phenomenally me

Phenomenal Woman by Maya Angelou

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.



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this poem celebrates womenhood!

HOORAY FOR WOMEN!

hahahahahaha.

man. u know, when i think of , i always start smiling to myself. really, how unglam. luckily that seldom happens in public.

elections

man. am i drained.

elections is almost over.

NJCIANS, PLEASE VOTE!

thanks.

anyway, i just realised something. there's a very very effective slogan that the candidates could have used! it will surely garner the most votes. or mine at least.

"Marche. NYDC. Fish & Co.

...JTS. YOUR FUTURE."

omg. i can't wait. one of the motivating factors in life now. -evil laughter-

anyway, i'm just so tired. sigh. i'm going to take years to recuperate. ok i'm exaggerating. fine. who cares. lalalalalalalaaaaa =).


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Just The Way You Are - Billy Joel

Don't go changing, to try and please me
You never let me down before
Don't imagine you're too familiar
And I don't see you anymore
I wouldn't leave you in times of trouble
We never could have come this far
I took the good times,
I'll take the bad times
I'll take you just the way you are

Don't go trying some new fashion
Don't change the color of your hair
You always have my unspoken passion
Although I might not seem to care

I don't want clever conversation
I never want to work that hard
I just want someone that I can talk to
I want you just the way you are.

I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew
What will it take till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you.

I said I love you and that's forever
And this I promise from the heart
I could not love you any better
I love you just the way you are.

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muse

it's kinda funny how i unconsciously wait till saturdays or sundays to read my seniors-in-NS' blogs.

it's very interesting to know what's happening in their lives. but of course, be prepared for the whole load of army vomit, plus all the technical details on SAR and SAW and whatnot. heheh

hmm i had a great friday. spent some money. but it was worth it :). really enjoyed myself, even though once in a while some bitterness rose in me. but not much. only towards the end. and it was one of the few rare times that i loved traffic lights. only when they are red, to be exact. everytime one turned red, i started thanking Him for blessing me, for giving me more time.

why do i have this feeling that things will get more complicated, if things go on "right"?


ps: anyway please do not judge me by my previous entry. i usually do not talk about the menstrual cycle. i don't know what came over me. but hmm. i'm quite amused with myself anyway. haha. but hey, like what's wrong with talking about menses?? it's what makes us WOMEN. and without us, there won't be any MEN. so yes. we rule! hooray to the human anatomy and the ovaries! -rolls eyes-. ok i think my evil twin's taking over already. better get off before i revert to my weird self(refer to previous entry). see you guys :).

irritation. is that called pms?

i'm so easily irritated nowadays, blowing up at people like i'm an hyperactive volcano.

ok lar not that bad lar. but very bad towards those friends who have to see me most of the time, like veron and xin yi. i'm really sorry :/. but yep, i try lar. i try...

i am irritated when people whine to me. simply because i think that everyone has their own problems. what makes them think that their problems are worse than others? ok fine, let's be self-centred here; what makes them think that their problems are worse than mine?

as you can see from the above egocentric paragraph, it's no wonder why i blow up. i admit that i have totally no reason to do so though, as you can see, my argument is flawed as my assumption can be challenged easily: what makes me think that MY life is worse than YOURS.

so yes, i admit that i'm being a total pompous ass who can get totally *TOOT*. whatever that means.

so yes, if i get irritated, it's because i have a small heart. i do pray that your heart is big and kind enough to understand, and to bear with me. and my friends have been doing that. that's what makes them precious.

i don't like being assholic. but i am, sometimes. hopefully rarely. if i get totally crap, sorry in advance k?

maybe it's because it's PMS! ooo we learn so much in bio. let me check my calendar....

it's the 26th day! which means technically speaking, going by the book, i'm going to release my shedded endometrium in 2 days time! like HOORAY!

-rolls eyes-

so yes. maybé it's really pms. but what a lousy excuse.

*shrugs*

anyway i'm irritated with so so so many things now. i'm going to die of irritation soon


-roars in a womanly frustration-!

ahhh

-gives a mad, frustrated scream-

graaaaaghhhH!H!!

