i'm UNHAPPY :(.
raaawwwwrrrrrr!!!
Monday, November 30, 2009
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
Say No to Rape
Haven't been up to date with Singapore news lately. Just heard about the furore on the marital rape immunity law in Singapore. I was truly appalled, I would have never expected Singapore to have such a legislation. Check this out.
http://theonlinecitizen.com/2009/09/in-spore-raping-your-wife-is-not-rape/
The 3 videos in there by GetReal, Channel News Asia, are really good. Do watch them if you have time.
Lastly, do go to the link below and sign the petition to repeal the Penal Code. They need 10000 signatures by 30 November, and they have only gathered around 2600 signatures so far. Spread the word!
Rape is rape. There are no exceptions.
http://theonlinecitizen.com/2009/09/in-spore-raping-your-wife-is-not-rape/
The 3 videos in there by GetReal, Channel News Asia, are really good. Do watch them if you have time.
Lastly, do go to the link below and sign the petition to repeal the Penal Code. They need 10000 signatures by 30 November, and they have only gathered around 2600 signatures so far. Spread the word!
Rape is rape. There are no exceptions.
Friday, May 15, 2009
to be judge, and to be judged
"afterall, sexuality is only a very small part of a person."
..and so are other small things that come together to be part of us. so how can we judge someone to be good or bad just based on a single quality?
for example, you may hate a person for doing something that you deem to be wrong. however, that's just one thing that this person has done in his life, as opposed to the many other good things that he may have done.
who are we to judge anyway? they might have reasons for their actions; and these reasons are borne out of other previous encounters. and these are in turn borne out of other situations again. also, are we going to count the number of good versus bad things this person has done, in order to determine his calibre? what if the "good deed" he has done is more "important" than the "bad deed"? what if he has good intentions for doing the "bad deed"? there are so many things to consider, that i think it is impossible for us to come to an unbiased decision about a person's character. passing out judgements is tiring and painful to both the judge and the judged.
may i keep this in mind whenever i start being critical of others, and also equally importantly, myself.
what i've been experiencing for the past few weeks and this video inspired this entry. thank you for the video dear!
..and so are other small things that come together to be part of us. so how can we judge someone to be good or bad just based on a single quality?
for example, you may hate a person for doing something that you deem to be wrong. however, that's just one thing that this person has done in his life, as opposed to the many other good things that he may have done.
who are we to judge anyway? they might have reasons for their actions; and these reasons are borne out of other previous encounters. and these are in turn borne out of other situations again. also, are we going to count the number of good versus bad things this person has done, in order to determine his calibre? what if the "good deed" he has done is more "important" than the "bad deed"? what if he has good intentions for doing the "bad deed"? there are so many things to consider, that i think it is impossible for us to come to an unbiased decision about a person's character. passing out judgements is tiring and painful to both the judge and the judged.
may i keep this in mind whenever i start being critical of others, and also equally importantly, myself.
what i've been experiencing for the past few weeks and this video inspired this entry. thank you for the video dear!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
in a foreign land
went for my community based placement today.
realised loads of stuff. a great day for self-reflection.
being an asian (especially when you were born in asia) in a western country does have its problems. i feel that you take a longer time to get acknowledged. not so bad in uni, maybe because the tutors are used to and HAVE to try to reduce their biasedness; but not so elsewhere. sometimes it's because they take a longer time to warm up to you. sometimes maybe it's because you are less chatty than your western counterpart; you may be considered very good in your home country, but you will not be good enough here.
and it doesn't help when you have a more-than-excellent partner. where the amount of work you have done is normally thought to be of normal to above average standard, it's totally negated because your colleague's work is way beyond excellent. that's fine, and i totally respect my partner for her effort. the problem is, i get judged by others for being less than imperfect.
