Saturday, July 29, 2006
Einstein speaks
"Common sense is the collection of prejudices acquired by age eighteen."- Albert Einstein
"It would be possible to describe everything scientifically, but it would make no sense; it would be without meaning, as if you described a Beethoven symphony as a variation of wave pressure." -- Albert Einstein
"You cannot simultaneously prevent and prepare for war." --Albert Einstein (1879-1955)
"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle." --A. Einstein
Albert Einstein, when asked to describe radio, replied:"You see, wire telegraph is a kind of a very, very long cat. You pull his tail in New York and his head is meowing in Los Angeles. Do you understand this? And radio operates exactly the same way: you send signals here, they receive them there. The only difference is that there is no cat."
"Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former." --Albert Einstein
hahaha! he sure does have a sense of humour(for some of those quotes). maybe that's why he's so popular with women in his time, haha!
quotes taken from http://www.humboldt1.com/~gralsto/einstein/quotes.html
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goodness, i realised that i have a fetish for pretty boys. bishounen. baaahh. for example? su you peng, jimmy lin, mike he(sort of lar), Lee Joon-ki(actor in King and the Clown) etc. urgh. whyyy ooohhh whhyyyy.
-growls-...
Friday, July 28, 2006
New Blog Skin
wanted a bright and cheery blog actually. but couldn't find a nice one. so oh too bad. decided to settle for "cool".
oh today is a much better day. finally.
talked to 2 people that i love. broke down during one of the conversations. laughed like nuts in the other. bared my heart to both.
i'm feeling really much happier now. i have finally let go of this burden that has been kept in me for so long. i am ready to deal with it, with myself. bring it on :).
blessed, i am. i just need to learn to stop looking at that one crooked brick out of the other 99 perfectly layed bricks. it is a beautiful wall.
RAWWRRR!!!
oh dear, i just realised that i forgot my very good friend's birthday!!! and her birthday was in 7th July, like ohmigoodnessi'msodeadahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. so sorry! i tried to call her but she didn't pick up her phone. will try again tomorrow. bad me. baaaad me.
i wish that the bio department will be more flexible. sheesh. a bunch of old fogeys.
lalalalaaa. i can't wait for tomorrow. i want to study bio and chem!! lalalalaalaa! goodness, this is a good feeling hahaha.
i hope i don't get hooked onto a daily dose of chicken essence.
i pray that everyone's happy and contented :)!
Thursday, July 27, 2006
bleagh
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jg2fr9rKmZQ
anyway nowadays, i feel very anti blog. i dont feel like blogging because my thoughts are just so negative, and i'd love to blog if i can protect my entries.
sigh.
i hate my insecurities, my lack of courage, my flaws, my selfish thoughts.
hate it so much.
i have a regret. i made someone pay for something that i did wrong. but i know people don't see it that way.
sigh........................
Saturday, July 22, 2006
more youtube
http://youtube.com/watch?v=RnadsrpDslo
this is a light saber duel that's self directed. cool stuff, minus the first half(it's just plain walking)
http://youtube.com/watch?v=HYkcQQoXCaQ
another light saber fight
http://youtube.com/watch?v=GVpJ8ZG8aFE
another one. man they get better.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=LqEZvzYxROA
Friday, July 21, 2006
Community service day(wed)
my class was in charge of taking care of little kids. they are only 4 years old! -gushes-
there was this handsome little boy who's called Ace, and jun cheng was super attached to him. honestly, jun cheng has the "father" look!
here's a photo of Ace and I! but he was looking away :(.
i took care of this kid called Lancen(whatever the spelling). haha he's a super adorable kid with cute dimples. but he's super naughty. goodness, he keeps on running around and everything, very restless. it drained me just to watch him and keep him seated on my lap. in the photo below, i was grinning like a pig because i was like exasperated and yet relieved at the same time when i finally managed to get Lancen to take a photo. oh doesn't ms ling look so happy haha.
it's pretty interesting to notice that my classmates who have younger siblings or cousins are usually very comfortable with kids, while people like me(youngest/only child) tend to be at a lost when we were asked to entertain them. i have so much more to learn!
Ahhh... evidence of the ugly things that happen in class... :p
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
lazy day + coke&mentos
ok that was obviously a very lousy example.
we were supposed to have double bio, but our most beloved was ill today! hoho. the whole class was waiting outside the bio labs, hoping that our beloved was at home taking care of his health well, and we were just waiting for a teacher to confirm our freedom from the usual 100 minutes of pure agony.
then msfeng came and told us that we could join her class for the day. goodness. the moment she turned around and walked back towards her class, you should have seen us. the whole class immediately ran off together towards the canteen. this is what i call unity in adversity.
ooh, then we watched a live show by the boys! we went to the carpark drain near the PE department, equipped with a 1.5litre bottle of coke light, and a tube of mentos. fadhli dumped in almost the whole tube of mentos in, and WHOA! the coke from the bottle shot up into the air, higher than me by at least a head. goodness. the girls all shouted for an encore haha. girls are really easily satisfied :p.
go to youtube.com if you want to know what i mean by the coke and mentos thing. just type in "coke mentos". have fun!
