ok i'm really tired, no time to reply tags at the moment, but thanks everyone, hope u all are well and happy too :)!
let's summarise what has happened in recent times....
1) 10 days in india.
2) Arrival on 25th Dec 4am. had a party in the afternoon(relatives only), and another at night(friend's birthday).
3) 26th Dec: met up with ade+pam in afternoon, had rehearsal at night
4) 27th Dec: watched a movie with friends in the afternoon, met up with some other ppl later, had dinner with talia at night. went home and did bf stuff till 4am.
5) 28th Dec (today): went to the hairdresser's in the afternoon(dyed my hair). went to collect my air ticket for australia. went to buy mobile phone. went to the police clubhouse to discuss bf stuff and had karaoke.
goodness, i have been going to sleep during ungodly hours recently. no time to recover from jet lag, LOL.
today's my virgin karaoke experience. hoho. i have great friends who are kind to me, and i'm so glad to have them. :)
night!
Friday, December 28, 2007
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
hello hello :)
Hi everyone! it's been almost 3 months since i've last blogged. even i'm amazed by myself hahaha. i didn't blog because i simply had no need to. was happy doing my stuff, didn't have time to blog, and felt lazy too haha. and when i felt the need to blog, i was feeling negative. then i thought, why blog only when i feel like crap? then it would seem as if the whole time when i didn't blog, i was suffering tons (when it was the exact opposite) so yes, end of lengthy explanation hahahaha.
many, many things have happened. and to me, they are very significant ones. i shall be talking about them here and there, could be a lengthy post. please be prepared (that's to those people who still check my blog. i think most people would have thought the blog's dead for good hahaha).
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End of Work at Polo Ralph Lauren: 02/11/07
it was a fantastic work place. completely different dynamics from NCC (national cancer centre). the people were different, and more of the chinese speaking sort. the lack of obvious egos was refreshing. of course, egocentric people exist everywhere, but it was surprisingly lacking in PRL. perhaps it was also because the people i mixed around with were "small fry". and that was the best part, the small fry couldn't really care about the politics around. not as much as NCC hahaha. amazing how at NCC, even the smallest fry can inflate their egos so much to the extent of hurting other people. and how unfortunate that this is the nature of the work force! it's really saddening. but at least work has taught me to appreciate what i have right now, and also hopefully keep me mindful of how i treat people in the future.
photos taken on the last day of work :).
some of the younger folks! kian wee and judy :)
all in all, i met wonderful and amazing people there, and they were very very kind to me. probably also because i was the youngest kid there (the next in line was 22 years old). Thank you all :).
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Trip to Melbourne and Bodhinyana(Perth): 06/11/07 - 13/11/07
went to melbourne with my parents and brother tan kah tee to check out my school, and most importantly to unload my stuff (think it was 6 or 7 boxes worth of life savers).
met up with xue ling(4th year med student in Melbourne Uni, bf member) on the first day for dinner in the city area. good food! fantastic ice cream. vibrant city. happy happy :). xue ling was like.. bubbly wine. so full of energy and fun! amazing girl. she was very nice to us, brought us around, and went to her home.
on the 2nd day, met up with ivy(5th year med student in Monash Uni). dumped my stuff at her garage (life saver. really. if not i'd die when i go over next year) and she brought us around the campus and halls. monash is in the suburbs, so it's rather quiet. in my opinion, it's even quieter than Perth (like omg, that's like oh-so-quiet already!). she's very nice too! saw a room in one of the halls. not as small as i had imagined. can survive lar. hahaha.
think i'd need some time to get used to the place. especially given that i'm such a direction idiot, hope i don't get lost all the time. think i need GPS. hahahhaaaa.
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Then we went over to Perth! brother marc picked us up. very nice guy too (a very blessed trip. everyone's really nice).
goodness, the place was FULL OF FLIES. how horridly scary summer can be. to give you an idea of how bad it was, i was wearing a white shirt. my mom was walking behind me, and she was thinking, "ehh how come huilin's shirt got pattern one? what a huge black flower on her back with small dots here and there." and then she realised, those black spots were not part of the design, they were FLIES!! waaah then she started yelling and laughing.
we went to Bodhinyana the next day. Bodhinyana is a forest monastery somewhere in perth, with Ajahn Bhram as the abbot. loads of ang mo monks, also have an american of vietnamese descent, a singaporean monk.. aiyar loads of nationalities. pretty interesting.
met up with my eldest brother, renshang (or resh for short). apparently he was told that if you haven't eaten a fly, you haven't stayed long enough in australia. whenever we talked, we had to use at least one hand to fan away the flies. the flies loved moist areas so they usually attacked the eyes and mouth. thank goodness i wore specs all the time there, a bit more protection hahahaha. in the end, i usually used the sleeves of my jacket to fan away the flies, like how cows use their tails to wave flies away from their asses.
resh left for bodhinyana in april this year to become an Anagarika for a year.
(wiki: An anagarika is a term used in Theravada Buddhism to refer to a lay attendant of a monk. The monastic rules or Vinaya restrict monks from many tasks that might be needed, including the use of money, or driving to another location, so lay attendants help bridge this gap. All anagarika take the Ten Precepts, and often have the intention of becoming monks at a later point, though not always.)
about a month before we went to visit him, we got news that he wants to ordain as a monk. yes, you read it right, a monk. my mom was livid when she heard about it. anyway to cut the story short, we went to talk to him about it when we saw him, and he managed to convince us all that he's ready. plan goes that he'd come back to singapore in april 2008. work for a year, pay off the remaining bond, and then go and ordain as a monk, IF all goes well and nothing funny happens.
anyway, i thoroughly enjoyed myself at the monastery. recharged. had lengthy chats with this wonderful bro that i've missed tons. i didn't feel like leaving (only thought that made me wanna come home was wj. goodness. baaad baaaaad. too much attachment hahahahhaa).
Lunch Dana (the act of giving, generosity)
a pair of adorable twins with me and resh!! i simply LOVE THEM. *squeals* :)
a total sweetie pie :).
auntie ber(left) with my family.
bro and me :).
just before we left for the airport.
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Dinner: 30/11/07
auntie helen and big hui ling gave me and wenjie a treat, because we are leaving for australia. they are such sweeties :). had a fantastic meal!! big stomach. hahahha.
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Driving Test: 03/12/07
i passed.
ok i know this photo is oh-so-irrelevant, but well, as it's a happy event and i have no photos of it, i shall put a photo that makes me happy! hahahaha :)
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Buddhist Fellowship Youth Camp 2007 - Unbinding Boundaries: 07/12/07-09/12/07
waaah, have been preparing for this camp for months. or was it just 2 months? was in charge of publicity, almost died doing it. but well, somehow survived hahahaha. must thank thow, mandy, wen jie for it. thow, my poor boy, had to endure my craziness and help me run here and there. mandy had to do up the amazing poster. wenjie had to endure my pms too and also be the pr man. without them, i buay sai la!
wah, the organising part during the camp itself was crazy la. cuz only have 8 comm members (and one of them could only come from 2nd day onwards), and we had to handle around 30-40 ppl. plus being their leaders at the same time. quite tough. went crazy. hahahaha. but managed to survive.
it was really fun. of course, there were moments when we thought that things were screwed. (many of the activities were outdoors, and tee gong kept on calling the clouds to rain. fantastic lar.) but we managed to rise to the occasion and deal with it well(personal opinion).
camps are wonderful events. you get to meet new people, and you are forced out of your comfort zone. amazing to see how very different people interact, the dynamics of human interaction, and how tempers rise over the smallest issues.
overall, it was a good camp. lots of new people, and got positive feedback. may we be able to keep the momentum going, and keep them in. most importantly, may we grow as individuals together, and as spiritual friends. all in the direction of good.
this photo was taken a few days before the camp at vivo. went to recce at sentosa. pre-camp craziness showing up already.
Unbinding boundaries!
my team, Chummers Champions! woohoo :)
BUDDHIST FELLOWSHIP YOUTHS! :)
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India Pilgrimage: 14/12/07 - 25/12/07
coming up soon ;). yup, so i'd be going to india with bf. should start reading up on the places we are visiting, don't wanna waste my trip there. good kamma of mine to be able to go there at least once in my life time!
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there's no telling to when i'll next blog. i'm currently very happy. life has been good. very blessed to have all these wonderful people around me, wonderful friends, great family(it's just that i have to learn to appreciate them more hahahaha) and a fantastic boyfriend. i can't bear the thought of leaving them all in singapore (or in canberra, regarding the guy).
happiness. *beams* :)
many, many things have happened. and to me, they are very significant ones. i shall be talking about them here and there, could be a lengthy post. please be prepared (that's to those people who still check my blog. i think most people would have thought the blog's dead for good hahaha).
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End of Work at Polo Ralph Lauren: 02/11/07
it was a fantastic work place. completely different dynamics from NCC (national cancer centre). the people were different, and more of the chinese speaking sort. the lack of obvious egos was refreshing. of course, egocentric people exist everywhere, but it was surprisingly lacking in PRL. perhaps it was also because the people i mixed around with were "small fry". and that was the best part, the small fry couldn't really care about the politics around. not as much as NCC hahaha. amazing how at NCC, even the smallest fry can inflate their egos so much to the extent of hurting other people. and how unfortunate that this is the nature of the work force! it's really saddening. but at least work has taught me to appreciate what i have right now, and also hopefully keep me mindful of how i treat people in the future.
photos taken on the last day of work :).
some of the younger folks! kian wee and judy :)
all in all, i met wonderful and amazing people there, and they were very very kind to me. probably also because i was the youngest kid there (the next in line was 22 years old). Thank you all :).