...sigh.
realised loads of stuff. a great day for self-reflection.
being an asian (especially when you were born in asia) in a western country does have its problems. i feel that you take a longer time to get acknowledged. not so bad in uni, maybe because the tutors are used to and HAVE to try to reduce their biasedness; but not so elsewhere. sometimes it's because they take a longer time to warm up to you. sometimes maybe it's because you are less chatty than your western counterpart; you may be considered very good in your home country, but you will not be good enough here.
and it doesn't help when you have a more-than-excellent partner. where the amount of work you have done is normally thought to be of normal to above average standard, it's totally negated because your colleague's work is way beyond excellent. that's fine, and i totally respect my partner for her effort. the problem is, i get judged by others for being less than imperfect.
...sigh.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
beri beri stress
my exam ended on wednesday. went out for a simple dinner on that day to celebrate.
and then, immediately, back to stress. didn't have enough sleep, no time to really relax, and have been trying to (and finally did) rush through my assignment.
can seriously feel my heart faltering as i was working through the night. sometimes i really wonder if my heart will suddenly just stop functioning. a very scary feeling.
and this is only the first half of sem 1! my goodness. death unto me.
on another note, check this out!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ydZHy_KRXE
super hilarious!!
and then, immediately, back to stress. didn't have enough sleep, no time to really relax, and have been trying to (and finally did) rush through my assignment.
can seriously feel my heart faltering as i was working through the night. sometimes i really wonder if my heart will suddenly just stop functioning. a very scary feeling.
and this is only the first half of sem 1! my goodness. death unto me.
on another note, check this out!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ydZHy_KRXE
super hilarious!!
Saturday, April 04, 2009
fly
a random post.
things i need: a new slingbag! the zipper on my yellow slingbag given to me by my cousin is spoiled :(.
things i want: to go to japan for exchange. i really, really want to go to japan. even if not for exchange, then for a backpacking trip with friends! but japan's an expensive place to go to :(. and i really should start learning japanese. should i go and buy or borrow a book/audiotape? hmms.
suddenly i really feel like going travelling. backpacking baby! :)
to xinhui: yar lor! hahaha. ok la let's be nice, he's not too bad la. he's pretty gd actually. he can be romantic if he wants to! ;p heee
things i need: a new slingbag! the zipper on my yellow slingbag given to me by my cousin is spoiled :(.
things i want: to go to japan for exchange. i really, really want to go to japan. even if not for exchange, then for a backpacking trip with friends! but japan's an expensive place to go to :(. and i really should start learning japanese. should i go and buy or borrow a book/audiotape? hmms.
suddenly i really feel like going travelling. backpacking baby! :)
to xinhui: yar lor! hahaha. ok la let's be nice, he's not too bad la. he's pretty gd actually. he can be romantic if he wants to! ;p heee
Monday, March 30, 2009
and that's how the story goes
I Did Not Die
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow;
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain;
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft star that shines at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there; I did not die.
~Mary E. Frye
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow;
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain;
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft star that shines at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there; I did not die.
~Mary E. Frye
Thursday, March 19, 2009
marry me?
ever heard of a marriage proposal by writing the words "marry me" across the sky, with the help of an aircraft? or like having a helicoptor fly with a banner tied to its tail with something sweet written on it?
yea, it's really common, especially on idol dramas and in manga etc. it's every girl's fantasy! or at least most of ours.
and you thought that it only exists in dreamy-hopeful-land?
guess what... no! today, while walking home with c, i saw in the sky "marry me?" in the sky. like OMG.
really want to tell wj abt it, like how romantic ppl can get (hahaha), but just in case he, or whoever else i tell, expresses disbelief, i'm all prepared to shoot them down! cuz i have proof!
check out the photos! it was hard trying to take them, cuz of the sun, the trees, the buildings.
...really sweet :).
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yea, it's really common, especially on idol dramas and in manga etc. it's every girl's fantasy! or at least most of ours.
and you thought that it only exists in dreamy-hopeful-land?
guess what... no! today, while walking home with c, i saw in the sky "marry me?" in the sky. like OMG.
really want to tell wj abt it, like how romantic ppl can get (hahaha), but just in case he, or whoever else i tell, expresses disbelief, i'm all prepared to shoot them down! cuz i have proof!
check out the photos! it was hard trying to take them, cuz of the sun, the trees, the buildings.
...really sweet :).
