when you thought The Grudge was bad enough... now you have The Grouch.
..approach at your own risk!
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
Flowers and "I"
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was thinking about ego and some of my friends. and how she always goes "i don't understand why (for eg) you dont like to eat this" etc. then i realised that why we often do not understand others is often because we're too full of ourselves. we tend to look at matters from where WE are standing from. the big letter "I". where "I" would behave in a particular way in a particular situation, and "I" cannot understand why people do not behave in the same way as "I" would. for isn't it natural, to behave as "I" am?
if we could really disregard ourselves, and put ourselves fully into the person's shoes, surely we can understand them, no matter how perverse or warped their thoughts are.
sometimes, we do accept other people's opinion, and weave them with our own, creating a new hybrid opinion that is now Mine. but as long as there's ego, where "I" exists, there can never be an opinion more important and correct than "Mine".
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flowers.
i never knew that i was that much of a flower person, till i came to melbourne. in spring (which happens to be now), wow, it's so beautiful! all of the flowers are blooming, you can never imagine that that was the same place just a month ago.
i realised that i really love small flowers. i don't really have a liking for large ones as i find them rather... vulgar. it's so big that it's ugly. from far, it catches your eyes first and may look really beautiful with its bold stunning colours; but when you come near, there's nothing more to it. you get to see its insides, the style, anthers, stigma, pollen... nothing pretty. just huge and vulgar.
small flowers are different. they look really sweet but they might not attract as much attention from far. but if you bother to come close and really observe it, it's really pretty and delicate. the internal structures are small too. and they tend to bloom in a bunch, really pretty! *smiles happily*
of course, there are some large flowers that can be beautiful too. for eg: spider lily. really elegant. if they are huge, they better be elegant. if not.. ah not my taste.
my dream house would be a cottage! with orangey-red bricks. and have a beautiful garden with manicured bushes and lawns, and with pretty pretty flowers! and there will be a tea table in the middle, where we can have afternoon tea. lovely :D! but yea, that's only possible if my house is in aussie though. and i hate their summer and winter. so too bad. hahaha.
talking about the weather, it's currently spring. and the flies are reviving :(.
was thinking about ego and some of my friends. and how she always goes "i don't understand why (for eg) you dont like to eat this" etc. then i realised that why we often do not understand others is often because we're too full of ourselves. we tend to look at matters from where WE are standing from. the big letter "I". where "I" would behave in a particular way in a particular situation, and "I" cannot understand why people do not behave in the same way as "I" would. for isn't it natural, to behave as "I" am?
if we could really disregard ourselves, and put ourselves fully into the person's shoes, surely we can understand them, no matter how perverse or warped their thoughts are.
sometimes, we do accept other people's opinion, and weave them with our own, creating a new hybrid opinion that is now Mine. but as long as there's ego, where "I" exists, there can never be an opinion more important and correct than "Mine".
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
flowers.
i never knew that i was that much of a flower person, till i came to melbourne. in spring (which happens to be now), wow, it's so beautiful! all of the flowers are blooming, you can never imagine that that was the same place just a month ago.
i realised that i really love small flowers. i don't really have a liking for large ones as i find them rather... vulgar. it's so big that it's ugly. from far, it catches your eyes first and may look really beautiful with its bold stunning colours; but when you come near, there's nothing more to it. you get to see its insides, the style, anthers, stigma, pollen... nothing pretty. just huge and vulgar.
small flowers are different. they look really sweet but they might not attract as much attention from far. but if you bother to come close and really observe it, it's really pretty and delicate. the internal structures are small too. and they tend to bloom in a bunch, really pretty! *smiles happily*
of course, there are some large flowers that can be beautiful too. for eg: spider lily. really elegant. if they are huge, they better be elegant. if not.. ah not my taste.
my dream house would be a cottage! with orangey-red bricks. and have a beautiful garden with manicured bushes and lawns, and with pretty pretty flowers! and there will be a tea table in the middle, where we can have afternoon tea. lovely :D! but yea, that's only possible if my house is in aussie though. and i hate their summer and winter. so too bad. hahaha.
talking about the weather, it's currently spring. and the flies are reviving :(.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
food for thought
"A dream that will come true is not a real dream."
