good lessons may not be pleasant to the ears. it was unpleasant indeed, but essential.
learn and grow, learn and grow.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
in a foreign land
went for my community based placement today.
realised loads of stuff. a great day for self-reflection.
being an asian (especially when you were born in asia) in a western country does have its problems. i feel that you take a longer time to get acknowledged. not so bad in uni, maybe because the tutors are used to and HAVE to try to reduce their biasedness; but not so elsewhere. sometimes it's because they take a longer time to warm up to you. sometimes maybe it's because you are less chatty than your western counterpart; you may be considered very good in your home country, but you will not be good enough here.
and it doesn't help when you have a more-than-excellent partner. where the amount of work you have done is normally thought to be of normal to above average standard, it's totally negated because your colleague's work is way beyond excellent. that's fine, and i totally respect my partner for her effort. the problem is, i get judged by others for being less than imperfect.
...sigh.
realised loads of stuff. a great day for self-reflection.
being an asian (especially when you were born in asia) in a western country does have its problems. i feel that you take a longer time to get acknowledged. not so bad in uni, maybe because the tutors are used to and HAVE to try to reduce their biasedness; but not so elsewhere. sometimes it's because they take a longer time to warm up to you. sometimes maybe it's because you are less chatty than your western counterpart; you may be considered very good in your home country, but you will not be good enough here.
and it doesn't help when you have a more-than-excellent partner. where the amount of work you have done is normally thought to be of normal to above average standard, it's totally negated because your colleague's work is way beyond excellent. that's fine, and i totally respect my partner for her effort. the problem is, i get judged by others for being less than imperfect.
...sigh.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
beri beri stress
my exam ended on wednesday. went out for a simple dinner on that day to celebrate.
and then, immediately, back to stress. didn't have enough sleep, no time to really relax, and have been trying to (and finally did) rush through my assignment.
can seriously feel my heart faltering as i was working through the night. sometimes i really wonder if my heart will suddenly just stop functioning. a very scary feeling.
and this is only the first half of sem 1! my goodness. death unto me.
on another note, check this out!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ydZHy_KRXE
super hilarious!!
and then, immediately, back to stress. didn't have enough sleep, no time to really relax, and have been trying to (and finally did) rush through my assignment.
can seriously feel my heart faltering as i was working through the night. sometimes i really wonder if my heart will suddenly just stop functioning. a very scary feeling.
and this is only the first half of sem 1! my goodness. death unto me.
on another note, check this out!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ydZHy_KRXE
super hilarious!!
Saturday, April 04, 2009
fly
a random post.
things i need: a new slingbag! the zipper on my yellow slingbag given to me by my cousin is spoiled :(.
things i want: to go to japan for exchange. i really, really want to go to japan. even if not for exchange, then for a backpacking trip with friends! but japan's an expensive place to go to :(. and i really should start learning japanese. should i go and buy or borrow a book/audiotape? hmms.
suddenly i really feel like going travelling. backpacking baby! :)
to xinhui: yar lor! hahaha. ok la let's be nice, he's not too bad la. he's pretty gd actually. he can be romantic if he wants to! ;p heee
things i need: a new slingbag! the zipper on my yellow slingbag given to me by my cousin is spoiled :(.
things i want: to go to japan for exchange. i really, really want to go to japan. even if not for exchange, then for a backpacking trip with friends! but japan's an expensive place to go to :(. and i really should start learning japanese. should i go and buy or borrow a book/audiotape? hmms.
suddenly i really feel like going travelling. backpacking baby! :)
to xinhui: yar lor! hahaha. ok la let's be nice, he's not too bad la. he's pretty gd actually. he can be romantic if he wants to! ;p heee
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