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Wednesday, February 25, 2009
byebye singapore
i'm leaving my house in 1 and a half hours.
and guess what am i doing? i'm cleaning up the desktops in my house (grabbing whatever that shld be with me in australia; ie. Manga), and am frantically downloading whatever manga that i missed out. i'm also furiously ripping music off cds which i have at home.
there's one thing that i should have done, but haven't done in my hols in singapore. ok fine, a few things.
1) buy an extra mechanical pencil.
2) study.
aiyar, i can do both of them in australia right? no hurry. thus no worries.
will be handicapped for the next week without internet. sobs. how, oh how.
anyway, goodbye singapore. will miss you.(?)
:)
and guess what am i doing? i'm cleaning up the desktops in my house (grabbing whatever that shld be with me in australia; ie. Manga), and am frantically downloading whatever manga that i missed out. i'm also furiously ripping music off cds which i have at home.
there's one thing that i should have done, but haven't done in my hols in singapore. ok fine, a few things.
1) buy an extra mechanical pencil.
2) study.
aiyar, i can do both of them in australia right? no hurry. thus no worries.
will be handicapped for the next week without internet. sobs. how, oh how.
anyway, goodbye singapore. will miss you.(?)
:)
Thursday, February 19, 2009
blah blah
this is going to be a useless entry again. you have been warned.
decided to youtube the song mentioned in the manga Kiss. the song is "Je te veux" by Satie. very nice :). it's been a while since i've appreciated an instrumental piece by a westerner. yet again, maybe it's simply because i haven't been listening to enough variety.
Gymnopedie No. 1 by satie is good too!
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sometimes i wonder what do i fear so much. is it due to repulsion, ego, or... aiis it's just me thinking too much again. learn to live and let live. and do what i have to do. yeppers.
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watched He's Just Not That Into You (HJNTIU). it's an ok show, not bad la. love the jennifer anniston and ben affleck pairing. their story is sooo sweet. hate the adulterous couple pairing (jennifer connelly, scarlet johansson and some guy). even though it's 9 mins longer than slumdog millionaire (SM), SM feels much longer. perhaps it's due to the theme, very heavy. HJNTIU is a nice sweet romantic movie with some heavy parts here and there, but overall palatable. SM is more unnique though.
decided to youtube the song mentioned in the manga Kiss. the song is "Je te veux" by Satie. very nice :). it's been a while since i've appreciated an instrumental piece by a westerner. yet again, maybe it's simply because i haven't been listening to enough variety.
Gymnopedie No. 1 by satie is good too!
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sometimes i wonder what do i fear so much. is it due to repulsion, ego, or... aiis it's just me thinking too much again. learn to live and let live. and do what i have to do. yeppers.
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watched He's Just Not That Into You (HJNTIU). it's an ok show, not bad la. love the jennifer anniston and ben affleck pairing. their story is sooo sweet. hate the adulterous couple pairing (jennifer connelly, scarlet johansson and some guy). even though it's 9 mins longer than slumdog millionaire (SM), SM feels much longer. perhaps it's due to the theme, very heavy. HJNTIU is a nice sweet romantic movie with some heavy parts here and there, but overall palatable. SM is more unnique though.
Monday, February 16, 2009
just enjoy the show
it's been a pretty good day so far!
even though i woke up feeling sick (actually i've been feeling sick ever since i sent the bf off at the airport), the day's been really good.
first, i received the email that i am granted the fee payment extension. and i managed to transfer half the money over. then i received the earrings that i bought online in the mail today. later, i had a nice little chat with j.
and the best part of the day was, the bf called! oh, the sound of his voice was like music to my ears! ok that's really cheesy. HAHAHA. anyway, to hear his voice and know that he's safe and sound; it totally made my day :).
i love this song "The Show" by Lenka! it has a very cute tune and mtv. the music makes me feel happy.
ok to be fair, the bf calling wasn't like the best part of the day. instead, it's more appropriately labeled as the very important point of the day. that's because after his call, everything and anything became good and enjoyable! his call changed my perspective. even my flu and sore throat ain't making me feel as miserable as i had been feeling before. therefore, his call is even better than "the best part of the day".