An interesting perspective yea? and it makes perfect sense!
the best part is, guess where it came from?
...Fullmetal Alchemist. loL!
An interesting perspective yea? and it makes perfect sense!
the best part is, guess where it came from?
...Fullmetal Alchemist. loL!
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
speech check
ok thanks to veron's entry, i was reminded about my own resolution to myself to reduce the amount of profanities i've been using.
i shall avoid using:
what the sai (replace with: what the crap)
wah lao/piang (replace with: ??)
shit (replace with: sheesh/shucks/crap)
damn (replace with: darn. ok this one is really hard to stop saying)
bloody (replace with: bleaghh)
oh my god (replace with: oh my goodness/oh my mama/oh my)
ok, jia you!
i shall avoid using:
what the sai (replace with: what the crap)
wah lao/piang (replace with: ??)
shit (replace with: sheesh/shucks/crap)
damn (replace with: darn. ok this one is really hard to stop saying)
bloody (replace with: bleaghh)
oh my god (replace with: oh my goodness/oh my mama/oh my)
ok, jia you!
Kurosagi
just watched the drama Kurosagi.
it's pretty good, gave it a 7/10 - 7.5/10. it'd have been better if the female lead character and the supporting female character wasn't in the story at all, they totally piss me off. can you imagine, i'd rather the show have zero romance in it. that's how bad they irritate me. lol.
yamapi was pretty good in the show. i didn't take to him immediately though (unlike chuns and chris hahaha). i think i started to like him more only in the 4th episode? that's quite pathetic actually haha.
i can't stand the police officer too. actually, the "good guys" in the show are all irritating. the "bad guys" (the swindlers) generally grow on you.
ok, the end. hehheh
it's pretty good, gave it a 7/10 - 7.5/10. it'd have been better if the female lead character and the supporting female character wasn't in the story at all, they totally piss me off. can you imagine, i'd rather the show have zero romance in it. that's how bad they irritate me. lol.
yamapi was pretty good in the show. i didn't take to him immediately though (unlike chuns and chris hahaha). i think i started to like him more only in the 4th episode? that's quite pathetic actually haha.
i can't stand the police officer too. actually, the "good guys" in the show are all irritating. the "bad guys" (the swindlers) generally grow on you.
ok, the end. hehheh
Monday, September 22, 2008
Med Ball 2008 - 20/09/08
alright, med ball's over! end of the days of restricting my diet! (yeah right)
mini bimbo talk: heng my make up this time round ok. realised that foundation and concealor are VERY impt. esp foundation.
felt that some ugly sides of me surfaced. didn't like those aspects of me. shall work on them.
after looking at how people get wasted and drunk and high, i'm even more turned off alcohol. think it's rather ugly, even when you see people who are just high. the things they can do.. given that i can get high without alcohol given the right conditions (and surely many others can as well), i shudder to think of my behaviour with alcohol, when you get less and less inhibited. i'd rather keep that side of me hidden and buried, preferably non-existant.
it was actually a pretty scary experience for me to see people get drunk and stuff. yes, as you can imagine, i'm very guai. hahaha. never see before. and i didn't drink a single drop of alcohol that day (much to the deprecating looks of at least 3 other people). {ok i'm pretty sure i phrased that sentence in the brackets wrongly, can somebody correct me? thanks hahaha.} seriously, what's so cool about drinking? if a person doesn't want to drink, leave her be. especially when ****** kept on asking me to drink, and gave me the oh-you-pussy-you-just-don't-dare-to-drink look (parden my crudeness), and i had to repeatedly reject him and explain myself. till i gave up cuz he wasn't worth my effort anyway. luckily C came to my rescue and told him that it's not that i don't dare to drink, it's just that i chose not to drink (and that's what i kept telling him anyway). and he looked really surprised when i mentioned that the last time i went to a jazz bar i drank a cocktail (before i chose to abstain from alcohol). i guess people just don't understand why some others choose to abstain from it? maybe it's because it seems to represent normalcy, socialbility, or simply "being in and cool". this might be a generalization, but i think people who are really empty in their hearts and don't have anything solid to fall back on and choose to drink to "add meaning", "zest", "depth" and "fun" to their lives might be even more deluded about it. like ******. urgh.