Monday, July 17, 2006
grad night pub
man, i don't know what to feel about it.
Self-Contempt
I detest myself for thinking of certain things, making myself upset in the process. It's pretty senseless, really. There was no point in thinking in that way, and there was no reason to. It's just me, thinking too much, when I should be spending that kind of energy doing something much more useful and productive.
Only consolation was that that proved that I could act pretty well, considering that I only faltered in front of one person.
It is a matter of Pride. What an ugly word, when used in this context. How could I make something that is simply a combination of black strokes on white into something so loathsome?
I made it Ugly. I am Ugly.
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bio lecture was a waste of time. well, because i fell asleep haha. but i was super pissed off about how he was taking his own sweet time, when he himself already said that he was in a rush. urgh. and wasting time over "jokes". how truly humourous.
PE was great. because i finally PLAYED. i finally got a chance to really play. in my own terms, perhaps. managed to vent all of my frustration pretty well in that game.
ooh something really nice happened today! when i was waiting for my mom to come and pick me up from the school porch(outside the bookshop area), i spotted 2 squirrels! and boy, were they fascinating to watch. watched them for about... 10 minutes. absolutely lovely creatures. :) brightened my day after that impossibly sucky bio lecture.
...sigh.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
latest infatuation
i want to buy Tanya Chua's latest album
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ps: she was from St Nicks :D!!!!! lalalalalaa -does a victory dance-
Saturday, July 15, 2006
a window opens
regarding certain issues at least. hmm regarding what issues??
issues that i've made up my mind on. the reason why i can seem very wishy washy most of the time is because i haven't made up my mind on those issues. and i leave it open. anyone can influence my opinion easily.
but regarding issues that i've decided on, which happen to be very few, i'd go through with my decision even though i would have to grit my teeth through hell. cause and effect.
some might ask, why put yourself through the pain? when you see an alternative that might be better or glazed with honey? well. is it a question of accountability, or simply an issue of egocentricity?
i guess it's a combination of both for me. i've made my decision, what will others say when i change it again so easily? am i someone who cannot stand by her decisions? i want to be taken seriously. i want others to know that once i've decided on something, no one can change it. and even if it is a bad decision, if i have to suffer the consequences, i will not hide and try to escape. i will go through it with my face held up high. pride and dignity.
the only thing that i have to say about my decision this time round is that it was expressed in quite a crude way. and more thought could have been put into it. i did put thought into it, just that i could have spent a few days thinking about it before stating my stand. i guess it was an unfortunate mix of having the right people, feelings, past events, frustrations, and a clouded view of the future.
...or was it fortunate?
following through my decision, we will see how the sails of my ship will change with the winds 6 months later. but well, to be more pragmatic, inputing external factors, i'd say 1.5 years later. haha! it just gets longer everytime, doesn't it :)?
whatever it is, i just hope that i aint an old obaasan when everything's resolved. i have a limit to my youth ok! youth is important to me! AHH! heh heh heh
oooh but time can be bent! hmm. maybe i should go to outer space for 10 years and come back younger than all of my peers bwahahahahaaa. hey, then i can have a shot at all of those cute boys who are all younger than me now! man, i love theoratical physics! -cue evil laughter-
talking about physics, my brother borrowed A Briefer History of Time from the library. apparently it's easier to understand than A Brief History of Time, woohoo. i must read it. hmm maybe i should give myself some time everyday to read it. haaaahh.
oh anyway, i am seeing certain aspects of myself more often these days. and i detest those parts of me(no i'm not referring to the fats that stick out of my tummy area). and whenever i start behaving or thinking in that way... boy. i feel super ugly. i'm just so ugly. and i get so ashamed of myself. i must learn. to be a better person.
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man
Friday, July 14, 2006
我不难过
又站在你家的门口
我们重复沉默
这样子单方面的守候
还能多久
终于你开口向我诉说她有多温柔
虽然你还握着我的手
但我已不在你心中
我真的懂
你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有
陪在你身边
当你寂寞时候
别再看着我
说着你爱过
别太伤痛
我不难过
这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流
我也不懂
就让我走
让我开始享受自由
回忆很多
你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱
你比谁都懂
虽然寂寞
这会是我
最后的宽容
抱紧我
再抱紧我
这一份感动
请你让我留在胸口
别再说是你的错
爱到了尽头
是非对错
就让它随风
忘了所有
过得比你快活
不要再说
或许这是最好的结果
现在分手
总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手
离开你左右
我向前走
这会是我
真正的解脱
i fear the day when i have to sing this song...