:)
even though i woke up feeling sick (actually i've been feeling sick ever since i sent the bf off at the airport), the day's been really good.
first, i received the email that i am granted the fee payment extension. and i managed to transfer half the money over. then i received the earrings that i bought online in the mail today. later, i had a nice little chat with j.
and the best part of the day was, the bf called! oh, the sound of his voice was like music to my ears! ok that's really cheesy. HAHAHA. anyway, to hear his voice and know that he's safe and sound; it totally made my day :).
i love this song "The Show" by Lenka! it has a very cute tune and mtv. the music makes me feel happy.
"I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show"
ok to be fair, the bf calling wasn't like the best part of the day. instead, it's more appropriately labeled as the very important point of the day. that's because after his call, everything and anything became good and enjoyable! his call changed my perspective. even my flu and sore throat ain't making me feel as miserable as i had been feeling before. therefore, his call is even better than "the best part of the day".
:)
see you again in a few months. :)
the bf's on the plane:).
spent the day at his place today. almost cried twice then (ok i teared la hahaha). almost cried on the way to the airport too. but i managed to tahan at the airport! good on ya! *pats her own back*
chatted with his parents and met his uncle and auntie. and i really enjoyed it. one thing that i like about it is that i feel really at ease with his family. i don't have to purposely talk a lot, i don't have to put in effort to impress them or anything. it's a really comfortable atmosphere where i can be sincere and be myself. no pressure at all. and they are all really funny, cute, and down to earth. so real and humbling.
learnt a lot from his father. his father is really cute and funny! think he had a great influence on wj. they have very refreshing and wise perspectives on things. was a very enriching conversation. there were two "lessons" that i really liked:
1) 世上没有爱情, 只有感情. (and some nice cheem thing in chinese about starting a relationship by falling in love, and ending the relationship due to wrong views)
2) 世上没有好人和坏人, 只有好事和坏事. [There's no such thing as good people and bad people; there's only good deeds and bad deeds.]
liked the second one the most. hope i won't forget that.
on the way back home, while i was still his parents and relatives, i met my big uncle (da jiu jiu) on the mrt! like OMG. fate la. hahaha. luckily i had to tahan the slightly weird atmosphere for only 1 stop. was actually feeling worried that da jiu jiu will talk to wj's family after i get off, and that he will find out tt i'm attached, and he will report to my mom, and i will die, and and and... hahaha. then i decided that i was worrying too much for nothing. and if that really happened, then it's fate! everything will be in the open then and i won't have to avoid talking about him all the time. it will be shiok la! thus, either way? win-win :).
i realised that our relationship has really matured, as compared to how it was 1 year ago. may we continue on our journey together with faith, dilligence, and right effort. thank the buddha, dhamma, sangha!
feeling contented. yet i can feel the temptation to think about the lack of his presence, which will cause the hollow feeling in my heart to arise, making me feel like crying again.
ahh! i'm thinking too much!!
despite fearing separation and death, i do appreciate it. it is always a good way to remind ourselves to be in the present moment and LIVE. enjoy, appreciate, be.
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dammit, haven't paid my sch fees due to a screw up with the bank. and my application for a fee extension was rejected! urgh. just emailed the course administrator, and pray that i'll be given a few days grace. damn stressed.
spent the day at his place today. almost cried twice then (ok i teared la hahaha). almost cried on the way to the airport too. but i managed to tahan at the airport! good on ya! *pats her own back*
chatted with his parents and met his uncle and auntie. and i really enjoyed it. one thing that i like about it is that i feel really at ease with his family. i don't have to purposely talk a lot, i don't have to put in effort to impress them or anything. it's a really comfortable atmosphere where i can be sincere and be myself. no pressure at all. and they are all really funny, cute, and down to earth. so real and humbling.
learnt a lot from his father. his father is really cute and funny! think he had a great influence on wj. they have very refreshing and wise perspectives on things. was a very enriching conversation. there were two "lessons" that i really liked:
1) 世上没有爱情, 只有感情. (and some nice cheem thing in chinese about starting a relationship by falling in love, and ending the relationship due to wrong views)
2) 世上没有好人和坏人, 只有好事和坏事. [There's no such thing as good people and bad people; there's only good deeds and bad deeds.]
