Inspiration: The Path

The Five Precepts

1. Panatipata veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami

I undertake the precept to refrain from destroying living creatures.

2. Adinnadana veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami

I undertake the precept to refrain from taking that which is not given.

3. Kamesu micchacara veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami

I undertake the precept to refrain from sexual misconduct.

4. Musavada veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami

I undertake the precept to refrain from incorrect speech.

5. Suramerayamajja pamadatthana veramani sikkhapadam samadiyami

I undertake the precept to refrain from intoxicating drinks and drugs which lead to carelessness.

Metta Sutta

This is what should be done
By one who is skilled in goodness,
And who knows the path of peace:

Let them be able and upright,
Straightforward and gentle in speech.
Humble and not conceited,
Contented and easily satisfied.
Unburdened with duties and frugal in their ways.
Peaceful and calm, and wise and skillful,
Not proud and demanding in nature.

Let them not do the slightest thing
That the wise would later reprove.

Wishing: In gladness and in safety,
May all beings be happy.
Whatever living beings there may be;
Whether they are weak or strong, omitting none,
The great or the mighty, medium, short or small,
The seen and the unseen,
Those living near and far away,
Those born and to-be-born,
May all beings be happy!

Let none deceive another,
Or despise any being in any state.
Let none through anger or ill-will
Wish harm upon another.

Even as a mother protects with her life
Her child, her only child,
So with a boundless heart
Should one cherish all living beings:
Radiating kindness over the entire world
Spreading upwards to the skies,
And downwards to the depths;
Outwards and unbounded,
Freed from hatred and ill-will.

Whether standing or walking, seated or lying down
Free from drowsiness,
One should sustain this recollection.

This is said to be the sublime abiding.
By not holding to fixed views,
The pure-hearted one, having clarity of vision,
Being freed from all sense desires,
Is not born again into this world.

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sudden inspiration to search on the chants. i broke the 4th precept. sigh. i was aware of it when i did it. now on hindsight i wonder if by speaking the truth, would the repercussions have been less? for sure my guilt would have been much less.

i'm feeling inspired to start practising. maybe i should go poh ern shih more often, not just on saturdays. and use the time to practise, right intention.


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The Noble Eightfold Path

• Wisdom (paññā)

1. Right view

2. Right intention

• Ethical conduct (sīla)

3. Right speech

4. Right action

5. Right livelihood

• Mental discipline (samādhi)

6. Right effort

7. Right mindfulness

8. Right concentration

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may posting this up serve as a reminder to me. remember, remember.

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ok i'll reply to tags when i'm less tired. my physical body is unrested.

May all beings be well and happy!

emo me.

image taken from deviant art, by 7th Heaven Creative.



i want to look like that... and feel like that. joy and happiness.

when i think of the separation that is to come... gah. i don't know how am i going to deal with it. logic and rationality are gone from me, only my heart is working, and it's suffering. i know it's to do with labels and clinging, attachment. but knowing what it is doesn't mean i truly understand it.

doesn't help that my mom likes to pretend and act dumb. even though i don't usually admit this, my mom is an important pillar of support for me. now with one pillar gone...

i see one major major problem for the future though. it's the inability to compromise regarding that issue!! BAAH. and it's what i've ALWAYS wanted. as i grow up i begin to understand the weight and responsibility that comes with it, but i still want it! and some things you want, i can't give in. not that i don't want to, but hey, i'm born like this. can't provide that. haha. unless you want me to have an early death!

aiyar, on the big scale, this is considered kachang butih. in other words, very small issue. but aiyar. being a FEMALE, (or being HUI LIN), i just think too much. think too far ahead as well. live in the present moment!!


ok the stupid ssdc site is not working properly. i'm getting super, super irritated and pissed off. bitter icing on the yucky tasting cake. fantastic.


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. *screams*

My Sassy Girl / Week's updates / Things to do

i just watched My Sassy Girl. bought the vcd yesterday.

AHHH it's SO SO SO NICE. at first i was like wth, especially for the first half of the movie. but it was quite funny lar. then when the ending came, suddenly everything made sense. and wow, it links back to the beginning, and it's so sweet. *FAINTS*. and as usual, i cried. HAHAHA. but not much! considerably a lot less than usual. well done, hui lin :)!

and the girl's SO PRETTY. the guy's... well. the nerdy type. hahahaha.

i'm hooked onto the soundtrack (I Believe).

what's nice about this movie that it makes you think that it might be a true story. but well, after much research (hahaha this is what happily unemployed people do with their time), this movie is inspired from a true story. so baseline is, it's not real lar.