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Trip to Melbourne and Bodhinyana(Perth): 06/11/07 - 13/11/07
went to melbourne with my parents and brother tan kah tee to check out my school, and most importantly to unload my stuff (think it was 6 or 7 boxes worth of life savers).
met up with xue ling(4th year med student in Melbourne Uni, bf member) on the first day for dinner in the city area. good food! fantastic ice cream. vibrant city. happy happy :). xue ling was like.. bubbly wine. so full of energy and fun! amazing girl. she was very nice to us, brought us around, and went to her home.
on the 2nd day, met up with ivy(5th year med student in Monash Uni). dumped my stuff at her garage (life saver. really. if not i'd die when i go over next year) and she brought us around the campus and halls. monash is in the suburbs, so it's rather quiet. in my opinion, it's even quieter than Perth (like omg, that's like oh-so-quiet already!). she's very nice too! saw a room in one of the halls. not as small as i had imagined. can survive lar. hahaha.
think i'd need some time to get used to the place. especially given that i'm such a direction idiot, hope i don't get lost all the time. think i need GPS. hahahhaaaa.
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Then we went over to Perth! brother marc picked us up. very nice guy too (a very blessed trip. everyone's really nice).
goodness, the place was FULL OF FLIES. how horridly scary summer can be. to give you an idea of how bad it was, i was wearing a white shirt. my mom was walking behind me, and she was thinking, "ehh how come huilin's shirt got pattern one? what a huge black flower on her back with small dots here and there." and then she realised, those black spots were not part of the design, they were FLIES!! waaah then she started yelling and laughing.
we went to Bodhinyana the next day. Bodhinyana is a forest monastery somewhere in perth, with Ajahn Bhram as the abbot. loads of ang mo monks, also have an american of vietnamese descent, a singaporean monk.. aiyar loads of nationalities. pretty interesting.
met up with my eldest brother, renshang (or resh for short). apparently he was told that if you haven't eaten a fly, you haven't stayed long enough in australia. whenever we talked, we had to use at least one hand to fan away the flies. the flies loved moist areas so they usually attacked the eyes and mouth. thank goodness i wore specs all the time there, a bit more protection hahahaha. in the end, i usually used the sleeves of my jacket to fan away the flies, like how cows use their tails to wave flies away from their asses.
resh left for bodhinyana in april this year to become an Anagarika for a year.
(wiki: An anagarika is a term used in Theravada Buddhism to refer to a lay attendant of a monk. The monastic rules or Vinaya restrict monks from many tasks that might be needed, including the use of money, or driving to another location, so lay attendants help bridge this gap. All anagarika take the Ten Precepts, and often have the intention of becoming monks at a later point, though not always.)
about a month before we went to visit him, we got news that he wants to ordain as a monk. yes, you read it right, a monk. my mom was livid when she heard about it. anyway to cut the story short, we went to talk to him about it when we saw him, and he managed to convince us all that he's ready. plan goes that he'd come back to singapore in april 2008. work for a year, pay off the remaining bond, and then go and ordain as a monk, IF all goes well and nothing funny happens.
anyway, i thoroughly enjoyed myself at the monastery. recharged. had lengthy chats with this wonderful bro that i've missed tons. i didn't feel like leaving (only thought that made me wanna come home was wj. goodness. baaad baaaaad. too much attachment hahahahhaa).
Lunch Dana (the act of giving, generosity)
a pair of adorable twins with me and resh!! i simply LOVE THEM. *squeals* :)
a total sweetie pie :).
auntie ber(left) with my family.
bro and me :).
just before we left for the airport.
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Dinner: 30/11/07
auntie helen and big hui ling gave me and wenjie a treat, because we are leaving for australia. they are such sweeties :). had a fantastic meal!! big stomach. hahahha.
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Driving Test: 03/12/07
i passed.
ok i know this photo is oh-so-irrelevant, but well, as it's a happy event and i have no photos of it, i shall put a photo that makes me happy! hahahaha :)
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Buddhist Fellowship Youth Camp 2007 - Unbinding Boundaries: 07/12/07-09/12/07
waaah, have been preparing for this camp for months. or was it just 2 months? was in charge of publicity, almost died doing it. but well, somehow survived hahahaha. must thank thow, mandy, wen jie for it. thow, my poor boy, had to endure my craziness and help me run here and there. mandy had to do up the amazing poster. wenjie had to endure my pms too and also be the pr man. without them, i buay sai la!
wah, the organising part during the camp itself was crazy la. cuz only have 8 comm members (and one of them could only come from 2nd day onwards), and we had to handle around 30-40 ppl. plus being their leaders at the same time. quite tough. went crazy. hahahaha. but managed to survive.
it was really fun. of course, there were moments when we thought that things were screwed. (many of the activities were outdoors, and tee gong kept on calling the clouds to rain. fantastic lar.) but we managed to rise to the occasion and deal with it well(personal opinion).
camps are wonderful events. you get to meet new people, and you are forced out of your comfort zone. amazing to see how very different people interact, the dynamics of human interaction, and how tempers rise over the smallest issues.
overall, it was a good camp. lots of new people, and got positive feedback. may we be able to keep the momentum going, and keep them in. most importantly, may we grow as individuals together, and as spiritual friends. all in the direction of good.
this photo was taken a few days before the camp at vivo. went to recce at sentosa. pre-camp craziness showing up already.
Unbinding boundaries!
my team, Chummers Champions! woohoo :)
BUDDHIST FELLOWSHIP YOUTHS! :)
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India Pilgrimage: 14/12/07 - 25/12/07
coming up soon ;). yup, so i'd be going to india with bf. should start reading up on the places we are visiting, don't wanna waste my trip there. good kamma of mine to be able to go there at least once in my life time!
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there's no telling to when i'll next blog. i'm currently very happy. life has been good. very blessed to have all these wonderful people around me, wonderful friends, great family(it's just that i have to learn to appreciate them more hahahaha) and a fantastic boyfriend. i can't bear the thought of leaving them all in singapore (or in canberra, regarding the guy).
happiness. *beams* :)
Monday, September 17, 2007
Michelle Branch
All You Wanted
I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away
I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the tide comes
I'd take you away
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Oh, yeah
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
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Everywhere
Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere
Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
you're never there
And every time I sleep
you're always there
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh
And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
it's you I breathe
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?
I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away
I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the tide comes
I'd take you away
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Oh, yeah
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
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Everywhere
Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere
Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
you're never there
And every time I sleep
you're always there
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh
And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
it's you I breathe
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?
Thursday, September 13, 2007
hello wello
hey there jon's friend :)! i assume you are Pukie Marcie, which means you are no longer known as "jon's friend" but as "hui lin's friend-to-be". hee :p. glad you enjoyed the joke in that entry.what's your name anyway, unless you want me to call you Pukie from now on ;p.
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gosh, i'm exhausted. so many, many things to do. so little time. but when i have too much time, i complain too. HAHA. middle way, middle way.
watched Ratatouille today (finally). it's really entertaining! and the animation was very good. looked very realistic. guess the company is the most important factor though :p.
ahhh i'm going to sleep...
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gosh, i'm exhausted. so many, many things to do. so little time. but when i have too much time, i complain too. HAHA. middle way, middle way.
watched Ratatouille today (finally). it's really entertaining! and the animation was very good. looked very realistic. guess the company is the most important factor though :p.
ahhh i'm going to sleep...
Monday, September 03, 2007
just moments ago i was so self absorbed in my self inflicted suffering.
on hearing what my mom told me about her... things just changed 180 degrees. poor girl. i'm in no position to be upset about anything.
perspective, perspective.
it's time to take my hand away from my face, and realise that there's so much more around than just my hand.
on hearing what my mom told me about her... things just changed 180 degrees. poor girl. i'm in no position to be upset about anything.
perspective, perspective.
it's time to take my hand away from my face, and realise that there's so much more around than just my hand.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
relieved
ok! everything's back to normal, even better.
but i lack sleep mans. and i cant fall asleep, my mind's too active. sheesh.
i need to buy at least one pair of flats, and slippers.
but i lack sleep mans. and i cant fall asleep, my mind's too active. sheesh.
i need to buy at least one pair of flats, and slippers.
a true narcissist.
after chit chatting with my bro and complaining to him about some idiot waiter taking advantage of me(he rubbed his thigh against me 3 freaking times god i swear i'd stick my fork into his very sensitive area if i ever see him again and he attempts to go near me), and photoshopping my photos, i'm feeling very happy now! i tell you, i'm just freakin vain. and in the spirit of true narcissism, i shall share with you my photoshop achievement:
hey, it was tough work ok!! i had to get rid of a super obvious spot on my face and a bra strap!! ok the bra strap was the irritating one. my bro taught me some techniques on how to get rid of it.. ok lar actuaally i'm just exaggerating it's level of difficulty. but whatever's the case, i like this photo. don't i look oh-so-cool??!! i had a hard time trying not to laugh.
hey, it was tough work ok!! i had to get rid of a super obvious spot on my face and a bra strap!! ok the bra strap was the irritating one. my bro taught me some techniques on how to get rid of it.. ok lar actuaally i'm just exaggerating it's level of difficulty. but whatever's the case, i like this photo. don't i look oh-so-cool??!! i had a hard time trying not to laugh.
you chicken backside.... you.. you...
