn't really work. tried finding Bengay's to no avail. wonder where my mom bought it...
i just found out that it was made in 1988! the year i was born. wow. ok it's amazing to me hahahhaa.
and guys, if you haven't watched Pan's Labyrinth, go watch it. it's.... very, very good. very dark, very sad, very touching. can't remember who i watched it with. anyway, it garnered 96% thumbs up in Rotten Tomatoes! wowee.
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so, the filming has come to an end.
my verdict:
1. i'm NOT videogenic. gawd.
2. i'm too used to theatre style.
3. please refer to point number 1.
despite my complaints, i thoroughly enjoyed myself. i have met very nice people there. very interesting people who are really talented. one of them composes his own songs, and they are very nice. another takes beautiful photographs (actually they all like taking photos, just that i happened to see the photos from one guy).
part of me aspires to be like them. to be so talented in the artistic side. like photography, always in the moment. beautiful.
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regretted not speaking to joce and alicia more when i met them today. oh wells.
haha, he's like an ah peh now. bought salon pas for him, which didn't really work. tried finding Bengay's to no avail. wonder where my mom bought it...
Thursday, January 10, 2008
林憶蓮
i love this song. it's by 林憶蓮, <情人的眼淚>, Dick Lee's remixed version. so subtly sexy and sensuous. think my aunt used to play the tape (or it's just distorted memories hehe). check out <夜太黑> by her too. whoa, sexy with class. <傷痕> is a good song too.
gaah there's the filming tomorrow (today, to be accurate. it's 12:25am). boooo :(
but might get to see the bf! thus am i appeased :).
ytd, i couldnt sleep till around 4am. and i was woken up by the vacuum cleaner at 9:30am. oh, so sad. luckily i managed to take a 3 hour nap in the evening. hope i can sleep later haha. really sucks. and the poor boy slept even less than me, couldnt sleep in the afternoon, and coughs more than me. sigh.
oh, ta is coming for the show! ok i'm really happy :).
i so need to change my wardrobe. sheesh. anybody wanna go shopping? hahaaa
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
[Babies: Whatever!] + [Emo over POT] + [IDP]
goodness, you have to check this out. courtesy of my cousin. super funny and cute. "...whatever!" :)
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goodness, i'm sick again. actually, i'm already sick, just that when i was about to recover, i got sick again. got the India Flu/Cough when i got back, passed it to wj, and then now he's passed it back to me haha. poor boy, he's been hacking away for weeks. even lost his voice. :/
anyway, rehearsals seem to be improving. yaaay. nick is really amazing. esp when he puts his mind to it. usually he's already good, but when he's serious, whoa. he can pull me in with him. respect!
for the last play, i was more pro-active, and i tried asking people if they wanted to go (close friends only). this time round i haven't asked any. i wonder if it's the right thing to do. for my good friends all know i'm acting in a play (everytime we catch up, that's the latest development in my life, and when i fail to meet them, it's because of rehearsals). sometimes i think, if they want to go, they will naturally tell me when i tell them i'm busy preparing for a play. yet the problem comes when they DON'T show any signs of wanting to come. then i start thinking too much, wondering about their lack of support and thus feeling sad.
yet again, perhaps it goes both ways. they could be busy, or they think i don't want them to go, or maybe they are ambivalent and need a little push from me before they say yes. the point is i didn't ask. so why should i expect a reply?
aiyaaaar, guess it's cuz i don't want to pressure them, and more importantly though i hate to admit, i don't ask for the fear of rejection and disappointment (oh don't remind me please). and since i've chosen to shut my mouth up, i shouldn't expect anything (other than silence in return). live with your decision hui lin! and stop grumbling or being upset!
for the record, i do want my friends to come, but of course it adds on pressure on me la. hahahahhaa.
ok. i shall stop stop my emo-ing, even if i do decide to ask around and people don't wanna come. oh! i haven't asked someone important for the last round. shall ask her this time :).
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regarding my previous post about idp, i had a scare and almost died when the bank draft was thought to be lost. turns out that the mail was late and monash did receive my bank draft in the end, thank goodness. PHEW.