and when they think i'm not up to the challenge because i don't drink alcohol, i beg to differ. isn't it more challenging to stay off alcohol? when everybody seems to think that drinking is cool and is a form of socialising, and desire to obtain that "high feeling" which misleads them to think that they are happy for that one hour? it's THEM who are not up to the challenge. they would rather take the short cut to what seems like happiness. in reality, that isn't true happiness. it's short lived, you do stupid things that you regret, and you get hangovers and feel like shit soon after. it's empty. but so what? it's fast and you can obtain it with money, just throw the notes and down the pot. that's why many people get stuck in the horrid cycle of drinking and get addicted to alcohol.
to any others who read my blog, if you drink, i hope you aren't offended. it's ok if you want to drink, but just don't think that you are more hip and cool than those who don't, and don't force them to drink. i don't care about what you do, just don't impose your will on me.
sheesh, hope i've ranted most my cheesed-offness. heh heh!
bye guys, bathing time!
to Veron: hmm love life ahh, hahaha. dunno. that's why need u to tell me if got any mah! plus ur blog lyrics always so "dodgy". hehehe ;). oo analytical chem! not that i know what it is. but what's wrong with studying human body parts in detail?? i can teach u if u want... *cheeky wink* ;)
mini bimbo talk: heng my make up this time round ok. realised that foundation and concealor are VERY impt. esp foundation.
felt that some ugly sides of me surfaced. didn't like those aspects of me. shall work on them.
after looking at how people get wasted and drunk and high, i'm even more turned off alcohol. think it's rather ugly, even when you see people who are just high. the things they can do.. given that i can get high without alcohol given the right conditions (and surely many others can as well), i shudder to think of my behaviour with alcohol, when you get less and less inhibited. i'd rather keep that side of me hidden and buried, preferably non-existant.
it was actually a pretty scary experience for me to see people get drunk and stuff. yes, as you can imagine, i'm very guai. hahaha. never see before. and i didn't drink a single drop of alcohol that day (much to the deprecating looks of at least 3 other people). {ok i'm pretty sure i phrased that sentence in the brackets wrongly, can somebody correct me? thanks hahaha.} seriously, what's so cool about drinking? if a person doesn't want to drink, leave her be. especially when ****** kept on asking me to drink, and gave me the oh-you-pussy-you-just-don't-dare-to-drink look (parden my crudeness), and i had to repeatedly reject him and explain myself. till i gave up cuz he wasn't worth my effort anyway. luckily C came to my rescue and told him that it's not that i don't dare to drink, it's just that i chose not to drink (and that's what i kept telling him anyway). and he looked really surprised when i mentioned that the last time i went to a jazz bar i drank a cocktail (before i chose to abstain from alcohol). i guess people just don't understand why some others choose to abstain from it? maybe it's because it seems to represent normalcy, socialbility, or simply "being in and cool". this might be a generalization, but i think people who are really empty in their hearts and don't have anything solid to fall back on and choose to drink to "add meaning", "zest", "depth" and "fun" to their lives might be even more deluded about it. like ******. urgh.
and when they think i'm not up to the challenge because i don't drink alcohol, i beg to differ. isn't it more challenging to stay off alcohol? when everybody seems to think that drinking is cool and is a form of socialising, and desire to obtain that "high feeling" which misleads them to think that they are happy for that one hour? it's THEM who are not up to the challenge. they would rather take the short cut to what seems like happiness. in reality, that isn't true happiness. it's short lived, you do stupid things that you regret, and you get hangovers and feel like shit soon after. it's empty. but so what? it's fast and you can obtain it with money, just throw the notes and down the pot. that's why many people get stuck in the horrid cycle of drinking and get addicted to alcohol.
to any others who read my blog, if you drink, i hope you aren't offended. it's ok if you want to drink, but just don't think that you are more hip and cool than those who don't, and don't force them to drink. i don't care about what you do, just don't impose your will on me.
sheesh, hope i've ranted most my cheesed-offness. heh heh!
bye guys, bathing time!
to Veron: hmm love life ahh, hahaha. dunno. that's why need u to tell me if got any mah! plus ur blog lyrics always so "dodgy". hehehe ;). oo analytical chem! not that i know what it is. but what's wrong with studying human body parts in detail?? i can teach u if u want... *cheeky wink* ;)
Friday, September 19, 2008
hainan :)
just talked to des about the trip. omg i'm getting so excited!!!