wah lao ehh.. total chicken backside of the century laar. how dare u not reply me. slap u ahh! *piak piak!!* ok apparently i'm pmsing ALREADY. which doesn't make sense, for if i go according to calculations i should be ovulating. what the hell. unless pms starts that early. or if it stands for Perpetual-(Menstruation-Syndrome). *yells*
ok now i'm just thinking of whether to give u the ultimatum. god, i'm so scared. sigh. whatever. u'd probably have the what-have-i-done-to-deserve-this attitude. URGH.
i'm really scared. sometimes i think i may cry. i think too much, i know.
urgh, getting so upset over such a small matter. really stupid of me. i need perspective, man.
hey wuzun!! thanks for the tag. aiyar actually i'm quite happy, having a lot of fun. but yet again, not so happy since ytd over a small matter. HAHAHA. yea we shld keep in touch. it's kinda sad that we all have to go our separate ways, and i do fear that coming of the day when we feel awkward in each other's presence. anyway, i don't like wuzun anymore. i've decided that wong li hom is much better than wuzun. sorry dude!! hahaha. hope ur well and sch's alright :).
ok now i'm just thinking of whether to give u the ultimatum. god, i'm so scared. sigh. whatever. u'd probably have the what-have-i-done-to-deserve-this attitude. URGH.
i'm really scared. sometimes i think i may cry. i think too much, i know.
urgh, getting so upset over such a small matter. really stupid of me. i need perspective, man.
hey wuzun!! thanks for the tag. aiyar actually i'm quite happy, having a lot of fun. but yet again, not so happy since ytd over a small matter. HAHAHA. yea we shld keep in touch. it's kinda sad that we all have to go our separate ways, and i do fear that coming of the day when we feel awkward in each other's presence. anyway, i don't like wuzun anymore. i've decided that wong li hom is much better than wuzun. sorry dude!! hahaha. hope ur well and sch's alright :).
Friday, August 17, 2007
*growls*
urgh. i'm such a *toot*. (i wanted to say that i'm such a pussy. and that's really bad language!! thus, the "toot")
first i felt weird. then i felt happy with "friends". then now i'm not happy again. i'm so irritated with myself!!! ARGH. i think too much lar. it sucks being female (on the assumption that girls tend to think too much of course)
*screams and yells*
i hope everything will be ok tmr. *SIGH* i'm missing ....
on a happier tone, work is pretty good. but i'm always busy. it's amazing how much advantage there is to be taken of cheap labour. hahaha. interesting interesting, but pretty tiring. my eyesight's sure to go.
first i felt weird. then i felt happy with "friends". then now i'm not happy again. i'm so irritated with myself!!! ARGH. i think too much lar. it sucks being female (on the assumption that girls tend to think too much of course)
*screams and yells*
i hope everything will be ok tmr. *SIGH* i'm missing ....
on a happier tone, work is pretty good. but i'm always busy. it's amazing how much advantage there is to be taken of cheap labour. hahaha. interesting interesting, but pretty tiring. my eyesight's sure to go.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
i'm working
i'm working. started today. at POLO RALPH LAUREN SOURCING PTE LTD.
like, what the sai?! can't imagine that i'd ever work in such a place. i'm working as an admin assistant, and not at the retail store. it's like.. headquarters? singapore branch.
it's pretty cool, for the first time i'm exposed to something related to fashion and design. there are textile cloths and samples everywhere. it's so alien. i'm more used to seeing dying people. sheesh.
unfortunately, they deal with MENS WEAR. boohoo :(. and sometimes when they have a "sale" (basically selling rejected samples because the boss doesn't like the design. and there are only about.. 10 of the exact same clothing in the whole world!!) and are sold at a super affordable price. like WHOA. but around once every 3 months. which is the amount of time i'd be spending there. hopefully i'd have the opportunity to buy some of the apparels! alas, as i've mentioned, they are male wear. :(
today i was supposed to go there for an interview at 9:30am. during the interview, the HR manager asked if i could start work right away. like WTH. i thought about it for 3 seconds, thinking about the shopping spree i'd have to postpone (the office is at harbourfront place, which is 2 buildings away from VIVOCITY), gave a little sigh in my mind, and agreed that i could. sheesh.
so yar. i started work. what a shock for my fragile heart. it's a very new environment, i refuse to comment too much on it. may the people remain as nice as they seem(or even nicer) while i'm there.
i'm so tired. my working hours is from 9am to 6pm. 6pm!!! so sad. and i take about 70mins to travel by bus. sheesh. i better sleep early from now on. overslept today and thought i was going to be late for the interview.
i'm kinda apprehensive about this job. VERY apprehensive actually. OH WELL.
oh, i guess this spells the end of the drought that i've brought to my blog. now it's raining huilin's saliva. i stopped blogging because i didn't feel the need to. oh wello wells. i wonder if anyone wld still read my blog after it became temporarily dead.
hope u guys are having fun. for school has started ;)! hehehehehe
like, what the sai?! can't imagine that i'd ever work in such a place. i'm working as an admin assistant, and not at the retail store. it's like.. headquarters? singapore branch.
it's pretty cool, for the first time i'm exposed to something related to fashion and design. there are textile cloths and samples everywhere. it's so alien. i'm more used to seeing dying people. sheesh.
unfortunately, they deal with MENS WEAR. boohoo :(. and sometimes when they have a "sale" (basically selling rejected samples because the boss doesn't like the design. and there are only about.. 10 of the exact same clothing in the whole world!!) and are sold at a super affordable price. like WHOA. but around once every 3 months. which is the amount of time i'd be spending there. hopefully i'd have the opportunity to buy some of the apparels! alas, as i've mentioned, they are male wear. :(
today i was supposed to go there for an interview at 9:30am. during the interview, the HR manager asked if i could start work right away. like WTH. i thought about it for 3 seconds, thinking about the shopping spree i'd have to postpone (the office is at harbourfront place, which is 2 buildings away from VIVOCITY), gave a little sigh in my mind, and agreed that i could. sheesh.
so yar. i started work. what a shock for my fragile heart. it's a very new environment, i refuse to comment too much on it. may the people remain as nice as they seem(or even nicer) while i'm there.
i'm so tired. my working hours is from 9am to 6pm. 6pm!!! so sad. and i take about 70mins to travel by bus. sheesh. i better sleep early from now on. overslept today and thought i was going to be late for the interview.
i'm kinda apprehensive about this job. VERY apprehensive actually. OH WELL.
oh, i guess this spells the end of the drought that i've brought to my blog. now it's raining huilin's saliva. i stopped blogging because i didn't feel the need to. oh wello wells. i wonder if anyone wld still read my blog after it became temporarily dead.
hope u guys are having fun. for school has started ;)! hehehehehe
Thursday, July 19, 2007
holiday in phuket! + random
hey all!
ok long time no update. i was, in summary, slacking my youth away. watching tv, vcd, and downloading manga. hohoho.
anyway tmr i'll be gone... i'll be in PHUKET!! woohoooo!!! leaving at around noon, be back on monday evening. so it's basically 4 days in bliss. ok i hope it's bliss, 'cause i heard that the place is really beautiful, plus i'm staying in a 5 star hotel! WEEHEEE. it's a soft meditation retreat, which means it's up you how strict you want it to be. so if you just wanna go shopping all day, or relax on the beach, you are allowed to. YESSS. (oh btw, i wont be bringing my hp. i think)
i can't wait to go swimming! heard the swimming pool's really nice. SO EXCITING!! a holiday... finally :). plus i get to sit on the airplane! it's been a while.. *contented sigh*
anyway if you have time, go check out this blog: http://rockson.blogspot.com/
got this link from gaius' blog. this guy's super funny lar. in his latest entry, he talks about the email MP Lee's son wrote and sent to the whole world. the email is also posted up on his blog. really amusing to read his entry, and i do find it pretty enlightening too. however, please be warned of his very colourful range of vocabulary. it's super amusing though! hehhehheh
oh, and check out this fwd email. super funny. and i think it's very true. enjoy :).
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Sunday night :
I thought he was acting weird.
We had made plans to meet at a cafe to have coffee.
I was shopping with my friends all day long, so I thought he was upset that I was a bit late, but he made no comment.
Conversation wasn't flowing, so I suggested that we go somewhere quiet so
we could talk.
He agreed but he kept quiet and absent.
I asked him what was wrong.
He said: "Nothing."
I asked him if it was my fault that he was upset.
He said it had nothing to do with me, and not to worry.
On the way home I told him that I loved him.
He simply smiled and kept driving.
I can't explain his behavior; I don't know why he didn't say: "I love u, too."
When we got home, I felt as if I had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to
do with me anymore.
He just sat there and watched TV; he seemed distant and absent.
Finally, I decided to go to bed.
About 10 minutes later he came to bed.
I could not take it anymore, so I decided to confront him with the situation but he had fallen asleep.
I started crying and cried until I too fell asleep.
I don't know what to do.
I'm almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else.
My life is a disaster.
Husband's DIARY :
Today, Liverpool lost the match. Sigh....
.
.
.
.
.
That's the problem with Men - talk too little....
That's the problem with Women - think too much............