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ok! updates on my life... aren't you curious about what happily unemployed people do? okie let's do this in an organised fashion.


15 June, Fri:
morning - had final theory prac.
evening - cold rock's opening and lena+genia's bday celebration!

16 June, Sat:
3:30pm - had a bf youth + bedside support group bbq at east coast! so.. yum yum. watched sandcastle building for the first time!
11:45pm - went to cold rock for ice cream immediately after the bbq. lol.

17 June, Sun:
whole day - did nothing. which means i was a total sloth, woke up late, ate and watched tv. and also thought too much and worried unnecessarily about things that don't need to be worried about.

18 June, Mon:
morning - had my final theory trial test, and i passed! which is quite amazing given the amount i've studied, or the lack of it. btw, i have to pass a trial test before i am qualified to take the REAL final theory test. grr.
evening - had a belated bday dinner with ade, shu, pam! thanks babes :)!

19 June, Tues:
evening - driving session. boo.
night - dinner with him! and i was late again. oopsie :p.

20 June, Wed:
afternoon - bf meeting, to discuss about moonlight. after it was over, i bummed around in marina sq and esplanade, till he finished his other meeting.
night - STINGRAY DINNER at CHOMP CHOMP!! with gilly and kaori :)! chompchompchomp. thought we weren't full at first, but it turned out to be pure greed.

21 June, Thurs (TODAY):
went for monash interview at 12:30pm. how nerve wrecking! turns out that qi en went for it as well. hahaha she vry cute lar. she found out that i was going through her kay poh methods. amazing. wish her all the best! :) oh, oh, and i watched My Sassy Girl!

22 June, Fri (TOMORROW):
ok given what a sloth i am, i shall blog in advance since i'm already here, HAHA. tmr i'll wake up late, slack and watch tv (i'm clairvoyant... ohmmm...). then i'll be going out for dinner with lena and my 2nd bro! ok anything more then this i can't promise you. lalala :)


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ok it's high time to list the things to do. i'm just wasting my life away at this rate!


THINGS TO DO:
1) Clean up my room.
2) Upload photos and send photos. (genia+lena's bday, kaori+gil)
3) Spend my $20 Taka voucher and $60 Borders voucher (whoopee!)
4) Medical Checkup
5) SMU Matriculation
6a) Send photos for printing
6b) Buy photo album
6c) Paste photos into album/scrapbook
7) Study final theory on the day of the test (18 July)
8) Plan and settle driving sessions
9) Write notes for driving
10) [to be continued... *cues ominous music*]


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Tags:

ning: HAHAHA. great consolation. thanks! (no i'm not being sarcastic here even though it might sound sarcastic, please trust me!!) and anyway, u would be going in TWO years later! boo :(

veron: thanks babe! yar la it'll be fine. i just need time :). hope canada's nice to u!

jw: hey girl! it was a pleasant surprise to see you! because genia said you weren't be there at that night. so yar. wish we could talk more! see you around (if i decide to grow my fats and visit cold rock hahaha) take care! :)

cold rock!

hey guys! my friend's ice cream shop is finally opening today:)!! come and check it out. there's complimentary sample creations from 7pm-9pm today! it's at holland village, next to spizza. here's the poster:






























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reply to tags:


K: yes, all hail ur photography skills lol! aiyar quite unglam. but i liked it somehow. hahaha

eric: thanks dude :). yea. one step at a time. xinyi got into business is it??

sua: ahhh sua.. thing is, i can't think of anything else that i like other than medicine :/. (no i dont like dentistry or pharmacy or nursing so naaahh) so i guess i went for practicality? and aiyar, i guess i'd like business, after a while. maybe after a long while. and i'd go for med, if overseas would take me. but thanks anyway, got ur point :).

uni blues

i just got the email from SMU regarding my matriculation.