liked the second one the most. hope i won't forget that.
on the way back home, while i was still his parents and relatives, i met my big uncle (da jiu jiu) on the mrt! like OMG. fate la. hahaha. luckily i had to tahan the slightly weird atmosphere for only 1 stop. was actually feeling worried that da jiu jiu will talk to wj's family after i get off, and that he will find out tt i'm attached, and he will report to my mom, and i will die, and and and... hahaha. then i decided that i was worrying too much for nothing. and if that really happened, then it's fate! everything will be in the open then and i won't have to avoid talking about him all the time. it will be shiok la! thus, either way? win-win :).
i realised that our relationship has really matured, as compared to how it was 1 year ago. may we continue on our journey together with faith, dilligence, and right effort. thank the buddha, dhamma, sangha!
feeling contented. yet i can feel the temptation to think about the lack of his presence, which will cause the hollow feeling in my heart to arise, making me feel like crying again.
ahh! i'm thinking too much!!
despite fearing separation and death, i do appreciate it. it is always a good way to remind ourselves to be in the present moment and LIVE. enjoy, appreciate, be.
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dammit, haven't paid my sch fees due to a screw up with the bank. and my application for a fee extension was rejected! urgh. just emailed the course administrator, and pray that i'll be given a few days grace. damn stressed.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
where we come together. and we part once again.
went to my aunt's house today to pray as it's my grandma's death anniversary. rushed over as i was late. have to say that i didn't regret going at all. it was a nice warm feeling to see everyone again, given that we usually only see each other twice a year (christmas and chinese new year. also qing ming jie, but i won't be around for that any time soon i think). had a nice chat with my cousin! i really love my cousins and aunts and uncles. one thing that i sort of regret about is that we just don't meet up often enough. oh wells. you can't have everything in the world!
and indeed, you can't have everything in the world. like the bf is leaving tmr.
:(
yet, would i rather have a lousy relationship and be with him 24/7, or have a happy and loving relationship but not see him often enough?
the latter for me, then.
hahaha. sometimes i think i'm really sick. humans are sick. we like to torture ourselves. like how i'd just keep thinking of him and get lovesick. what sick nature.
lalalaaaa :)
and indeed, you can't have everything in the world. like the bf is leaving tmr.
:(
yet, would i rather have a lousy relationship and be with him 24/7, or have a happy and loving relationship but not see him often enough?
the latter for me, then.
hahaha. sometimes i think i'm really sick. humans are sick. we like to torture ourselves. like how i'd just keep thinking of him and get lovesick. what sick nature.
lalalaaaa :)
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Valentine's Day 2009
had a wonderful valentine's day. though it started off well, it became rocky in the middle, had issues resolved, and it ended off wonderfully. went to bf for valentine's celebrations at night, met up with old friends then, and had great heart to heart moments with my loved one. full of gratitude for my friends, for him, and for the many lessons i've learnt today.
My valentine's day in summary:
Teh Ping (Iced Tea) - $1.50
Roses - $0 (free from buddhist fellowship)
Taxi fare - $15
Slumdog Millionaire - $21 (subsidised)
Simply being with my friends and loved one - Priceless.
:)
My valentine's day in summary:
Teh Ping (Iced Tea) - $1.50
Roses - $0 (free from buddhist fellowship)
Taxi fare - $15
Slumdog Millionaire - $21 (subsidised)
Simply being with my friends and loved one - Priceless.