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
如果没有你
hey我真的好想你
现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里
hey我真的好想你
太多的情绪没适当的表情
最想说的话我应该从何说起
最想说的话我该从何说起
你是否也像我一样在想你
如果没有你
没有过去我不会有伤心
但是有如果还是要爱你
如果没有你
我在哪里又有什么可惜
反正一切来不及
反正没有了自已
hey我真的好想你
不知道你现在到底在哪里
你是否也像我一样在想你
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...it's like going to Rome and speaking mandarin.
haha. what's the point then? :).
gastric flu
slept from 12noon till 5:30pm. kept waking up in 1 hour intervals(i.e at 1pm, 2pm, 3pm, 4pm, 5pm). decided to wake up at 5:30pm because my bladder was cursing me for ill treating it.
ugh at this rate i probably have to stay at home tmr. noooooooooooooooo. i wanna go to schoooooooooooool. urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
but on hindsight, luckily i decided to go home early today. bio was probably a waste of time(they didn't give back our CT papers again)
oooh my body feels bad :/.
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Hui Lin, you've been crowned Miss Charisma
You've got a winning smile and magnetic personality that people are just drawn to. You're probably known for setting trends and tend to be the one that friends call to find out what the plans are for the night.
The judges couldn't help but notice your natural poise and polish — you definitely know how to attract attention whether you're making a speech or just taking the stage in the ultimate outfit. It's wonderful that you exude so much charm and confidence — that's sure to take you far. You're a bright star, Miss Charisma. Keep on shining.
Hui Lin, in your Cinderella story, you'd get to Kiss the Prince
You don't need the pouffy dress, the fancy hair, or the 3-inch glass heels. A romantic soul like you just wants a guy who's a true companion, a good friend, a real prince. And if he's hot? All the better. But ultimately, you know that home is where the heart is. Which is probably why you surround yourself with good friends you can take care of and laugh with — friends who will do the same for you.
But that doesn't keep you from fantasizing about the perfect relationship. It's not that you don't have your feet firmly planted on the ground. It's just that you're not afraid to shoot high. Or wish upon a shooting star. So keep reaching for your goals, Cinderella. If you do, your happily ever after can't be far away. And you can seal that with a kiss.
Saturday, July 08, 2006
Maybe It's You - Carpenters
Maybe its me
Maybe its just the constant rhythm of the sea
Maybe its just that Ive never been
The kind who can pass a lucky penny by
Maybe its wise
Maybe its not
Maybe its you who brought the caring Id forgot
Isnt it nice to talk about the special way
That you smile whenever Im around
Rising on the shore
The ocean came
Walks along the waves of velveteen
His only thought
Was love for me
Couldnt we stay?
Or must we go
Couldnt we stay?
And watch the splashing rock we throw
Only a fool would want to leave this paradise
That I find whenever youre around
Only a fool
Isnt it nice to talk about the special way
That you smile whenever Im around
Rising on the shore
The oceans king
Walks along the waves of velveteen
His only thought
Was love for me
Couldnt we stay?
Or must you go
Couldnt we stay?
And watch the splashing rocks we throw
Only a fool would want to leave the paradise
That I find whenever you're around
Only a fool
Only a fool
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....my choice?
Thursday, July 06, 2006
sigh
if i say i'm delirious, what a downright lie that would be.
what do i want?
something unrealistic. as usual.
all i want is something really simple. but i guess the simplest things are the hardest to get, because we look everywhere else but what is right in front of us all the time. we think too much, poisoning what is meant to be pure.
恶作剧
http://wiki.d-addicts.com/It_Started_With_A_Kiss_OST_Lyrics#03:_.E9.81.87.E5.88.B0
Sunday, July 02, 2006
It Started With A Kiss / Devil Beside You
i've finished Devil Beside You(E Mo Zai Shen Bian). well it's nice la. but it's super unrealistic. but if you enjoy looking at cute girls and handsome guys, and enjoy exaggerated expressions etc, yea it's a good one heh. for me, this one made me very happy, because it's just so fantasy like.
i'm half way through It Started With A Kiss(E Zuo Ju Zhi Wen). aw man, this one is very nice too. very realistic. more or less, other than 1 crazy guy here and there. and argh the lead character is so... like what Zhi Shu said, an anxious and yet lovable idiot. to the extent that it irritates me. she's just SO STUPID. urgh. but she IS very lovable. but to think that i can actually get rather irritated with her, it's really very bad, given that i always love the protagonist irrationally. she is unbelievably stupid. the lead guy is very realistic, regarding his behaviour at least. but his qualities, well, they are too good to be true(as usual :P).
i notice something in common between both of the male leads in those two shows. they are tall(180-188), dark, rich, handsome, mysterious(always unfathomable) and good in sports(usually basketball. the one in It Started With A Kiss is good in both basketball AND tennis). and they always do something that is very sweet and shocking. ugh. tho they usually piss the girl off.
oh and the lead character in It Started With A Kiss is SUPER SMART(IQ of 200), and he can COOK WELL.
...AW MAN.
how irritating. no wonder these characters only appear on tv :p.