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goodness, i'm sick again. actually, i'm already sick, just that when i was about to recover, i got sick again. got the India Flu/Cough when i got back, passed it to wj, and then now he's passed it back to me haha. poor boy, he's been hacking away for weeks. even lost his voice. :/
anyway, rehearsals seem to be improving. yaaay. nick is really amazing. esp when he puts his mind to it. usually he's already good, but when he's serious, whoa. he can pull me in with him. respect!
for the last play, i was more pro-active, and i tried asking people if they wanted to go (close friends only). this time round i haven't asked any. i wonder if it's the right thing to do. for my good friends all know i'm acting in a play (everytime we catch up, that's the latest development in my life, and when i fail to meet them, it's because of rehearsals). sometimes i think, if they want to go, they will naturally tell me when i tell them i'm busy preparing for a play. yet the problem comes when they DON'T show any signs of wanting to come. then i start thinking too much, wondering about their lack of support and thus feeling sad.
yet again, perhaps it goes both ways. they could be busy, or they think i don't want them to go, or maybe they are ambivalent and need a little push from me before they say yes. the point is i didn't ask. so why should i expect a reply?
aiyaaaar, guess it's cuz i don't want to pressure them, and more importantly though i hate to admit, i don't ask for the fear of rejection and disappointment (oh don't remind me please). and since i've chosen to shut my mouth up, i shouldn't expect anything (other than silence in return). live with your decision hui lin! and stop grumbling or being upset!
for the record, i do want my friends to come, but of course it adds on pressure on me la. hahahahhaa.
ok. i shall stop stop my emo-ing, even if i do decide to ask around and people don't wanna come. oh! i haven't asked someone important for the last round. shall ask her this time :).
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regarding my previous post about idp, i had a scare and almost died when the bank draft was thought to be lost. turns out that the mail was late and monash did receive my bank draft in the end, thank goodness. PHEW.
Friday, January 04, 2008
idp
i emailed monash hall admissions to ask them to accommodate me earlier from 11 feb(by default it would be 16 feb). and so they replied...
Dear Hui Lin Teoh,
Thank you for your e-mail. This e-mail is to confirm that we will be able to accommodate you from the 11/02/2008. Please arrive between office hours (9:00am - 9:00pm). You are still yet to pay your Building and Amenities Fee. Please remember to pay this by the 20th January 2008.
Kind regards,
Admissions Officer
Monash Residential Services
like WTH (@ the words i coloured red)?!!! because i already paid through IDP before i left for india.. think i paid them in the first week of december. so bloody inefficient laaar, haven't send my bank draft to monash.
as i read it yesterday night, past office hours, i had no choice but to wait till today to call and check with IDP. and as fate has it, IDP is closed on every first saturday of the month (which is today why oh why), and every sunday. great, just great.
they probably are waiting for every tom, dick and harry to hand in their bank drafts before they mail them over to monash. or so i hope. i'd rather it be this way than for them to have lost my stuff. gaawwd.
please let me have a roof over my head when i get there.
Dear Hui Lin Teoh,
Thank you for your e-mail. This e-mail is to confirm that we will be able to accommodate you from the 11/02/2008. Please arrive between office hours (9:00am - 9:00pm). You are still yet to pay your Building and Amenities Fee. Please remember to pay this by the 20th January 2008.
Kind regards,
Admissions Officer
Monash Residential Services
like WTH (@ the words i coloured red)?!!! because i already paid through IDP before i left for india.. think i paid them in the first week of december. so bloody inefficient laaar, haven't send my bank draft to monash.
as i read it yesterday night, past office hours, i had no choice but to wait till today to call and check with IDP. and as fate has it, IDP is closed on every first saturday of the month (which is today why oh why), and every sunday. great, just great.
they probably are waiting for every tom, dick and harry to hand in their bank drafts before they mail them over to monash. or so i hope. i'd rather it be this way than for them to have lost my stuff. gaawwd.
please let me have a roof over my head when i get there.
publicity
gawd, i'm leaving soon. i'm starting to freak out a little after i realised ytd how poorly prepared i am.
maybe a little bit too happy-go-lucky eh? or perhaps just a usual case of escapism. hehhh.
anyway, happy happy things, i went to his house today. so, it's a happy happy day. :)
anyway, i'm acting in the Passage of Time (POT) again.
wah, damn pretty photo of me. so anyway, might as well do some publicising here. the 24th and 27th are booked if i'm not wrong. so the rest are available. check this out for more info: http://www.buddhistfellowship.org/bf_new/pages/latest_events/announcements_POT_jan08.html
acting is a real challenge. and goodness, film is SO DIFFERENT from stage. i mean, i've already known about the differences in theory, but actually experiencing it is... truly an experience. hahaha. tongue-tied, tongue-tied.
ok i was multi-tasking and was kpo-ing at facebook. so i forgot what i originally intended to blog about. HAHA. whatever lar. goodnight all :)!
maybe a little bit too happy-go-lucky eh? or perhaps just a usual case of escapism. hehhh.
anyway, happy happy things, i went to his house today. so, it's a happy happy day. :)
anyway, i'm acting in the Passage of Time (POT) again.
wah, damn pretty photo of me. so anyway, might as well do some publicising here. the 24th and 27th are booked if i'm not wrong. so the rest are available. check this out for more info: http://www.buddhistfellowship.org/bf_new/pages/latest_events/announcements_POT_jan08.html
acting is a real challenge. and goodness, film is SO DIFFERENT from stage. i mean, i've already known about the differences in theory, but actually experiencing it is... truly an experience. hahaha. tongue-tied, tongue-tied.
ok i was multi-tasking and was kpo-ing at facebook. so i forgot what i originally intended to blog about. HAHA. whatever lar. goodnight all :)!
