holiday in phuket! + random

hey all!

ok long time no update. i was, in summary, slacking my youth away. watching tv, vcd, and downloading manga. hohoho.

anyway tmr i'll be gone... i'll be in PHUKET!! woohoooo!!! leaving at around noon, be back on monday evening. so it's basically 4 days in bliss. ok i hope it's bliss, 'cause i heard that the place is really beautiful, plus i'm staying in a 5 star hotel! WEEHEEE. it's a soft meditation retreat, which means it's up you how strict you want it to be. so if you just wanna go shopping all day, or relax on the beach, you are allowed to. YESSS. (oh btw, i wont be bringing my hp. i think)

i can't wait to go swimming! heard the swimming pool's really nice. SO EXCITING!! a holiday... finally :). plus i get to sit on the airplane! it's been a while.. *contented sigh*

anyway if you have time, go check out this blog: http://rockson.blogspot.com/

got this link from gaius' blog. this guy's super funny lar. in his latest entry, he talks about the email MP Lee's son wrote and sent to the whole world. the email is also posted up on his blog. really amusing to read his entry, and i do find it pretty enlightening too. however, please be warned of his very colourful range of vocabulary. it's super amusing though! hehhehheh


oh, and check out this fwd email. super funny. and i think it's very true. enjoy :).

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Sunday night :

I thought he was acting weird.

We had made plans to meet at a cafe to have coffee.

I was shopping with my friends all day long, so I thought he was upset that I was a bit late, but he made no comment.

Conversation wasn't flowing, so I suggested that we go somewhere quiet so
we could talk.

He agreed but he kept quiet and absent.

I asked him what was wrong.

He said: "Nothing."

I asked him if it was my fault that he was upset.

He said it had nothing to do with me, and not to worry.

On the way home I told him that I loved him.

He simply smiled and kept driving.

I can't explain his behavior; I don't know why he didn't say: "I love u, too."
When we got home, I felt as if I had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to
do with me anymore.
He just sat there and watched TV; he seemed distant and absent.

Finally, I decided to go to bed.

About 10 minutes later he came to bed.

I could not take it anymore, so I decided to confront him with the situation but he had fallen asleep.

I started crying and cried until I too fell asleep.

I don't know what to do.

I'm almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else.

My life is a disaster.


Husband's DIARY :

Today, Liverpool lost the match. Sigh....
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That's the problem with Men - talk too little....

That's the problem with Women - think too much............


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see you guys when i get back! :)

Harry Potter // Dim Sum Dollies

ytd i went to watch harry potter with veron.

honestly i was rather disappointed. expected more from it, looking from the very nice trailer. the movie's different from the book. well, admittedly the book was too long winded. but there were too many changes, even if it was to conveniently shorten the film.

if you read the book, you would be disappointed with the numerous changes. if you didn't read the book, you might not understand the story as sometimes the linkage from one scene to the next was quite bad.

the acting was alright lar. as usual, i'm dissatisfied with dumbledore's acting. he's not as calm and composed as he's supposed to be. he's too... human. too vulnerable to emotions and physical threats. umbridge was pretty good. i like luna and tonks. and oooh, i'm in love with bellatrix. think her acting's fantastic. i wish i can act in a similar role.. as a mad, twisted woman who causes fear to arise in people. woohooo!

hermione and ron had very little screen time. oh well. no quidditch. and a less exciting version of the weasley brothers' exit from hogwarts. and i think mrs fig (was that her name, cant rmb. the squib) should have been all jumpy and frightened, instead of how she was portrayed in the show.

OH WELL. but i would have watched the show no matter what. and i love the view of london as they flew across the waters.


ok, here are two pictures of my beloved Bellatrix Lestrange, played by Helena Bonham Carter. i just love her. fantastic acting as always.



































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went to watch Dim Sum Dollies at night with my bro.

gosh, it's a very very good show! very funny, and very nice songs. didn't expect it to be that good. pity that i don't understand hokkien, cantonese, malay. an incentive to be multilingual!

saw my SNGS teachers! ms cheleen chua, mr geraint wong, ms jeya. apparently ms heng was there. gosh! oh and the dim sum dollies also took a dig on the CHIJ girls. quite amused.


presenting to you.... THE DIM SUM DOLLIES!!! *does a little dance*

fruits basket

i just read the last 3 chapters of fruits basket. god, i feel like crying. it never fails to crack me up and make my heart beat so vulnerably. ok weird description. but it's just such a lovely manga!

ok too sleepy. night ya all. love ya :)!! (HA! eric, now u can't say Where is the love. ok lame reply of mine.....)