6am

it's 6am!

like omg!

it's an omg time because if i've stayed awake till 6am, i'm nuts. and if i've woken up at 6am, i'm still nuts.

ok i stayed up till 6am. i haven't slept! goodness i rock lar. and i don't exactly feel very sleepy. oh dear. insomnia, BEGONE!

i just realised that i haven't gone to the loo for 6 hours. highly unhealthy.

oh, all in the name of council.

-gives a dramatic sigh and wave of a hand to the forehead-

i hope i can wake up on time to continue my council stuff. and of course, do some homework :P. -growls-

-BIG SMUG GRIN-

OMG

i managed to do something.

i'm GREAT. AHHHHHHH!!

hahahaha i'm so happy. and goodness, it's such a small thing really. but it means alot to me.

hui lin's a happy little girl :).

*does a little wobbly dance*

Move on and fly

It's a friday evening. PE ended at 4:45pm, and I've spent my time thinking, reflecting, and surfing the BrightSparks website.

It's 5:40pm now, and I haven't bathe.

I'm afraid. So afraid. I haven't voiced out my fears to anyone for so long, other than to my mom yesterday. I'm afraid because everyone's lack of faith in me is getting to me. You can look at it as they are just being realistic, or they really believe that my life ought to be directed in another direction, in order for me to fly.

I don't want to talk about it here, for i do not want to attract even more negativity from everyone else regarding my decisions.

It's so hard to have faith in yourself when no one else does.

Yet again, if you don't believe in yourself first, who else will?

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Today on my way home, I was looking through my mobile phone, scrolling through the same old messages that always make me grin like an idiot and make my heart go racing like a happily deluded fool; those same messages could also dig my heart out, thumping dully and painfully where the stab was made.

Sometimes the events are exclusive and independent. Sometimes, they happen at the same time.

Amazingly, I didn't have the same attachment to them anymore when I looked at them today. I could never bear to delete any single one of them, although sometimes when my inbox is getting grossly obese and about to burst, I'll delete some of them reluctantly. Even when it was causing tears to well in my eyes and making me feel worse than being dead, I couldn’t bear to delete them either, for they made up me. Somehow, I was afraid that if I deleted them, I’ll lose my memories and the link. I’ll just lose it.

It’s been about 2 weeks. And I did it.

I deleted them. All of them, with the exception of two.

I didn’t do it with hate, anger, or simply ego. I did it with a thankful smile. And I meant it.

As I read every single one of them, I recalled how I felt when I received them last time, how joy surged through my entire self and how much love I felt. in turn, I passed the ball over with love. Now, I read them with joy and love. And I deleted them with satisfaction, for I’m truly happy that I’m even blessed to have ever received such sweetness and joy in my life. I was ready to let go.

As I did what I did, sometimes the memories will tug at my heart, and I guess there was a longing to be transported back to the past. But that longing did not cling on to me like a jealous child, but it accepted what was and what is and what has to be. And so the child passed on what was hers to wherever it’s to be, being contented with the memories that she has had with it already.

I will not forget, I still love ; and I am at peace with myself.

Life is beautiful though it has its ups and downs. Truly a riveting roller coaster ride which leaves you breathless- because of its speed, surprise, and breathtaking views.

…Remember?


“Move on and fly.”

…I will. Thank you. –smiles-

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It's 13 minutes to 7pm. Now, I shall bathe.

:).

mad rush

N O T I M E .

i will not give up.

10 Things I Hate About You

"I hate you.

"I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all."


goodness, i love this poem from the movie 10 Things I Hate About You. it's so good.

i like the movie. although i only caught the last 3/4 of it. and goodness, Heath Ledger was the main male character. i didn't know! and i think Julia Stiles was really good.

and i love the witty banter in the entire movie. go check out some quotes; courtesy of wikiquote! http://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/10_Things_I_Hate_About_You

ooo and if you wanna find out more about it, check this out http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/10_Things_I_Hate_About_You !

it's an adaptation of the play The Taming Of The Shrew by William Shakespeare.