............. :(


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. this is SO SAD. ok i shouldn't be saying this but AHHHHHHHH. i need to let this out, after weeks of trying to be positive.

i DON'T WANT to go to smu because i don't want to do business! what i really, really want is to do medicine! GAAAHH.

i keep trying to tell myself that i'm crazily lucky to go to smu and to take a double degree! ok let's admit, i'm so unprepared to go there. i mean, i don't even know what am i going to study. i totally have no ideas what kind of modules you have to take, and how many years i have to study for! i don't know how much am i to pay per year. i don't know anything, and everything.

now you know how ready i am to enter smu.

my heart sank when i got the email about the matriculation. so being a bit more concerned about my future, i went to check out the website provided. the more i read, the worse i felt. god, there's going to be a camp. ARGHHHH. this is one of the few times that i don't feel a teeny weeny bit of excitement when it comes to camps. actually, this is the only time! unless my memory failed me once again, which tends to happen rather frequently.

great. and i have to pay thousands of bucks for a course i don't want to take. GAAAHH.

and i have to go for stupid health screenings, go for the matriculation, go for orientation, go for blah blah blah. in summary? things i don't want to go for because i don't want to be there.

ok i'm behaving like a spoilt brat. if you guys are put off by me, especially those who are entering smu, i'm sorry. it's not because i think that being a doctor is much more prestigious than being in business. but it's simply because i WANT to be a doctor. that's what i've always wanted to be. and honestly, i think being in business requires more brains, a lot more interpersonal skills. sure, having good social skills is a plus point in every occupation, but i feel it's more essential in business. if you can't really speak well as a doctor, u wont die, if you can give correct diagnosis and give the correct solution to the problem, you are safe! perhaps you wont be very popular, then just don't go private lar! GAAAAHHH.

*rant rant rant rant rant*

*GRUMBLES*

and i've not gotten any replies from the other 3 aust unis. this sucks. maybe i should be positive, no news is good news! but i need to get on with life. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. whatever, anything.

anything, whatever.


*pulls hair*

for now, i'll just try to pretend that i didn't receive that email. for as long as possible? bwaaah :(.


can't things ever, ever go right?


.....sigh.

my birthday (11 june:)) + photos

b4 i start, i have to announce something. i'm stuck on that stupid gatsby song where takuya kimura looks so ugly and gay(not in the jolly way). and all thanks to veron after she posted it up onto her blog and i couldn't resist listening to it more and more. ughhh.

and oh, i just watched 200 Pounds Beauty on youtube! it's real good! i liked it at least. love the songs. marriaaaaa.........~~~

if you wanna watch, you can go to my playlist, i've it all up there in order. my username's linteoh :).


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ok! let's talk abt my bday! :)

ytd was my bday, it was great. not particularly exciting or anything, but having great company and minor surprises here and there. had a great time :).

went to meet up with my ex-colleagues for lunch.went to thai express at tiong bahru. they drew this really cute "card" for me. courtesy of gil and kaori. can always depend on them for these kind of things. lol. i should scan it and put it up! they also gave me this cute pig that plays music and can move its head. but it has no eyes and mouth. lol.

anyway so lunch was goodie goodie! then i went to vivo and shopped! gosh, bought 3 pieces of clothing there. how exciting.

then met up with him at around 3:15pm, which was earlier then expected. walked around, got me a present and a slice of cake(which i was too full to eat). bummed around and tried to get tix for ocean's 13 in vivo, but timings weren't good. so we went to clarke quay to bum around (hahaha). then we went to plaza sing! managed to get tix for oceans. the show was not bad, but i preferred oceans 12. yet again, ocean's 12 was a bit on the complicated side. guess 13's about simplicity. and i heart george clooney + brad pitt. :)

went to cafe cartel for dinner, gosh they serve such HUGE portions. he sent me home after that.

thanks everyone for the smses, the calls, the tags! really appreciate it :). thanks veron for the call! didn't expect you to call from toronto! and sua too! help me thank your section mates too(that's what they are right?) that's the nice thing about army boys. always happy to join in the birthday wishing hahaha.

oh i got punked by eric heah and sufyan. URGHHHH. those two boys. that was really highly unexpected hahaha. suf made his sis call me (i didn't know who was she then), and she went like "hi, is this hui lin? you have a voice msg for you." and proceeded to play this sound clip of some male singing happy birthday to me. at the end of the song, the guy said " hi hui lin. how are you? hope you've had a great day. do you know who's this? this is me. wuzun. the one and only. as promised. take care." i could hear suf's sis giggle in the background at the end. then she went "thank you!" and put down the phone. WTH.

then later, suf called. he told me that that was his sis. and he asked me to guess who was that guy. i guessed eric (wrong ans) and choon heng (still wrong ans) and then finally aravin (yesss!!). WTH. ARAVIN??? ARAVIN = WUZUN. no no no. this can't be happening....>!!!!