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see you guys when i get back! :)
ok long time no update. i was, in summary, slacking my youth away. watching tv, vcd, and downloading manga. hohoho.
anyway tmr i'll be gone... i'll be in PHUKET!! woohoooo!!! leaving at around noon, be back on monday evening. so it's basically 4 days in bliss. ok i hope it's bliss, 'cause i heard that the place is really beautiful, plus i'm staying in a 5 star hotel! WEEHEEE. it's a soft meditation retreat, which means it's up you how strict you want it to be. so if you just wanna go shopping all day, or relax on the beach, you are allowed to. YESSS. (oh btw, i wont be bringing my hp. i think)
i can't wait to go swimming! heard the swimming pool's really nice. SO EXCITING!! a holiday... finally :). plus i get to sit on the airplane! it's been a while.. *contented sigh*
anyway if you have time, go check out this blog: http://rockson.blogspot.com/
got this link from gaius' blog. this guy's super funny lar. in his latest entry, he talks about the email MP Lee's son wrote and sent to the whole world. the email is also posted up on his blog. really amusing to read his entry, and i do find it pretty enlightening too. however, please be warned of his very colourful range of vocabulary. it's super amusing though! hehhehheh
oh, and check out this fwd email. super funny. and i think it's very true. enjoy :).
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Sunday night :
I thought he was acting weird.
We had made plans to meet at a cafe to have coffee.
I was shopping with my friends all day long, so I thought he was upset that I was a bit late, but he made no comment.
Conversation wasn't flowing, so I suggested that we go somewhere quiet so
we could talk.
He agreed but he kept quiet and absent.
I asked him what was wrong.
He said: "Nothing."
I asked him if it was my fault that he was upset.
He said it had nothing to do with me, and not to worry.
On the way home I told him that I loved him.
He simply smiled and kept driving.
I can't explain his behavior; I don't know why he didn't say: "I love u, too."
When we got home, I felt as if I had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to
do with me anymore.
He just sat there and watched TV; he seemed distant and absent.
Finally, I decided to go to bed.
About 10 minutes later he came to bed.
I could not take it anymore, so I decided to confront him with the situation but he had fallen asleep.
I started crying and cried until I too fell asleep.
I don't know what to do.
I'm almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else.
My life is a disaster.
Husband's DIARY :
Today, Liverpool lost the match. Sigh....
.
.
.
.
.
That's the problem with Men - talk too little....
That's the problem with Women - think too much............
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see you guys when i get back! :)
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Harry Potter // Dim Sum Dollies
ytd i went to watch harry potter with veron.
honestly i was rather disappointed. expected more from it, looking from the very nice trailer. the movie's different from the book. well, admittedly the book was too long winded. but there were too many changes, even if it was to conveniently shorten the film.
if you read the book, you would be disappointed with the numerous changes. if you didn't read the book, you might not understand the story as sometimes the linkage from one scene to the next was quite bad.
the acting was alright lar. as usual, i'm dissatisfied with dumbledore's acting. he's not as calm and composed as he's supposed to be. he's too... human. too vulnerable to emotions and physical threats. umbridge was pretty good. i like luna and tonks. and oooh, i'm in love with bellatrix. think her acting's fantastic. i wish i can act in a similar role.. as a mad, twisted woman who causes fear to arise in people. woohooo!
hermione and ron had very little screen time. oh well. no quidditch. and a less exciting version of the weasley brothers' exit from hogwarts. and i think mrs fig (was that her name, cant rmb. the squib) should have been all jumpy and frightened, instead of how she was portrayed in the show.
OH WELL. but i would have watched the show no matter what. and i love the view of london as they flew across the waters.
ok, here are two pictures of my beloved Bellatrix Lestrange, played by Helena Bonham Carter. i just love her. fantastic acting as always.
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went to watch Dim Sum Dollies at night with my bro.
gosh, it's a very very good show! very funny, and very nice songs. didn't expect it to be that good. pity that i don't understand hokkien, cantonese, malay. an incentive to be multilingual!
saw my SNGS teachers! ms cheleen chua, mr geraint wong, ms jeya. apparently ms heng was there. gosh! oh and the dim sum dollies also took a dig on the CHIJ girls. quite amused.
presenting to you.... THE DIM SUM DOLLIES!!! *does a little dance*
honestly i was rather disappointed. expected more from it, looking from the very nice trailer. the movie's different from the book. well, admittedly the book was too long winded. but there were too many changes, even if it was to conveniently shorten the film.
if you read the book, you would be disappointed with the numerous changes. if you didn't read the book, you might not understand the story as sometimes the linkage from one scene to the next was quite bad.
the acting was alright lar. as usual, i'm dissatisfied with dumbledore's acting. he's not as calm and composed as he's supposed to be. he's too... human. too vulnerable to emotions and physical threats. umbridge was pretty good. i like luna and tonks. and oooh, i'm in love with bellatrix. think her acting's fantastic. i wish i can act in a similar role.. as a mad, twisted woman who causes fear to arise in people. woohooo!
hermione and ron had very little screen time. oh well. no quidditch. and a less exciting version of the weasley brothers' exit from hogwarts. and i think mrs fig (was that her name, cant rmb. the squib) should have been all jumpy and frightened, instead of how she was portrayed in the show.
OH WELL. but i would have watched the show no matter what. and i love the view of london as they flew across the waters.
ok, here are two pictures of my beloved Bellatrix Lestrange, played by Helena Bonham Carter. i just love her. fantastic acting as always.
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went to watch Dim Sum Dollies at night with my bro.
gosh, it's a very very good show! very funny, and very nice songs. didn't expect it to be that good. pity that i don't understand hokkien, cantonese, malay. an incentive to be multilingual!
saw my SNGS teachers! ms cheleen chua, mr geraint wong, ms jeya. apparently ms heng was there. gosh! oh and the dim sum dollies also took a dig on the CHIJ girls. quite amused.
presenting to you.... THE DIM SUM DOLLIES!!! *does a little dance*
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
fruits basket
i just read the last 3 chapters of fruits basket. god, i feel like crying. it never fails to crack me up and make my heart beat so vulnerably. ok weird description. but it's just such a lovely manga!
ok too sleepy. night ya all. love ya :)!! (HA! eric, now u can't say Where is the love. ok lame reply of mine.....)
ok too sleepy. night ya all. love ya :)!! (HA! eric, now u can't say Where is the love. ok lame reply of mine.....)
Monday, July 09, 2007
HAHA
gosh, i can't believe it, we both forgot that today's our 4th month!
and HE remembered it first. at like.. 11:30pm? hahahaha. ok i'm lousy.
actually i kinda like it this way. that we don't put extra emphasis on it, unless we feel like doing so. same logic as the Unbirthday Song. so that instead of having one special day, everyday is equally special!
but i'm so embarrassed for forgetting!! oh, oh!!
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THE UNBIRTHDAY SONG
From the Walt Disney film "Alice In Wonderland" (1951)
(Mack David / Al Hoffman / Jerry Livingston)
Statistics prove, prove that you've one birthday
One birthday every year
But there are three hundred and sixty four unbirthdays
That is why we're gathered here to cheer
A very merry unbirthday to you, to you
A very merry unbirthday to you, to you
It's great to drink to someone
And I guess that you will do
A very merry unbirthday to you
A very merry unbirthday to us, to us
A very merry unbirthday to us
If there are no objections
Let it be unanimous
A very merry unbirthday to us
A very merry unbirthday to me (to who)
A very merry unbirthday to me (to you)
Let's all congratulate me
With a present I agree
A very merry unbirthday to me
A very merry unbirthday to all, to all
A very merry unbirthday to all, to all
Let's have a celebration
Hire a band and rent a hall
A very merry unbirthday
A very merry unbirthday
A very merry unbirthday to all
and HE remembered it first. at like.. 11:30pm? hahahaha. ok i'm lousy.
actually i kinda like it this way. that we don't put extra emphasis on it, unless we feel like doing so. same logic as the Unbirthday Song. so that instead of having one special day, everyday is equally special!
but i'm so embarrassed for forgetting!! oh, oh!!
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THE UNBIRTHDAY SONG
From the Walt Disney film "Alice In Wonderland" (1951)
(Mack David / Al Hoffman / Jerry Livingston)
Statistics prove, prove that you've one birthday
One birthday every year
But there are three hundred and sixty four unbirthdays
That is why we're gathered here to cheer
A very merry unbirthday to you, to you
A very merry unbirthday to you, to you
It's great to drink to someone
And I guess that you will do
A very merry unbirthday to you
A very merry unbirthday to us, to us
A very merry unbirthday to us
If there are no objections
Let it be unanimous
A very merry unbirthday to us
A very merry unbirthday to me (to who)
A very merry unbirthday to me (to you)
Let's all congratulate me
With a present I agree
A very merry unbirthday to me
A very merry unbirthday to all, to all
A very merry unbirthday to all, to all
Let's have a celebration
Hire a band and rent a hall
A very merry unbirthday
A very merry unbirthday
A very merry unbirthday to all
Sunday, July 08, 2007
panic attacks // bogus monks
gaaahh i haven't been able to sleep well recently. first, i take a long time to get to sleep. then i wake up easily in between. and when i finally get out of bed in the morning (usually around 11am), i feel hardly rested. *growls*
it's called thinking too much about the future! i keep on thinking about australia, school.. gaah. feeling excited and apprehensive. gosh there's so many things in my small head. studies, tuition fees, lodging, car, friends, him, family, money money money... etc. it's so unnerving.
if i'm going to stay this worried and anxious till i leave, wah. cannot take it lar.
i think i have too much free time. i need to work. but anyway, i'll try to find a job and start work in august. think july's rather packed for me. then hopefully i'll work for 4 months. then i have december free to go over and suss out melbourne!
oh yess, i need to get a laptop. ok shall worry about that later. think i shall write that at the side of my blog so i'll remember.