we plan to go backpacking. shall talk more about our plans after it's confirmed. AHHH *jumps around happily* :)
oh, and regarding my assignment.. well, i managed to survive it. barely. hehhh.
cheers ;)!
we plan to go backpacking. shall talk more about our plans after it's confirmed. AHHH *jumps around happily* :)
oh, and regarding my assignment.. well, i managed to survive it. barely. hehhh.
cheers ;)!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
5:03am
a bit more to go.. shall try to do my annotated biblio now... then tmr do editing and summary.
my eyes are starting to defocus. and i can hear loads of birds chirping! it's a sign of a new day alr. AHHHHHHHHHhhh
teoh hui lin... you are simply amazing.
[edited 5 mins later] ok buay sai. heart palpatations and seriously can't think. good night world hahaha. [/edit]
my eyes are starting to defocus. and i can hear loads of birds chirping! it's a sign of a new day alr. AHHHHHHHHHhhh
teoh hui lin... you are simply amazing.
[edited 5 mins later] ok buay sai. heart palpatations and seriously can't think. good night world hahaha. [/edit]
procastinator is my second name
i'm so amazed by my ability to procastinate, if there's a job that requires procastination, i'd earn big money, big money!
a bit more to go with epi assignment, or maybe i'm underestimating it. remind me NEVER to procastinate to this extent again. this is one of the worst situations of procastination i've ever been in. urgh.
[EDIT] update! i left conclusion, biblio, and overall editing plus summarising. aw man, my brain and eyes are dead laaa. i can't believe myself. i'm amazing. *sigh*[/EDIT]
a bit more to go with epi assignment, or maybe i'm underestimating it. remind me NEVER to procastinate to this extent again. this is one of the worst situations of procastination i've ever been in. urgh.
[EDIT] update! i left conclusion, biblio, and overall editing plus summarising. aw man, my brain and eyes are dead laaa. i can't believe myself. i'm amazing. *sigh*[/EDIT]
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
pon queen
wah at the rate i'm ponning lessons, i can be a pon star lar. haha!
ok la, not that bad. so far i've ponned 1 lesson of epi, 2 lessons of selectives (i'm going to pon my second lesson today), 1 lesson of clinical skills, 1 lesson of socio. that's for the entire year so far la. that should be all.
hmm i didn't count how many lectures i've skipped though. didn't skip many la.. maybe 4 for the entire year? and those i've skipped were seriously useless.
feel so pai as compared to myself in sec sch and in jc. hehehehe.
ok, better use my extra time wisely and finish my damn assignment!!!
ok la, not that bad. so far i've ponned 1 lesson of epi, 2 lessons of selectives (i'm going to pon my second lesson today), 1 lesson of clinical skills, 1 lesson of socio. that's for the entire year so far la. that should be all.
hmm i didn't count how many lectures i've skipped though. didn't skip many la.. maybe 4 for the entire year? and those i've skipped were seriously useless.
feel so pai as compared to myself in sec sch and in jc. hehehehe.
ok, better use my extra time wisely and finish my damn assignment!!!
Quote of the day
"A flower falls,
even though we love it;
and a weed grows,
even though we do not love it." ~Dogen
even though we love it;
and a weed grows,
even though we do not love it." ~Dogen
Thursday, September 11, 2008
HERO
[EDIT] ok i sort of take my words back on how wonderful kimutaku is. because clara brought up a very good point... don't you think not only does he not age, he is also looking younger and younger??!! which can be rather freaky. no surprise if he did stuff like botox i guess.. and if he did, that's a super turn off. but really, i was looking at his photos, then i realised those photos that he looked really young and good in, are actually taken THIS YEAR. omg. either he had botox, or they did some photoshop. i still like him, but erm, less :p. [/EDIT]
i just watched finish HERO (the old jap drama starring takuya kimura and matsu takako).
the drama's VERY good. the directing is excellent, and it's very funny. loads of funny moments, and i grew to love all of the characters in it. ok, ALMOST all :p.
oh, it's about public prosecutors by the way. and i dont think they glorified the profession of lawyers as much as other tv shows. they did portray their work as being dull and mundane (which i appreciated), although of course there are cool moments la, involving my wonderful kimura.