so i was like in shock. luckily The BF was with me then. so yar. damage control done. hahaha. then when i went home, eric called me and told me that suf told him abt it. on hindsight, that makes suf a real big mouth, which he usually isnt. so hmm. ahhaha. then i went online and chatted with suf and eric. i just couldnt believe that aravin's wuzun. yada yada yada. then finally, at the climax (there's always a climax somehow), suf said that eric's wuzun! then eric went "you got punked!" WAAAHHHH. WHAT THE *TOOT*!!!

hahaha. was a really funny thing. i still have the sound clip. i'm so so so amused. and eric was using his accent and trying to sound mysterious and sexy and what not. HAHAHAHA. memorable.

so anyway, that's in summary of my bday! oh, oh, let me post the photos i took!


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At Thai Express:



















that's rachel looking really excited like a typical auntie who has to light up a candle for her kid's bday cake. hahaha. (gil and kaori, shhhhhhh)





















wanna fight?






















wheeeee :)!!























"can i blow already??"






















*wishes*





















the kawaii era. kaori, me, gil. oh look, gil's not wearing her blue shirt :)!





















me and auntie rachel and my cake and my present and the rabbit fingers.





















"foooooddd...!!" ok i wanted to laugh. gil was laughing, or grinning at least. kaori's THE PRO.




















i look like i've something that smells really unpleasant under my nose. or something like that. ok copied that from gil, from harry potter.





















































"NOBODY STANDS BETWEEN ME AND MY FOOODDD!!!"



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The Boyfriend. ('nuff said ;))


































PUNK.


















ok yar yar, i'm always acting cute... :p



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Tags:

jw: OOO ur working there?? how exciting!! ok if all goes well, i'd be your latest colleague ;))!! how's the training?

fs: FS!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! long time no see!! your hiatus was really long. and of course you are not an it. you are a he! or simply, FS :). how have u been?

zp: thanks babe :)! hope life's been great for u!!

wuzun: ...*growls*

wuzun's sidekick: ....*growls more*. hahahhaa

andre: hahaha yep! thanks :)! your's in june too right, if my memory didn't fail me? happy belated bday to u too!!

jc: thanks dude :)!

update!! first up on.. meditation

YO HUMANS!

i'm back! ok i shld have updated a long time ago but i was too lazy soo... hahaha. first i shall talk about my meditation retreat!

it ended on 6 June. it was tough, especially for me, a first time beginner. whoaa. let me copy and paste the schedule for you (excluding the first and last day)

4:30-5:00	am	Rising/Walking Meditation 起身/行禅
5:00-6:30	am	Group Sitting 集体坐禅
6:30-7:30	am	Breakfast 早餐 Area Cleaning 打扫
7:30-8:00	am	Walking Meditation 行禅
8:00-9:30	am	Group Sitting 集体坐禅
9:30-10:00	am	Walking Meditation/Interview 行禅/小参
10:00-11:00	am	Group Sitting 集体坐禅
11:00-12:00	am	Lunch 午餐
12:00-2:00	pm	Rest/Bathing休息/冲凉时间
2:00-3:30	pm	Group Sitting 集体坐禅
3:30-4:00	pm	Walking Meditation/Interview 行禅/小参
4:00-5:30	pm	Sitting Meditation 坐禅
5:30-7:15	pm	Bathing /Refreshment冲凉/茶点
7:15	pm	Puja 颂经
7:30-9:00	pm	Group Sitting 集体坐禅3rd June Dhamma Talk 佛法开示2nd, 5th June CD Recording 4th June
9:00	pm	Lights off 熄灯

plus, we had to take the 8 precepts and maintain noble silence (basically no talking), and go vegetarian.

The 8 precepts are:
1^st: Abstaining from killing living creatures.
2^nd: Abstaining from taking what is not given.
3^rd: Abstaining from all sexual conduct.
4^th: Abstaining from wrong speech.
5^th: Abstaining from intoxicants.
6^th: Abstaining from eating after noon.
7^th: Abstaining from dancing, singing, worldly entertainment; adorning oneself with garlands, perfumes, or cosmetics.
8^th: Abstaining from using high or luxurious seats & beds.

anyway the meditation itself was ok lar.i guess it's a good start, plant a seed, and may it grow.

during the retreat i couldnt really tell if anything was different, but what was really interesting was to see how your perception changed after meditation

1) on the last day, the moment we (parents+me) went into the car to go home and we started talking, we started getting irritated with one another! gosh, noble silence is real important, allows a lot of peace and harmony.