HAHA

gosh, i can't believe it, we both forgot that today's our 4th month!

and HE remembered it first. at like.. 11:30pm? hahahaha. ok i'm lousy.

actually i kinda like it this way. that we don't put extra emphasis on it, unless we feel like doing so. same logic as the Unbirthday Song. so that instead of having one special day, everyday is equally special!

but i'm so embarrassed for forgetting!! oh, oh!!


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THE UNBIRTHDAY SONG
From the Walt Disney film "Alice In Wonderland" (1951)
(Mack David / Al Hoffman / Jerry Livingston)


Statistics prove, prove that you've one birthday
One birthday every year
But there are three hundred and sixty four unbirthdays
That is why we're gathered here to cheer

A very merry unbirthday to you, to you
A very merry unbirthday to you, to you
It's great to drink to someone
And I guess that you will do
A very merry unbirthday to you

A very merry unbirthday to us, to us
A very merry unbirthday to us
If there are no objections
Let it be unanimous
A very merry unbirthday to us

A very merry unbirthday to me (to who)
A very merry unbirthday to me (to you)
Let's all congratulate me
With a present I agree
A very merry unbirthday to me

A very merry unbirthday to all, to all
A very merry unbirthday to all, to all
Let's have a celebration
Hire a band and rent a hall
A very merry unbirthday
A very merry unbirthday
A very merry unbirthday to all

panic attacks // bogus monks

gaaahh i haven't been able to sleep well recently. first, i take a long time to get to sleep. then i wake up easily in between. and when i finally get out of bed in the morning (usually around 11am), i feel hardly rested. *growls*

it's called thinking too much about the future! i keep on thinking about australia, school.. gaah. feeling excited and apprehensive. gosh there's so many things in my small head. studies, tuition fees, lodging, car, friends, him, family, money money money... etc. it's so unnerving.

if i'm going to stay this worried and anxious till i leave, wah. cannot take it lar.

i think i have too much free time. i need to work. but anyway, i'll try to find a job and start work in august. think july's rather packed for me. then hopefully i'll work for 4 months. then i have december free to go over and suss out melbourne!

oh yess, i need to get a laptop. ok shall worry about that later. think i shall write that at the side of my blog so i'll remember.


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ytd there was an article in the newspaper about bogus monks. gosh, those "monks" really piss me off.

by right monks aren't supposed to even handle money. they should have a helper(dunno what they call them) with them to handle their money, even for transport. their alms bowl is to collect food only, not money.

i think these fake monks will disappear for a while before coming back now. but if they do come back.. *ROARRRSSS!!*

if i happen to come across one of them while i'm eating, i'll politely call them over, ask them to empty their alms bowl, and clean the bowl for them. then i'll very generously give them my food, and add extra gravy or soup into it(just make it as wet as possible). and if they dare to give me a look that does not show that they are grateful, i'll tell them to get lost before i call the police. URGHHHHHHH. SO ANGRRRYYY.

*slaps all of them*. how dare they spoil the name of the sangha, and abuse people's kindness and generosity?!! *ROARS IN FURY AGAIN*

ok nvm. they will reap what they sow. good luck to them.



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Tags:

jw: hahaha. guess that's how i'm like when i need to rant. glad that you were entertained! ;)

suf: thanks suf :)! ehh! i'm the only one so far is it? hahaha. ooo mystery calls are always welcome ;).

ning: thanks sua :)!!

xun: oo yess! it's also really useful, especially when words are insufficient to express your feelings in blog entries. hahaha ;p.

yeewen: thanks babe :)!!

pris: hey pris! long time no see! thanks so much. yea i'm sure all will be fine. i hope. right? right??? oops i think i'm getting hysterical. hahaha :).

irritation

aiyo. it sucks really. about how much personal time he needs.

i mean, yar, girls need their own personal time too of course. but somehow, the amount of private space guys need seem to be able to fill up the universe, which happens to be expanding by the second. sheesh.

let's see how long can i tahan being the sweet, tolerant and understanding one. regarding this issue of course. well, for many other issues, he's the sweet tolerant understanding one. so i shouldn't complain too much HAHAHA.

and the best part? no point if my mind ever decides to play with the idea of changing. 'cause all males are the same. SHEESH.


to best express how i feel, i shall let images do the talking (and this one, is my all time favourite piece):

























The Scream by Edvard Munch.