:)
Monday, February 09, 2009
a pretty useless entry on MVs that i've seen recently
christine recommended me to watch Truth by Arashi. went to check it out, and the music was good. liked the violins, it added a touch of class to the entire thing. but other than that... their dancing was so-so. think it's because they can't really dance, and their physiques are just too scrawny for my liking.
because of that MV(music video), i was inspired to watch Mirotic by DBSK again! in contrast, the Mirotic MV made me all flushed hahaha. DBSK had really nice dance moves AND the members can dance really well. In addition, they have very good bodies. their choice of clothes for the MV was very good. showed off just enough skin (HAHAHAHA). main problem is their hair. 3 out of 5 of them had sucky hair. anyway if you are bored and you wanna look at hot guys, check out that MV on youtube.
was reading this manga called Kiss. it's a love story between this piano teacher and his student, aged 25 and 17 respectively if i'm not wrong. love it as it's quite real and sweet. character development is good so far. the mangaka explores the emotions experienced by the characters well. the art and style of story telling is nice and yet simple. fuss free. i guess the most unrealistic thing about the manga is that the lead male character is really good looking and talented. the more important characters are also very attractive too. so far, it's one of my favourite series.
ok this is quite a useless entry. just needed to unload my rubbish somewhere hehe. night all :).
because of that MV(music video), i was inspired to watch Mirotic by DBSK again! in contrast, the Mirotic MV made me all flushed hahaha. DBSK had really nice dance moves AND the members can dance really well. In addition, they have very good bodies. their choice of clothes for the MV was very good. showed off just enough skin (HAHAHAHA). main problem is their hair. 3 out of 5 of them had sucky hair. anyway if you are bored and you wanna look at hot guys, check out that MV on youtube.
was reading this manga called Kiss. it's a love story between this piano teacher and his student, aged 25 and 17 respectively if i'm not wrong. love it as it's quite real and sweet. character development is good so far. the mangaka explores the emotions experienced by the characters well. the art and style of story telling is nice and yet simple. fuss free. i guess the most unrealistic thing about the manga is that the lead male character is really good looking and talented. the more important characters are also very attractive too. so far, it's one of my favourite series.
ok this is quite a useless entry. just needed to unload my rubbish somewhere hehe. night all :).
Thursday, February 05, 2009
Ponyo!
just watched Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea! and i looovvveee it :)!! it's SO CUTE.
amazing how it's up on the internet already. and it's of relatively good quality, despite having a woman's trip to the toilet captured on the film twice (yes it's an illegal filming in the cinema, so you get to see the woman's silhouette moving up and down)
i really like the show. it's a vibrant and honest and cute! the main thing is cute, in a very refreshing way. yayness! can't wait for it to be out on dvd, will definitely buy it:).
ok looks like i'm too lazy to continue the previous entry. HAHAHA. till another time then, when i have the mood :p.
*hums the ponyo song to herself ladidum*
amazing how it's up on the internet already. and it's of relatively good quality, despite having a woman's trip to the toilet captured on the film twice (yes it's an illegal filming in the cinema, so you get to see the woman's silhouette moving up and down)
i really like the show. it's a vibrant and honest and cute! the main thing is cute, in a very refreshing way. yayness! can't wait for it to be out on dvd, will definitely buy it:).
ok looks like i'm too lazy to continue the previous entry. HAHAHA. till another time then, when i have the mood :p.
*hums the ponyo song to herself ladidum*
Friday, January 30, 2009
on infatuation
went out to "study" today with wj. was pretty tired but i survived hahaha. then met up with coconut and went to Udders! good ice cream. and they came up with a business plan that's of course, secret. hilarious:).
ok i wanna blog about infatuation, but i'm too tired. so i'll edit this another day. ciaos! :)
ok i wanna blog about infatuation, but i'm too tired. so i'll edit this another day. ciaos! :)
Friday, January 23, 2009
happy again! :)
soong teng: heey woman! haven't seen you in AGES. where are you??! hahaha. oh why am i happy that there's shit ah. cuz i already know how it feels like when there's no shit. but i wanna know how it feels like when there's shit! so that you know what you are feeling. and i also need to know how different types of shit feel.. like is it soft... hard... big... small... normal... abnormal... HAHAHA. ok think that's enough for the description. :D
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happy happy! talked to him for around an hour, once again my angst has dissipated. yaaaayyy! huilin = angsty-no-more-(for-now)!
ahaha reminds me of nt and her angst :p. am i so easily influenced? oh no...
wanna see him. *pouts* :(
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my foot's finally starting to hurt! the anaesthesia has worn off. pain is good.. pain is good....