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ytd there was an article in the newspaper about bogus monks. gosh, those "monks" really piss me off.
by right monks aren't supposed to even handle money. they should have a helper(dunno what they call them) with them to handle their money, even for transport. their alms bowl is to collect food only, not money.
i think these fake monks will disappear for a while before coming back now. but if they do come back.. *ROARRRSSS!!*
if i happen to come across one of them while i'm eating, i'll politely call them over, ask them to empty their alms bowl, and clean the bowl for them. then i'll very generously give them my food, and add extra gravy or soup into it(just make it as wet as possible). and if they dare to give me a look that does not show that they are grateful, i'll tell them to get lost before i call the police. URGHHHHHHH. SO ANGRRRYYY.
*slaps all of them*. how dare they spoil the name of the sangha, and abuse people's kindness and generosity?!! *ROARS IN FURY AGAIN*
ok nvm. they will reap what they sow. good luck to them.
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Tags:
jw: hahaha. guess that's how i'm like when i need to rant. glad that you were entertained! ;)
suf: thanks suf :)! ehh! i'm the only one so far is it? hahaha. ooo mystery calls are always welcome ;).
ning: thanks sua :)!!
xun: oo yess! it's also really useful, especially when words are insufficient to express your feelings in blog entries. hahaha ;p.
yeewen: thanks babe :)!!
pris: hey pris! long time no see! thanks so much. yea i'm sure all will be fine. i hope. right? right??? oops i think i'm getting hysterical. hahaha :).
it's called thinking too much about the future! i keep on thinking about australia, school.. gaah. feeling excited and apprehensive. gosh there's so many things in my small head. studies, tuition fees, lodging, car, friends, him, family, money money money... etc. it's so unnerving.
if i'm going to stay this worried and anxious till i leave, wah. cannot take it lar.
i think i have too much free time. i need to work. but anyway, i'll try to find a job and start work in august. think july's rather packed for me. then hopefully i'll work for 4 months. then i have december free to go over and suss out melbourne!
oh yess, i need to get a laptop. ok shall worry about that later. think i shall write that at the side of my blog so i'll remember.
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ytd there was an article in the newspaper about bogus monks. gosh, those "monks" really piss me off.
by right monks aren't supposed to even handle money. they should have a helper(dunno what they call them) with them to handle their money, even for transport. their alms bowl is to collect food only, not money.
i think these fake monks will disappear for a while before coming back now. but if they do come back.. *ROARRRSSS!!*
if i happen to come across one of them while i'm eating, i'll politely call them over, ask them to empty their alms bowl, and clean the bowl for them. then i'll very generously give them my food, and add extra gravy or soup into it(just make it as wet as possible). and if they dare to give me a look that does not show that they are grateful, i'll tell them to get lost before i call the police. URGHHHHHHH. SO ANGRRRYYY.
*slaps all of them*. how dare they spoil the name of the sangha, and abuse people's kindness and generosity?!! *ROARS IN FURY AGAIN*
ok nvm. they will reap what they sow. good luck to them.
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Tags:
jw: hahaha. guess that's how i'm like when i need to rant. glad that you were entertained! ;)
suf: thanks suf :)! ehh! i'm the only one so far is it? hahaha. ooo mystery calls are always welcome ;).
ning: thanks sua :)!!
xun: oo yess! it's also really useful, especially when words are insufficient to express your feelings in blog entries. hahaha ;p.
yeewen: thanks babe :)!!
pris: hey pris! long time no see! thanks so much. yea i'm sure all will be fine. i hope. right? right??? oops i think i'm getting hysterical. hahaha :).
Thursday, July 05, 2007
irritation
aiyo. it sucks really. about how much personal time he needs.
i mean, yar, girls need their own personal time too of course. but somehow, the amount of private space guys need seem to be able to fill up the universe, which happens to be expanding by the second. sheesh.
let's see how long can i tahan being the sweet, tolerant and understanding one. regarding this issue of course. well, for many other issues, he's the sweet tolerant understanding one. so i shouldn't complain too much HAHAHA.
and the best part? no point if my mind ever decides to play with the idea of changing. 'cause all males are the same. SHEESH.
to best express how i feel, i shall let images do the talking (and this one, is my all time favourite piece):
The Scream by Edvard Munch.
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Epilogue(hahahaha):
to be fair, he did tell me to let him know whenever i think he's neglecting me, and he's afraid that he would whenever he goes deep in thought, swimming in his own world. today i'm just more easily irritated, think it's my menses. makes me mental. haha! hey, 4 Ms. Menses Makes Me Mental! ok i'm going nuts lol.
feeling better after ranting it on the blog. i'm quite stupid and easily placated actually, once i saw our photo on his display pic. sheeesh. i'm SO LOUSY. *bangs head*
i'm the biggest chicken backside lar. oh sheesh. :(
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FINAL Epilogue:
ok to cut the story short, we talked it out, and we are happy again! AHHAHAHA. being together with another person is a skill. oosh. very cheem, very cheem....
i mean, yar, girls need their own personal time too of course. but somehow, the amount of private space guys need seem to be able to fill up the universe, which happens to be expanding by the second. sheesh.
let's see how long can i tahan being the sweet, tolerant and understanding one. regarding this issue of course. well, for many other issues, he's the sweet tolerant understanding one. so i shouldn't complain too much HAHAHA.
and the best part? no point if my mind ever decides to play with the idea of changing. 'cause all males are the same. SHEESH.
to best express how i feel, i shall let images do the talking (and this one, is my all time favourite piece):
The Scream by Edvard Munch.
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Epilogue(hahahaha):
to be fair, he did tell me to let him know whenever i think he's neglecting me, and he's afraid that he would whenever he goes deep in thought, swimming in his own world. today i'm just more easily irritated, think it's my menses. makes me mental. haha! hey, 4 Ms. Menses Makes Me Mental! ok i'm going nuts lol.
feeling better after ranting it on the blog. i'm quite stupid and easily placated actually, once i saw our photo on his display pic. sheeesh. i'm SO LOUSY. *bangs head*
i'm the biggest chicken backside lar. oh sheesh. :(
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FINAL Epilogue:
ok to cut the story short, we talked it out, and we are happy again! AHHAHAHA. being together with another person is a skill. oosh. very cheem, very cheem....
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Transformers // University woes, half gone! :)
Transformers; More Than Meets The Eye
I watched Transformers on monday, and GOSH, it's GOOD!!
action packed and very, very funny. the image of the indian telephone operator is stuck firmly in my head. the only other show that i've really, really enjoyed in recent times is Shrek 3.
oooh, i love Bumblebee.
ok. just realised that the image in xun's entry is also bumblebee... but heck lar. cuz he's my fav autobot!
this movie was worth my $7, definitely. even if it was $9, still worth it. go catch it, everyone! it's more than meets the eye! ;)
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guess what, everyone? i've gotten an email from Monash today. and it says that i'm offered a place for medicine over there!
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! :))
gosh, i'm basking in pure happiness now. or at least when i first read it hahahaha. the official package and offer letter will reach me in 2 weeks time.
so yep, i'm going to call up smu and give up my place. i'm entering monash with the 2008 intake. so i'm going to be very free, especially when all of you guys start school. will look for a job soon.
it's really interesting to see how my emotions changed with time.
when i first saw the email, i was in total disbelief. had to read it a second time before things started sinking in slowly. then i was totally happy. just numb happiness. first thing i did was to fwd to him the email, then i tried to call him(which he didn't pick up :P). then i told my mom who was about to pass me a postcard about the SMU matriculation (she wasn't sure whether to give it to me. she was afraid that i'd be upset on being reminded that i was to enter SMU). she too, very happy, started calling all the relatives who have been bugging my mom about my uni stuff.
after a while, my emotions became less intensive. it became more of numb, with mini outbursts of joy here and there. when reality sank in (i.e: being alone overseas for at least 5 years, having to leave my love ones, being away from him as he'd be in another part of australia, being lonely and scared and having to make new friends in a totally foreign environment with no support, ETC.), i started panicking. my heart thumped faster, i sweat more. and this horrid weather doesn't help.
also, i started worrying that what if the email wasn't true. what if they pang seh me!! ok play me out is a more appropriate term haha. i need the package, to feel it in my hands, to assure me truly.
in between, i decided to research a little bit on the unis, and thats when discontentment started kicking in, cuz according to wiki monash is the 3rd in ranking amongst the australian unis for med, whereas melbourne is the 1st. aiyar, this is purely an ego problem. a very stupid and redundant ego problem. guess it stems from my anxiety on whether monash is good enough, or if she's better than NUS. and when i tried to find photos of the campus, the very few images i found werent very impressive, and i liked the architecture of the university of melbourne better. that didn't help at all. i like pretty buildings. hahahaha.
but now, i guess all the emotions have started to die down. have a little of all in me. and the discontentment part is quite dissolved. i'm very happy. but i'm still feeling a bit anxious about the cultural differences and my ability to adapt. gaaahh. aiyar. nvm. i have loads of time to prep myself for it.
anyway, thank you, everyone! for your support and belief that i can make it (in business or in medicine). i know i've been a real whiny pig throughout the process of applying for unis, and you people were really sweet to tahan, even giving me words of encouragement! thank you so, so much. :)
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lastly, i'd like to leave all of you with this pic:
isn't that so cute?!! gosh, the little girl reminds me of myself when i was a child. this scene happened rather regularly whenever my bros and my cousin tried to steal a kiss from me. oh, those were the days. hahaha.
Last 3 Images taken from deviant art (in order):
1. ___Happiness____by_punkshits
2. Exploration_of_JOY_by_zquan85
3. Unwanted_Kiss_by_frixin
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Inspiration: The Path
The Five Precepts
- 1. Panatipata veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami
- I undertake the precept to refrain from destroying living creatures.
