panic attacks // bogus monks

gaaahh i haven't been able to sleep well recently. first, i take a long time to get to sleep. then i wake up easily in between. and when i finally get out of bed in the morning (usually around 11am), i feel hardly rested. *growls*

it's called thinking too much about the future! i keep on thinking about australia, school.. gaah. feeling excited and apprehensive. gosh there's so many things in my small head. studies, tuition fees, lodging, car, friends, him, family, money money money... etc. it's so unnerving.

if i'm going to stay this worried and anxious till i leave, wah. cannot take it lar.

i think i have too much free time. i need to work. but anyway, i'll try to find a job and start work in august. think july's rather packed for me. then hopefully i'll work for 4 months. then i have december free to go over and suss out melbourne!

oh yess, i need to get a laptop. ok shall worry about that later. think i shall write that at the side of my blog so i'll remember.


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ytd there was an article in the newspaper about bogus monks. gosh, those "monks" really piss me off.

by right monks aren't supposed to even handle money. they should have a helper(dunno what they call them) with them to handle their money, even for transport. their alms bowl is to collect food only, not money.

i think these fake monks will disappear for a while before coming back now. but if they do come back.. *ROARRRSSS!!*

if i happen to come across one of them while i'm eating, i'll politely call them over, ask them to empty their alms bowl, and clean the bowl for them. then i'll very generously give them my food, and add extra gravy or soup into it(just make it as wet as possible). and if they dare to give me a look that does not show that they are grateful, i'll tell them to get lost before i call the police. URGHHHHHHH. SO ANGRRRYYY.

*slaps all of them*. how dare they spoil the name of the sangha, and abuse people's kindness and generosity?!! *ROARS IN FURY AGAIN*

ok nvm. they will reap what they sow. good luck to them.



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jw: hahaha. guess that's how i'm like when i need to rant. glad that you were entertained! ;)

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