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oh, and i have some other stuff to add on to the list of "achievements" that i've had as a medical student during this holiday... (continued from previous entry)
7) felt a fluid thrill from ascites. really thrilling.
8) heard 3 (or 4?) heart murmurs! think all were systolic heart murmurs if i'm not mistaken.
9) heard a few lung crackles! and one of the patient had a fully collapsed left lung, and an abnormal right lung. terrible.
10) felt an irregular pulse. it was just... irregular.
11) learning how to do percussion. far from mastering it, but at least i've been introduced to it.
will add on if i remember any more things :)!
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happyhappyhappy :)
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happy happy! talked to him for around an hour, once again my angst has dissipated. yaaaayyy! huilin = angsty-no-more-(for-now)!
ahaha reminds me of nt and her angst :p. am i so easily influenced? oh no...
wanna see him. *pouts* :(
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my foot's finally starting to hurt! the anaesthesia has worn off. pain is good.. pain is good....
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oh, and i have some other stuff to add on to the list of "achievements" that i've had as a medical student during this holiday... (continued from previous entry)
7) felt a fluid thrill from ascites. really thrilling.
8) heard 3 (or 4?) heart murmurs! think all were systolic heart murmurs if i'm not mistaken.
9) heard a few lung crackles! and one of the patient had a fully collapsed left lung, and an abnormal right lung. terrible.
10) felt an irregular pulse. it was just... irregular.
11) learning how to do percussion. far from mastering it, but at least i've been introduced to it.
will add on if i remember any more things :)!
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happyhappyhappy :)
Thursday, January 22, 2009
goodbye wart.
xun: omg!! that photo's like so crabby la! literally :). thanks, it really made me laugh. yea sure, catch up with u some day :). ehh u wont be in sg for CNY?
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just had my surgery today. dad excised a lump (viral wart) from the sole of my foot. think it was around 3-4cm in diameter. quite an interesting experience being the patient in ttsh after running around in the same OT for the past week as a medical student. will have trouble walking... no heels for CNY :(. sadness.
quite satisfied with what i've done as a medical student for this holiday:
1) sutured a 3 cm incision
2) assisted in a minor surgery
3) did 3 rectal examinations (one of which had shit in it, yay!)
4) took BP by the traditional method once successfully on a patient (HAHA. shows how lousy i am)
5) learnt stuff (both medical and more importantly, humanitarian)
6) saw dying patients, and felt loving kindness and tried to send it to them. :)
met wernie ytd. really refreshing to see her again after so long! even though she was kinda encouraging me to go into plastics and aesthetics (and to be honest, the amount of money earned is tempting), but currently i doubt i'd go into that field. yet again who knows. let's try not to moralise things.
thanks to wj and ajahn brahm, i don't feel the need to gossip so much (right now at least). but it's hard. environment, needs and wants dictate.
no reply thus far, again :(.
better prepare something rabbity for tonight!
[edit] ok so there's a mild improvement, but is that even considered an improvement, or simply mandatory? ok how woman of me (alright, more like petty). *grumble grumble whine whine* [/edit]
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just had my surgery today. dad excised a lump (viral wart) from the sole of my foot. think it was around 3-4cm in diameter. quite an interesting experience being the patient in ttsh after running around in the same OT for the past week as a medical student. will have trouble walking... no heels for CNY :(. sadness.
quite satisfied with what i've done as a medical student for this holiday:
1) sutured a 3 cm incision
2) assisted in a minor surgery
3) did 3 rectal examinations (one of which had shit in it, yay!)
4) took BP by the traditional method once successfully on a patient (HAHA. shows how lousy i am)
5) learnt stuff (both medical and more importantly, humanitarian)
6) saw dying patients, and felt loving kindness and tried to send it to them. :)
met wernie ytd. really refreshing to see her again after so long! even though she was kinda encouraging me to go into plastics and aesthetics (and to be honest, the amount of money earned is tempting), but currently i doubt i'd go into that field. yet again who knows. let's try not to moralise things.
thanks to wj and ajahn brahm, i don't feel the need to gossip so much (right now at least). but it's hard. environment, needs and wants dictate.
no reply thus far, again :(.
better prepare something rabbity for tonight!