- 2. Adinnadana veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami
- I undertake the precept to refrain from taking that which is not given.
- 3. Kamesu micchacara veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami
- I undertake the precept to refrain from sexual misconduct.
- 4. Musavada veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami
- I undertake the precept to refrain from incorrect speech.
- 5. Suramerayamajja pamadatthana veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami
- I undertake the precept to refrain from intoxicating drinks and drugs which lead to carelessness.
Metta Sutta
This is what should be done
By one who is skilled in goodness,
And who knows the path of peace:
Let them be able and upright,
Straightforward and gentle in speech.
Humble and not conceited,
Contented and easily satisfied.
Unburdened with duties and frugal in their ways.
Peaceful and calm, and wise and skillful,
Not proud and demanding in nature.
Let them not do the slightest thing
That the wise would later reprove.
Wishing: In gladness and in safety,
May all beings be happy.
Whatever living beings there may be;
Whether they are weak or strong, omitting none,
The great or the mighty, medium, short or small,
The seen and the unseen,
Those living near and far away,
Those born and to-be-born,
May all beings be happy!
Let none deceive another,
Or despise any being in any state.
Let none through anger or ill-will
Wish harm upon another.
Even as a mother protects with her life
Her child, her only child,
So with a boundless heart
Should one cherish all living beings:
Radiating kindness over the entire world
Spreading upwards to the skies,
And downwards to the depths;
Outwards and unbounded,
Freed from hatred and ill-will.
Whether standing or walking, seated or lying down
Free from drowsiness,
One should sustain this recollection.
This is said to be the sublime abiding.
By not holding to fixed views,
The pure-hearted one, having clarity of vision,
Being freed from all sense desires,
Is not born again into this world.
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sudden inspiration to search on the chants. i broke the 4th precept. sigh. i was aware of it when i did it. now on hindsight i wonder if by speaking the truth, would the repercussions have been less? for sure my guilt would have been much less.
i'm feeling inspired to start practising. maybe i should go poh ern shih more often, not just on saturdays. and use the time to practise, right intention.
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The Noble Eightfold Path
- Wisdom (paññā)
- 1. Right view
- 2. Right intention
- Ethical conduct (sīla)
- 3. Right speech
- 4. Right action
- 5. Right livelihood
- Mental discipline (samādhi)
- 6. Right effort
- 7. Right mindfulness
- 8. Right concentration
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may posting this up serve as a reminder to me. remember, remember.
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ok i'll reply to tags when i'm less tired. my physical body is unrested.
May all beings be well and happy!
Sunday, June 24, 2007
emo me.
image taken from deviant art, by 7th Heaven Creative.
i want to look like that... and feel like that. joy and happiness.
when i think of the separation that is to come... gah. i don't know how am i going to deal with it. logic and rationality are gone from me, only my heart is working, and it's suffering. i know it's to do with labels and clinging, attachment. but knowing what it is doesn't mean i truly understand it.
doesn't help that my mom likes to pretend and act dumb. even though i don't usually admit this, my mom is an important pillar of support for me. now with one pillar gone...
i see one major major problem for the future though. it's the inability to compromise regarding that issue!! BAAH. and it's what i've ALWAYS wanted. as i grow up i begin to understand the weight and responsibility that comes with it, but i still want it! and some things you want, i can't give in. not that i don't want to, but hey, i'm born like this. can't provide that. haha. unless you want me to have an early death!
aiyar, on the big scale, this is considered kachang butih. in other words, very small issue. but aiyar. being a FEMALE, (or being HUI LIN), i just think too much. think too far ahead as well. live in the present moment!!
ok the stupid ssdc site is not working properly. i'm getting super, super irritated and pissed off. bitter icing on the yucky tasting cake. fantastic.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. *screams*
Thursday, June 21, 2007
My Sassy Girl / Week's updates / Things to do
i just watched My Sassy Girl. bought the vcd yesterday.
AHHH it's SO SO SO NICE. at first i was like wth, especially for the first half of the movie. but it was quite funny lar. then when the ending came, suddenly everything made sense. and wow, it links back to the beginning, and it's so sweet. *FAINTS*. and as usual, i cried. HAHAHA. but not much! considerably a lot less than usual. well done, hui lin :)!
and the girl's SO PRETTY. the guy's... well. the nerdy type. hahahaha.
i'm hooked onto the soundtrack (I Believe).
what's nice about this movie that it makes you think that it might be a true story. but well, after much research (hahaha this is what happily unemployed people do with their time), this movie is inspired from a true story. so baseline is, it's not real lar.
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ok! updates on my life... aren't you curious about what happily unemployed people do? okie let's do this in an organised fashion.
15 June, Fri:
morning - had final theory prac.
evening - cold rock's opening and lena+genia's bday celebration!
16 June, Sat:
3:30pm - had a bf youth + bedside support group bbq at east coast! so.. yum yum. watched sandcastle building for the first time!
11:45pm - went to cold rock for ice cream immediately after the bbq. lol.
17 June, Sun:
whole day - did nothing. which means i was a total sloth, woke up late, ate and watched tv. and also thought too much and worried unnecessarily about things that don't need to be worried about.
18 June, Mon:
morning - had my final theory trial test, and i passed! which is quite amazing given the amount i've studied, or the lack of it. btw, i have to pass a trial test before i am qualified to take the REAL final theory test. grr.
evening - had a belated bday dinner with ade, shu, pam! thanks babes :)!
19 June, Tues:
evening - driving session. boo.
night - dinner with him! and i was late
20 June, Wed:
afternoon - bf meeting, to discuss about moonlight. after it was over, i bummed around in marina sq and esplanade, till he finished his other meeting.
night - STINGRAY DINNER at CHOMP CHOMP!! with gilly and kaori :)! chompchompchomp. thought we weren't full at first, but it turned out to be pure greed.
21 June, Thurs (TODAY):
went for monash interview at 12:30pm. how nerve wrecking! turns out that qi en went for it as well. hahaha she vry cute lar. she found out that i was going through her kay poh methods. amazing. wish her all the best! :) oh, oh, and i watched My Sassy Girl!
22 June, Fri (TOMORROW):
ok given what a sloth i am, i shall blog in advance since i'm already here, HAHA. tmr i'll wake up late, slack and watch tv (i'm clairvoyant... ohmmm...). then i'll be going out for dinner with lena and my 2nd bro! ok anything more then this i can't promise you. lalala :)
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ok it's high time to list the things to do. i'm just wasting my life away at this rate!
THINGS TO DO:
1) Clean up my room.
2) Upload photos and send photos. (genia+lena's bday, kaori+gil)
3) Spend my $20 Taka voucher and $60 Borders voucher (whoopee!)
4) Medical Checkup
5) SMU Matriculation
6a) Send photos for printing
6b) Buy photo album
6c) Paste photos into album/scrapbook
7) Study final theory on the day of the test (18 July)
8) Plan and settle driving sessions
9) Write notes for driving
10) [to be continued... *cues ominous music*]
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Tags:
ning: HAHAHA. great consolation. thanks! (no i'm not being sarcastic here even though it might sound sarcastic, please trust me!!) and anyway, u would be going in TWO years later! boo :(
veron: thanks babe! yar la it'll be fine. i just need time :). hope canada's nice to u!
jw: hey girl! it was a pleasant surprise to see you! because genia said you weren't be there at that night. so yar. wish we could talk more! see you around (if i decide to grow my fats and visit cold rock hahaha) take care! :)
Thursday, June 14, 2007
cold rock!
hey guys! my friend's ice cream shop is finally opening today:)!! come and check it out. there's complimentary sample creations from 7pm-9pm today! it's at holland village, next to spizza. here's the poster:
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reply to tags:
K: yes, all hail ur photography skills lol! aiyar quite unglam. but i liked it somehow. hahaha
eric: thanks dude :). yea. one step at a time. xinyi got into business is it??
sua: ahhh sua.. thing is, i can't think of anything else that i like other than medicine :/. (no i dont like dentistry or pharmacy or nursing so naaahh) so i guess i went for practicality? and aiyar, i guess i'd like business, after a while. maybe after a long while. and i'd go for med, if overseas would take me. but thanks anyway, got ur point :).
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reply to tags:
K: yes, all hail ur photography skills lol! aiyar quite unglam. but i liked it somehow. hahaha
eric: thanks dude :). yea. one step at a time. xinyi got into business is it??
sua: ahhh sua.. thing is, i can't think of anything else that i like other than medicine :/. (no i dont like dentistry or pharmacy or nursing so naaahh) so i guess i went for practicality? and aiyar, i guess i'd like business, after a while. maybe after a long while. and i'd go for med, if overseas would take me. but thanks anyway, got ur point :).
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
uni blues
i just got the email from SMU regarding my matriculation.