Friends (and Resolutions)
i feel that the distance between me and my friends is growing. for good friends, it depends, some of the links are still strong. for others, the bond has come to pass.
i have to admit it's of my own doing, for i start to distance myself from others because i feel that they are understanding me less and less. sometimes, it's tiring to explain to everyone about what has happened (or is happening) in my life, repeating and explaining at length again and again. also, it doesn't help when sometimes you feel that they aren't so concerned with you. their "hey how have you been doing!" or "what's up?" are just their way of being polite. in the end, i don't feel like talking about myself, i'd rather listen to them (which is what they really want and i happen not to mind, saves energy HAHA), and thus the communication is only one-way. and when they misunderstand me and my actions, all the more i feel sick of explaining.
of course, gems do appear occasionally, where they really want to listen and understand me. a real delight sharing our experiences together. how i miss those sincere and heartfelt conversations where we really want to know each other.
it's pretty sad, really. but i guess i've gotten used to it, and i'm still in the process of accepting it. after all, friends come and go, nothing is permanent. interestingly, i'm not feeling the need and urgency to catch up with all my friends, and to hold on to them. in fact, i'm trying to slowly disengage myself as i prepare to leave. who knows if this is for the better or worse. haha.
perhaps my attitude is out of fear. fear of rejection, and of loss.
may i grow to be more independent, to be a person who does not have to seek approval from others in order to feel good and accepted. may i be a person who cherishes The Moment, instead of being like those who miss and wish to go back in time, or those who hang on and hate the past. may i always remember the Nature, and work towards a happier existance, and in turn allow the people around me be happy.
wow, is that my new year's resolution? haha! ok. that's probably it, even though i wasn't thinking of making resolutions consciously. well done. haha. (ok shall add that in the title then :p)
anyway, the bf will probably say that i'm thinking too much, hahaha! which is true. thinking about oneself is the cause of suffering!
i remember thinking to myself that my friendship with A is becoming more and more awkward and that's it, we're drifting and there's no return. and my friendship with B is going to stay strong for years, even though we might not keep in contact all the time. guess what? the situation is the exact opposite now! lol! proves how impermanent things can be and we shouldn't judge people and things. i should just be happy if things are going well, and equanimous if things aren't. of course, put in effort as well lar.
i have to admit it's of my own doing, for i start to distance myself from others because i feel that they are understanding me less and less. sometimes, it's tiring to explain to everyone about what has happened (or is happening) in my life, repeating and explaining at length again and again. also, it doesn't help when sometimes you feel that they aren't so concerned with you. their "hey how have you been doing!" or "what's up?" are just their way of being polite. in the end, i don't feel like talking about myself, i'd rather listen to them (which is what they really want and i happen not to mind, saves energy HAHA), and thus the communication is only one-way. and when they misunderstand me and my actions, all the more i feel sick of explaining.
of course, gems do appear occasionally, where they really want to listen and understand me. a real delight sharing our experiences together. how i miss those sincere and heartfelt conversations where we really want to know each other.
it's pretty sad, really. but i guess i've gotten used to it, and i'm still in the process of accepting it. after all, friends come and go, nothing is permanent. interestingly, i'm not feeling the need and urgency to catch up with all my friends, and to hold on to them. in fact, i'm trying to slowly disengage myself as i prepare to leave. who knows if this is for the better or worse. haha.
perhaps my attitude is out of fear. fear of rejection, and of loss.
may i grow to be more independent, to be a person who does not have to seek approval from others in order to feel good and accepted. may i be a person who cherishes The Moment, instead of being like those who miss and wish to go back in time, or those who hang on and hate the past. may i always remember the Nature, and work towards a happier existance, and in turn allow the people around me be happy.
wow, is that my new year's resolution? haha! ok. that's probably it, even though i wasn't thinking of making resolutions consciously. well done. haha. (ok shall add that in the title then :p)
anyway, the bf will probably say that i'm thinking too much, hahaha! which is true. thinking about oneself is the cause of suffering!
i remember thinking to myself that my friendship with A is becoming more and more awkward and that's it, we're drifting and there's no return. and my friendship with B is going to stay strong for years, even though we might not keep in contact all the time. guess what? the situation is the exact opposite now! lol! proves how impermanent things can be and we shouldn't judge people and things. i should just be happy if things are going well, and equanimous if things aren't. of course, put in effort as well lar.
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