2) when i got home (4pm), i wasn't really hungry? so i drank a cup of milo. and then after that, whatever i ate, i knew it was out of greed. i didn't have to eat dinner. but the more u eat, the more hungry you seem to get. real pure greed. feeds on itself. and your stomach doesn't feel good. so the 6th precept is good!

3) i was watching So You Think You Can Dance. and i felt so so so sad at the end of the show. because the host told the audience to stay tune to the next episode to watch the contestants fight it out. and i was thinking, gosh, this world is so sad! we have programmes that encourage fighting and disharmony. and the best part was there were audience to watch it, and they were cheering so happily about it! people were happy watching others fighting and crying! gosh. and most of our variety shows involve fighting in some way, and the movies we watch tend to have violence and sex and unhappiness. sigh.

4) you get tired very very easily. even though i didn't do much when i got home, i just went to watch tv, i got SO TIRED and SO DRAINED. during the retreat i had to walk around, stay awake and meditate, and no, i was always feeling alert. this world is moving too fast lar. it's too noisy. and you realise there are many redundant distractions around us(like tv)

5) the next day when i wore my contacts, i realised that my eyesight improved!! omg. it's usually blur and i can;t see things clearly, but that day it was super clear and sharp. it's either cuz of the meditation, or cuz of not wearing contacts for 6 days. hahaha

ok those are the main difference that i noticed. of course, i've inducted myself back into the rat race. super not peaceful and restless now. one more thing, i finally feel guilty when i eat meat. hahaha.

i'm leaving! + photos

hey everyone!!

i'm leaving today for a meditation retreat in poh ern shih temple, singapore. will be back on the 6th June, evening. so yep, will be cut off from the world. how exciting! think i'd die though. cuz it's a strict retreat and yea. it'll be tough. may i survive and not give up! see you guys when i get back :)!

wednesday was my last day of work. hope i didn't leave too many loose strings hanging. gah, forgot to return my name tag. this sucks. all the best kaori, gil and rachel!! oh, i'm so tempted to work for may wern in her ice cream shop called Cold Rock! it'll be so exciting! it'll be in holland village, next to spizza, opening on 15 june. wheeee :).

i'm finally done with uploading my photos. go to this place: http://pics.livejournal.com/linteoh/

i added a few more photos in and for <@ Work :)>. plus two more galleries where the next 2 days of the passage of time photos are kept.

yesterday was vesak day. oh it's the best vesak day i've ever had. really enjoyed myself. love the company. and went to watch Shrek 3! oh, it's really good! better than pirates of the carribean. happy happy :).

the impending separation is still not registered in my head. oh well.

oh here are the photos i took when i went for Circle of Trust outing!



















christine, ruth, xiaohui




















the above + veron





















me, jiali, nuans




















all of us :)!




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Tags:

Suf: nah, dont wanna appeal. very tired of singapore. hahaha. have a strong dislike for nus now :p. ok i'm just being sour grapes, haha!

passerby: haha! ok that's kind of confusing, you think you know me, but you dont. anyway aiyar dunno la. business woman. er. *scratches head*. we will see. but thanks yar? :)

jw: thanks jw :)! ya will take rmb your advice.

wuzun: aiyar, dude can apply for both males and females laar. ok sorry, i'll refer to you as 'it' ok? hahaha :). ok jk. thanks dearie :).

anony: ok point taken. but just to clarify, i'm not looking down on njc. precisely because i don't think we are lousy, that's why i get so upset about the different treatment we get because of our name. i'm not ashamed to be an njcian. on the contrary, no matter how much i joke about my school, i'm proud to be one. but yea, thanks anyway for the comment. good to be happy with what you have :).

k: yar la yar la.. you are the nicest hc person around ok... hahahaha. hope work's alright :).

idiot: loL! thanks for protecting the sanctity of my tag board. i appreciate it :). and aiyar, life's as fulfilling as we want it to be!

eric: whoa you spammer. i've always doubt the quality of the malaysian's network. ok jk hee :). and aiyar upset for what, of course i wont call to talk to u what. it's expected that i made used of u to talk to nuans. ok jk hehehe :). i prefer medicine still, after asking myself properly. we'll see ya? but i've already accepted SMU biz. and yar those are nonya clothes. gee thanks for the compliment! *BLUSH* waahaahaaa ;p. you better dont say that i look ol... if not u die. hehh. how are u now anyway?