............. :(
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. this is SO SAD. ok i shouldn't be saying this but AHHHHHHHH. i need to let this out, after weeks of trying to be positive.
i DON'T WANT to go to smu because i don't want to do business! what i really, really want is to do medicine! GAAAHH.
i keep trying to tell myself that i'm crazily lucky to go to smu and to take a double degree! ok let's admit, i'm so unprepared to go there. i mean, i don't even know what am i going to study. i totally have no ideas what kind of modules you have to take, and how many years i have to study for! i don't know how much am i to pay per year. i don't know anything, and everything.
now you know how ready i am to enter smu.
my heart sank when i got the email about the matriculation. so being a bit more concerned about my future, i went to check out the website provided. the more i read, the worse i felt. god, there's going to be a camp. ARGHHHH. this is one of the few times that i don't feel a teeny weeny bit of excitement when it comes to camps. actually, this is the only time! unless my memory failed me once again, which tends to happen rather frequently.
great. and i have to pay thousands of bucks for a course i don't want to take. GAAAHH.
and i have to go for stupid health screenings, go for the matriculation, go for orientation, go for blah blah blah. in summary? things i don't want to go for because i don't want to be there.
ok i'm behaving like a spoilt brat. if you guys are put off by me, especially those who are entering smu, i'm sorry. it's not because i think that being a doctor is much more prestigious than being in business. but it's simply because i WANT to be a doctor. that's what i've always wanted to be. and honestly, i think being in business requires more brains, a lot more interpersonal skills. sure, having good social skills is a plus point in every occupation, but i feel it's more essential in business. if you can't really speak well as a doctor, u wont die, if you can give correct diagnosis and give the correct solution to the problem, you are safe! perhaps you wont be very popular, then just don't go private lar! GAAAAHHH.
*rant rant rant rant rant*
*GRUMBLES*
and i've not gotten any replies from the other 3 aust unis. this sucks. maybe i should be positive, no news is good news! but i need to get on with life. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. whatever, anything.
anything, whatever.
*pulls hair*
for now, i'll just try to pretend that i didn't receive that email. for as long as possible? bwaaah :(.
can't things ever, ever go right?
.....sigh.
............. :(
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. this is SO SAD. ok i shouldn't be saying this but AHHHHHHHH. i need to let this out, after weeks of trying to be positive.
i DON'T WANT to go to smu because i don't want to do business! what i really, really want is to do medicine! GAAAHH.
i keep trying to tell myself that i'm crazily lucky to go to smu and to take a double degree! ok let's admit, i'm so unprepared to go there. i mean, i don't even know what am i going to study. i totally have no ideas what kind of modules you have to take, and how many years i have to study for! i don't know how much am i to pay per year. i don't know anything, and everything.
now you know how ready i am to enter smu.
my heart sank when i got the email about the matriculation. so being a bit more concerned about my future, i went to check out the website provided. the more i read, the worse i felt. god, there's going to be a camp. ARGHHHH. this is one of the few times that i don't feel a teeny weeny bit of excitement when it comes to camps. actually, this is the only time! unless my memory failed me once again, which tends to happen rather frequently.
great. and i have to pay thousands of bucks for a course i don't want to take. GAAAHH.
and i have to go for stupid health screenings, go for the matriculation, go for orientation, go for blah blah blah. in summary? things i don't want to go for because i don't want to be there.
ok i'm behaving like a spoilt brat. if you guys are put off by me, especially those who are entering smu, i'm sorry. it's not because i think that being a doctor is much more prestigious than being in business. but it's simply because i WANT to be a doctor. that's what i've always wanted to be. and honestly, i think being in business requires more brains, a lot more interpersonal skills. sure, having good social skills is a plus point in every occupation, but i feel it's more essential in business. if you can't really speak well as a doctor, u wont die, if you can give correct diagnosis and give the correct solution to the problem, you are safe! perhaps you wont be very popular, then just don't go private lar! GAAAAHHH.
*rant rant rant rant rant*
*GRUMBLES*
and i've not gotten any replies from the other 3 aust unis. this sucks. maybe i should be positive, no news is good news! but i need to get on with life. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. whatever, anything.
anything, whatever.
*pulls hair*
for now, i'll just try to pretend that i didn't receive that email. for as long as possible? bwaaah :(.
can't things ever, ever go right?
.....sigh.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
my birthday (11 june:)) + photos
b4 i start, i have to announce something. i'm stuck on that stupid gatsby song where takuya kimura looks so ugly and gay(not in the jolly way). and all thanks to veron after she posted it up onto her blog and i couldn't resist listening to it more and more. ughhh.
and oh, i just watched 200 Pounds Beauty on youtube! it's real good! i liked it at least. love the songs. marriaaaaa.........~~~
if you wanna watch, you can go to my playlist, i've it all up there in order. my username's linteoh :).
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ok! let's talk abt my bday! :)
ytd was my bday, it was great. not particularly exciting or anything, but having great company and minor surprises here and there. had a great time :).
went to meet up with my ex-colleagues for lunch.went to thai express at tiong bahru. they drew this really cute "card" for me. courtesy of gil and kaori. can always depend on them for these kind of things. lol. i should scan it and put it up! they also gave me this cute pig that plays music and can move its head. but it has no eyes and mouth. lol.
anyway so lunch was goodie goodie! then i went to vivo and shopped! gosh, bought 3 pieces of clothing there. how exciting.
then met up with him at around 3:15pm, which was earlier then expected. walked around, got me a present and a slice of cake(which i was too full to eat). bummed around and tried to get tix for ocean's 13 in vivo, but timings weren't good. so we went to clarke quay to bum around (hahaha). then we went to plaza sing! managed to get tix for oceans. the show was not bad, but i preferred oceans 12. yet again, ocean's 12 was a bit on the complicated side. guess 13's about simplicity. and i heart george clooney + brad pitt. :)
went to cafe cartel for dinner, gosh they serve such HUGE portions. he sent me home after that.
thanks everyone for the smses, the calls, the tags! really appreciate it :). thanks veron for the call! didn't expect you to call from toronto! and sua too! help me thank your section mates too(that's what they are right?) that's the nice thing about army boys. always happy to join in the birthday wishing hahaha.
oh i got punked by eric heah and sufyan. URGHHHH. those two boys. that was really highly unexpected hahaha. suf made his sis call me (i didn't know who was she then), and she went like "hi, is this hui lin? you have a voice msg for you." and proceeded to play this sound clip of some male singing happy birthday to me. at the end of the song, the guy said " hi hui lin. how are you? hope you've had a great day. do you know who's this? this is me. wuzun. the one and only. as promised. take care." i could hear suf's sis giggle in the background at the end. then she went "thank you!" and put down the phone. WTH.
then later, suf called. he told me that that was his sis. and he asked me to guess who was that guy. i guessed eric (wrong ans) and choon heng (still wrong ans) and then finally aravin (yesss!!). WTH. ARAVIN??? ARAVIN = WUZUN. no no no. this can't be happening....>!!!!
so i was like in shock. luckily The BF was with me then. so yar. damage control done. hahaha. then when i went home, eric called me and told me that suf told him abt it. on hindsight, that makes suf a real big mouth, which he usually isnt. so hmm. ahhaha. then i went online and chatted with suf and eric. i just couldnt believe that aravin's wuzun. yada yada yada. then finally, at the climax (there's always a climax somehow), suf said that eric's wuzun! then eric went "you got punked!" WAAAHHHH. WHAT THE *TOOT*!!!
hahaha. was a really funny thing. i still have the sound clip. i'm so so so amused. and eric was using his accent and trying to sound mysterious and sexy and what not. HAHAHAHA. memorable.
so anyway, that's in summary of my bday! oh, oh, let me post the photos i took!
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At Thai Express:
that's rachel looking really excited like a typical auntie who has to light up a candle for her kid's bday cake. hahaha. (gil and kaori, shhhhhhh)
wanna fight?
wheeeee :)!!
"can i blow already??"
*wishes*
the kawaii era. kaori, me, gil. oh look, gil's not wearing her blue shirt :)!
me and auntie rachel and my cake and my present and the rabbit fingers.
"foooooddd...!!" ok i wanted to laugh. gil was laughing, or grinning at least. kaori's THE PRO.
i look like i've something that smells really unpleasant under my nose. or something like that. ok copied that from gil, from harry potter.
"NOBODY STANDS BETWEEN ME AND MY FOOODDD!!!"
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The Boyfriend. ('nuff said ;))
PUNK.
ok yar yar, i'm always acting cute... :p
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Tags:
jw: OOO ur working there?? how exciting!! ok if all goes well, i'd be your latest colleague ;))!! how's the training?
fs: FS!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! long time no see!! your hiatus was really long. and of course you are not an it. you are a he! or simply, FS :). how have u been?
zp: thanks babe :)! hope life's been great for u!!
wuzun: ...*growls*
wuzun's sidekick: ....*growls more*. hahahhaa
andre: hahaha yep! thanks :)! your's in june too right, if my memory didn't fail me? happy belated bday to u too!!
jc: thanks dude :)!
and oh, i just watched 200 Pounds Beauty on youtube! it's real good! i liked it at least. love the songs. marriaaaaa.........~~~
if you wanna watch, you can go to my playlist, i've it all up there in order. my username's linteoh :).