[edit] ok so there's a mild improvement, but is that even considered an improvement, or simply mandatory? ok how woman of me (alright, more like petty). *grumble grumble whine whine* [/edit]
Saturday, January 10, 2009
crabby
hey xun:)! ehh since when did you leave? just realised that u arent in singapore when i saw your facebook profile! how have you been? goodness i feel so out of touch hahaha.
hey jq:)! ahhahaha i'm doing ok at school, results wise. but all stored in short term memory. so hmm yea i need to review my study methods, that's why i need revision mah. saad.
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anyway. officially feeling crabby.
according to dictionary.com...
crab-by
–adjective, -bi⋅er, -bi⋅est.
Informal. grouchy; ill-natured; irritable; peevish.
gaaarrhh. nothing really big (as usual) that made me like this. it just happened that i got my period today, and i sincerely think my mood swing is partly hormonal. kept on telling myself: "be mindful, breathe, breathe, breathe."
whenever i finally stop being annoyed, something else will happen and the grouchy monster comes rearing its ugly head again.
gaaarrhh.
be mindful, breathe, breathe, breathe.
hey jq:)! ahhahaha i'm doing ok at school, results wise. but all stored in short term memory. so hmm yea i need to review my study methods, that's why i need revision mah. saad.
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anyway. officially feeling crabby.
according to dictionary.com...
crab-by
–adjective, -bi⋅er, -bi⋅est.
Informal. grouchy; ill-natured; irritable; peevish.
gaaarrhh. nothing really big (as usual) that made me like this. it just happened that i got my period today, and i sincerely think my mood swing is partly hormonal. kept on telling myself: "be mindful, breathe, breathe, breathe."
whenever i finally stop being annoyed, something else will happen and the grouchy monster comes rearing its ugly head again.
gaaarrhh.
be mindful, breathe, breathe, breathe.
Friday, January 02, 2009
hellow fellows
hey blog! it's been a while. how are you?
how am i? i've been good, thanks!
wanted to read anatomy, but couldn't bear to open up the book. and i ended up blogging. SIGH.
after i got back from australia, i went to malaysia for my cousin's wedding and then to china. first to hainan for a mission trip, and then continued on to backpack with 4 other classmates to zhaoqing, dong guan, fo shan, guang zhou, zhu hai, macau!
too many lessons learnt. and the biggest lesson of all: be mindful, and to keep my mouth shut if i have nothing beneficial to say.
went for 2009 countdown at BF. interesting experience, and i enjoyed it. lots of moments to test myself.
dad's first day at TTSH today. so far, so good.
and oh, dear blog, did you know that my mom was a nurse? well, I didn't know! after living for 20 years then did i learn that she was a nurse for a few years before she got married. how strange, how strange. and my parents still don't want to tell me much about it. *gives off a low growl*
wishlist:
1) iPod (need to find time to go buy)
2) GPS (oh, my life, my everything)
3) happiness for you and me :)
my life in summary?
...good enough :).
how am i? i've been good, thanks!
wanted to read anatomy, but couldn't bear to open up the book. and i ended up blogging. SIGH.
after i got back from australia, i went to malaysia for my cousin's wedding and then to china. first to hainan for a mission trip, and then continued on to backpack with 4 other classmates to zhaoqing, dong guan, fo shan, guang zhou, zhu hai, macau!
too many lessons learnt. and the biggest lesson of all: be mindful, and to keep my mouth shut if i have nothing beneficial to say.
went for 2009 countdown at BF. interesting experience, and i enjoyed it. lots of moments to test myself.
dad's first day at TTSH today. so far, so good.
and oh, dear blog, did you know that my mom was a nurse? well, I didn't know! after living for 20 years then did i learn that she was a nurse for a few years before she got married. how strange, how strange. and my parents still don't want to tell me much about it. *gives off a low growl*
wishlist:
1) iPod (need to find time to go buy)
2) GPS (oh, my life, my everything)
3) happiness for you and me :)
my life in summary?
...good enough :).
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