insomnia

had insomnia yesterday night. probably slept a bit in between. my mind was awake, my body was working on recycled adrenaline. very bad.

"woke up" before the alarm rang. my mind was still awake. decided that i really lack sleep when i saw a pair of bloodshot eyes belonging to a dishevelled girl staring back at me in the mirror.

didn't go to school, took a sleeping pill(my dad said it's a sleep adjuster or something though, not sleeping pill), and tried to go back to sleep. woke up after 2 hours of sleep, forced myself to sleep again. finally got out of bed at 11am.

sigh. i have this fear that i wont be able to sleep again tonight. if i cant, i'm going to watch tv till i sleep, or hell, i'd meditate just for the heck of it. if i'm truly desperate, maybe i might read bio, and imagine kph's voice in my head. maybe i'd knock out immediately. maybe ju oon's a better alternative. hmmx.

goodness gracious me. i'm spoiled for choices.

-rolls eyes-