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Epilogue(hahahaha):

to be fair, he did tell me to let him know whenever i think he's neglecting me, and he's afraid that he would whenever he goes deep in thought, swimming in his own world. today i'm just more easily irritated, think it's my menses. makes me mental. haha! hey, 4 Ms. Menses Makes Me Mental! ok i'm going nuts lol.

feeling better after ranting it on the blog. i'm quite stupid and easily placated actually, once i saw our photo on his display pic. sheeesh. i'm SO LOUSY. *bangs head*

i'm the biggest chicken backside lar. oh sheesh. :(


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FINAL Epilogue:

ok to cut the story short, we talked it out, and we are happy again! AHHAHAHA. being together with another person is a skill. oosh. very cheem, very cheem....

Transformers // University woes, half gone! :)

Transformers; More Than Meets The Eye


I watched Transformers on monday, and GOSH, it's GOOD!!

action packed and very, very funny. the image of the indian telephone operator is stuck firmly in my head. the only other show that i've really, really enjoyed in recent times is Shrek 3.

oooh, i love Bumblebee.
























ok. just realised that the image in xun's entry is also bumblebee... but heck lar. cuz he's my fav autobot!

this movie was worth my $7, definitely. even if it was $9, still worth it. go catch it, everyone! it's more than meets the eye! ;)



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guess what, everyone? i've gotten an email from Monash today. and it says that i'm offered a place for medicine over there!


YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY









































WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! :))


gosh, i'm basking in pure happiness now. or at least when i first read it hahahaha. the official package and offer letter will reach me in 2 weeks time.

so yep, i'm going to call up smu and give up my place. i'm entering monash with the 2008 intake. so i'm going to be very free, especially when all of you guys start school. will look for a job soon.

it's really interesting to see how my emotions changed with time.

when i first saw the email, i was in total disbelief. had to read it a second time before things started sinking in slowly. then i was totally happy. just numb happiness. first thing i did was to fwd to him the email, then i tried to call him(which he didn't pick up :P). then i told my mom who was about to pass me a postcard about the SMU matriculation (she wasn't sure whether to give it to me. she was afraid that i'd be upset on being reminded that i was to enter SMU). she too, very happy, started calling all the relatives who have been bugging my mom about my uni stuff.

after a while, my emotions became less intensive. it became more of numb, with mini outbursts of joy here and there. when reality sank in (i.e: being alone overseas for at least 5 years, having to leave my love ones, being away from him as he'd be in another part of australia, being lonely and scared and having to make new friends in a totally foreign environment with no support, ETC.), i started panicking. my heart thumped faster, i sweat more. and this horrid weather doesn't help.

also, i started worrying that what if the email wasn't true. what if they pang seh me!! ok play me out is a more appropriate term haha. i need the package, to feel it in my hands, to assure me truly.

in between, i decided to research a little bit on the unis, and thats when discontentment started kicking in, cuz according to wiki monash is the 3rd in ranking amongst the australian unis for med, whereas melbourne is the 1st. aiyar, this is purely an ego problem. a very stupid and redundant ego problem. guess it stems from my anxiety on whether monash is good enough, or if she's better than NUS. and when i tried to find photos of the campus, the very few images i found werent very impressive, and i liked the architecture of the university of melbourne better. that didn't help at all. i like pretty buildings. hahahaha.

but now, i guess all the emotions have started to die down. have a little of all in me. and the discontentment part is quite dissolved. i'm very happy. but i'm still feeling a bit anxious about the cultural differences and my ability to adapt. gaaahh. aiyar. nvm. i have loads of time to prep myself for it.

anyway, thank you, everyone! for your support and belief that i can make it (in business or in medicine). i know i've been a real whiny pig throughout the process of applying for unis, and you people were really sweet to tahan, even giving me words of encouragement! thank you so, so much. :)



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lastly, i'd like to leave all of you with this pic:





















isn't that so cute?!! gosh, the little girl reminds me of myself when i was a child. this scene happened rather regularly whenever my bros and my cousin tried to steal a kiss from me. oh, those were the days. hahaha.





Last 3 Images taken from deviant art (in order):
1. ___Happiness____by_punkshits
2. Exploration_of_JOY_by_zquan85
3. Unwanted_Kiss_by_frixin