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ok! let's talk abt my bday! :)
ytd was my bday, it was great. not particularly exciting or anything, but having great company and minor surprises here and there. had a great time :).
went to meet up with my ex-colleagues for lunch.went to thai express at tiong bahru. they drew this really cute "card" for me. courtesy of gil and kaori. can always depend on them for these kind of things. lol. i should scan it and put it up! they also gave me this cute pig that plays music and can move its head. but it has no eyes and mouth. lol.
anyway so lunch was goodie goodie! then i went to vivo and shopped! gosh, bought 3 pieces of clothing there. how exciting.
then met up with him at around 3:15pm, which was earlier then expected. walked around, got me a present and a slice of cake(which i was too full to eat). bummed around and tried to get tix for ocean's 13 in vivo, but timings weren't good. so we went to clarke quay to bum around (hahaha). then we went to plaza sing! managed to get tix for oceans. the show was not bad, but i preferred oceans 12. yet again, ocean's 12 was a bit on the complicated side. guess 13's about simplicity. and i heart george clooney + brad pitt. :)
went to cafe cartel for dinner, gosh they serve such HUGE portions. he sent me home after that.
thanks everyone for the smses, the calls, the tags! really appreciate it :). thanks veron for the call! didn't expect you to call from toronto! and sua too! help me thank your section mates too(that's what they are right?) that's the nice thing about army boys. always happy to join in the birthday wishing hahaha.
oh i got punked by eric heah and sufyan. URGHHHH. those two boys. that was really highly unexpected hahaha. suf made his sis call me (i didn't know who was she then), and she went like "hi, is this hui lin? you have a voice msg for you." and proceeded to play this sound clip of some male singing happy birthday to me. at the end of the song, the guy said " hi hui lin. how are you? hope you've had a great day. do you know who's this? this is me. wuzun. the one and only. as promised. take care." i could hear suf's sis giggle in the background at the end. then she went "thank you!" and put down the phone. WTH.
then later, suf called. he told me that that was his sis. and he asked me to guess who was that guy. i guessed eric (wrong ans) and choon heng (still wrong ans) and then finally aravin (yesss!!). WTH. ARAVIN??? ARAVIN = WUZUN. no no no. this can't be happening....>!!!!
so i was like in shock. luckily The BF was with me then. so yar. damage control done. hahaha. then when i went home, eric called me and told me that suf told him abt it. on hindsight, that makes suf a real big mouth, which he usually isnt. so hmm. ahhaha. then i went online and chatted with suf and eric. i just couldnt believe that aravin's wuzun. yada yada yada. then finally, at the climax (there's always a climax somehow), suf said that eric's wuzun! then eric went "you got punked!" WAAAHHHH. WHAT THE *TOOT*!!!
hahaha. was a really funny thing. i still have the sound clip. i'm so so so amused. and eric was using his accent and trying to sound mysterious and sexy and what not. HAHAHAHA. memorable.
so anyway, that's in summary of my bday! oh, oh, let me post the photos i took!
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At Thai Express:
that's rachel looking really excited like a typical auntie who has to light up a candle for her kid's bday cake. hahaha. (gil and kaori, shhhhhhh)
wanna fight?
wheeeee :)!!
"can i blow already??"
*wishes*
the kawaii era. kaori, me, gil. oh look, gil's not wearing her blue shirt :)!
me and auntie rachel and my cake and my present and the rabbit fingers.
"foooooddd...!!" ok i wanted to laugh. gil was laughing, or grinning at least. kaori's THE PRO.
i look like i've something that smells really unpleasant under my nose. or something like that. ok copied that from gil, from harry potter.
"NOBODY STANDS BETWEEN ME AND MY FOOODDD!!!"
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The Boyfriend. ('nuff said ;))
PUNK.
ok yar yar, i'm always acting cute... :p
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Tags:
jw: OOO ur working there?? how exciting!! ok if all goes well, i'd be your latest colleague ;))!! how's the training?
fs: FS!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! long time no see!! your hiatus was really long. and of course you are not an it. you are a he! or simply, FS :). how have u been?
zp: thanks babe :)! hope life's been great for u!!
wuzun: ...*growls*
wuzun's sidekick: ....*growls more*. hahahhaa
andre: hahaha yep! thanks :)! your's in june too right, if my memory didn't fail me? happy belated bday to u too!!
jc: thanks dude :)!
update!! first up on.. meditation
YO HUMANS!
i'm back! ok i shld have updated a long time ago but i was too lazy soo... hahaha. first i shall talk about my meditation retreat!
it ended on 6 June. it was tough, especially for me, a first time beginner. whoaa. let me copy and paste the schedule for you (excluding the first and last day)
plus, we had to take the 8 precepts and maintain noble silence (basically no talking), and go vegetarian.
anyway the meditation itself was ok lar.i guess it's a good start, plant a seed, and may it grow.
during the retreat i couldnt really tell if anything was different, but what was really interesting was to see how your perception changed after meditation
1) on the last day, the moment we (parents+me) went into the car to go home and we started talking, we started getting irritated with one another! gosh, noble silence is real important, allows a lot of peace and harmony.
2) when i got home (4pm), i wasn't really hungry? so i drank a cup of milo. and then after that, whatever i ate, i knew it was out of greed. i didn't have to eat dinner. but the more u eat, the more hungry you seem to get. real pure greed. feeds on itself. and your stomach doesn't feel good. so the 6th precept is good!
3) i was watching So You Think You Can Dance. and i felt so so so sad at the end of the show. because the host told the audience to stay tune to the next episode to watch the contestants fight it out. and i was thinking, gosh, this world is so sad! we have programmes that encourage fighting and disharmony. and the best part was there were audience to watch it, and they were cheering so happily about it! people were happy watching others fighting and crying! gosh. and most of our variety shows involve fighting in some way, and the movies we watch tend to have violence and sex and unhappiness. sigh.
4) you get tired very very easily. even though i didn't do much when i got home, i just went to watch tv, i got SO TIRED and SO DRAINED. during the retreat i had to walk around, stay awake and meditate, and no, i was always feeling alert. this world is moving too fast lar. it's too noisy. and you realise there are many redundant distractions around us(like tv)
5) the next day when i wore my contacts, i realised that my eyesight improved!! omg. it's usually blur and i can;t see things clearly, but that day it was super clear and sharp. it's either cuz of the meditation, or cuz of not wearing contacts for 6 days. hahaha
ok those are the main difference that i noticed. of course, i've inducted myself back into the rat race. super not peaceful and restless now. one more thing, i finally feel guilty when i eat meat. hahaha.
i'm back! ok i shld have updated a long time ago but i was too lazy soo... hahaha. first i shall talk about my meditation retreat!
it ended on 6 June. it was tough, especially for me, a first time beginner. whoaa. let me copy and paste the schedule for you (excluding the first and last day)
| 4:30-5:00 | am | Rising/Walking Meditation 起身/行禅 |
| 5:00-6:30 | am | Group Sitting 集体坐禅 |
| 6:30-7:30 | am | Breakfast 早餐 Area Cleaning 打扫 |
| 7:30-8:00 | am | Walking Meditation 行禅 |
| 8:00-9:30 | am | Group Sitting 集体坐禅 |
| 9:30-10:00 | am | Walking Meditation/Interview 行禅/小参 |
| 10:00-11:00 | am | Group Sitting 集体坐禅 |
| 11:00-12:00 | am | Lunch 午餐 |
| 12:00-2:00 | pm | Rest/Bathing休息/冲凉时间 |
| 2:00-3:30 | pm | Group Sitting 集体坐禅 |
| 3:30-4:00 | pm | Walking Meditation/Interview 行禅/小参 |
| 4:00-5:30 | pm | Sitting Meditation 坐禅 |
| 5:30-7:15 | pm | Bathing /Refreshment冲凉/茶点 |
| 7:15 | pm | Puja 颂经 |
| 7:30-9:00 | pm | Group Sitting 集体坐禅3rd June Dhamma Talk 佛法开示2nd, 5th June CD Recording 4th June |
| 9:00 | pm | Lights off 熄灯 |
plus, we had to take the 8 precepts and maintain noble silence (basically no talking), and go vegetarian.
The 8 precepts are:
1st: Abstaining from killing living creatures.
2nd: Abstaining from taking what is not given.
3rd: Abstaining from all sexual conduct.
4th: Abstaining from wrong speech.
5th: Abstaining from intoxicants.
6th: Abstaining from eating after noon.
7th: Abstaining from dancing, singing, worldly entertainment; adorning oneself with
8th: Abstaining from using high or luxurious seats & beds.
anyway the meditation itself was ok lar.i guess it's a good start, plant a seed, and may it grow.
during the retreat i couldnt really tell if anything was different, but what was really interesting was to see how your perception changed after meditation
1) on the last day, the moment we (parents+me) went into the car to go home and we started talking, we started getting irritated with one another! gosh, noble silence is real important, allows a lot of peace and harmony.
2) when i got home (4pm), i wasn't really hungry? so i drank a cup of milo. and then after that, whatever i ate, i knew it was out of greed. i didn't have to eat dinner. but the more u eat, the more hungry you seem to get. real pure greed. feeds on itself. and your stomach doesn't feel good. so the 6th precept is good!
3) i was watching So You Think You Can Dance. and i felt so so so sad at the end of the show. because the host told the audience to stay tune to the next episode to watch the contestants fight it out. and i was thinking, gosh, this world is so sad! we have programmes that encourage fighting and disharmony. and the best part was there were audience to watch it, and they were cheering so happily about it! people were happy watching others fighting and crying! gosh. and most of our variety shows involve fighting in some way, and the movies we watch tend to have violence and sex and unhappiness. sigh.
4) you get tired very very easily. even though i didn't do much when i got home, i just went to watch tv, i got SO TIRED and SO DRAINED. during the retreat i had to walk around, stay awake and meditate, and no, i was always feeling alert. this world is moving too fast lar. it's too noisy. and you realise there are many redundant distractions around us(like tv)
5) the next day when i wore my contacts, i realised that my eyesight improved!! omg. it's usually blur and i can;t see things clearly, but that day it was super clear and sharp. it's either cuz of the meditation, or cuz of not wearing contacts for 6 days. hahaha
ok those are the main difference that i noticed. of course, i've inducted myself back into the rat race. super not peaceful and restless now. one more thing, i finally feel guilty when i eat meat. hahaha.
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