and i just HAVE to talk about kimura. he's.. SO HOT. WAAAHH. ok honestly, at first i found him ok only. but by the end of the show, whoaaa. he's the charismatic kind. especially at the last part of the last episode, the screen shots of him are SO GOOD. super super hot, HAHAHA. and he's the um chio ("secretly smile") kind in the show. his character is very different from that portrayed in Long Vacation. and also different from Beautiful Life (which i didn't finish watching, got sian by the general sombre mood of the show, will watch when i'm the right mood for it). i realised that i didn't find kimura hot at the beginning of Long Vacation either, and he wasn't hot at all in Beautiful Life (yet again, i only caught maybe about 2 episodes?) it's his overall charisma that wins you over in the end. ok i'm just repeating myself, but heck it. HAHA.
matsu takako seemed to look hotter when i saw her when i was young. hmm.
the plot's good because they don't focus much on love? there IS the theme of love, but the show isn't about love. how refreshing! and the criminal cases are interesting. the love between the leads are so subtlely and realistically created and the progression was natural. very goood.
and i love the music! especially the end theme: Can You Keep A Secret by Utada Hikaru. it's hilarious how they gave utada so much screen time in her cameo role. it's very little screen time in reality, but for a role as a cameo waitress, it's unbelievably how much time they spent focusing on her face. i didn't know it was her when i was watching, and found it so bizarre until i realised that it's utada, and then things started to make sense.
kimura is so cute! he looks best when he looks directly at the camera. pity that he has crooked teeth. matsu also has crooked teeth. oh wells.
shucks, i'm as meaty, or even MORE meaty than matsu takako then. oh no. i better lose weight!!
and look at the pictures of kimura, he is looking hotter with age. and he doesnt seem to have aged at all!! goodness.. what is this..
ok end of my bimbo rant :)!
i just watched finish HERO (the old jap drama starring takuya kimura and matsu takako).
the drama's VERY good. the directing is excellent, and it's very funny. loads of funny moments, and i grew to love all of the characters in it. ok, ALMOST all :p.
oh, it's about public prosecutors by the way. and i dont think they glorified the profession of lawyers as much as other tv shows. they did portray their work as being dull and mundane (which i appreciated), although of course there are cool moments la, involving my wonderful kimura.
and i just HAVE to talk about kimura. he's.. SO HOT. WAAAHH. ok honestly, at first i found him ok only. but by the end of the show, whoaaa. he's the charismatic kind. especially at the last part of the last episode, the screen shots of him are SO GOOD. super super hot, HAHAHA. and he's the um chio ("secretly smile") kind in the show. his character is very different from that portrayed in Long Vacation. and also different from Beautiful Life (which i didn't finish watching, got sian by the general sombre mood of the show, will watch when i'm the right mood for it). i realised that i didn't find kimura hot at the beginning of Long Vacation either, and he wasn't hot at all in Beautiful Life (yet again, i only caught maybe about 2 episodes?) it's his overall charisma that wins you over in the end. ok i'm just repeating myself, but heck it. HAHA.
matsu takako seemed to look hotter when i saw her when i was young. hmm.
the plot's good because they don't focus much on love? there IS the theme of love, but the show isn't about love. how refreshing! and the criminal cases are interesting. the love between the leads are so subtlely and realistically created and the progression was natural. very goood.
and i love the music! especially the end theme: Can You Keep A Secret by Utada Hikaru. it's hilarious how they gave utada so much screen time in her cameo role. it's very little screen time in reality, but for a role as a cameo waitress, it's unbelievably how much time they spent focusing on her face. i didn't know it was her when i was watching, and found it so bizarre until i realised that it's utada, and then things started to make sense.
kimura is so cute! he looks best when he looks directly at the camera. pity that he has crooked teeth. matsu also has crooked teeth. oh wells.
shucks, i'm as meaty, or even MORE meaty than matsu takako then. oh no. i better lose weight!!
and look at the pictures of kimura, he is looking hotter with age. and he doesnt seem to have aged at all!! goodness.. what is this..
ok end of my bimbo rant :)!
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
Ueno Juri
She's currently my favourite actress. gosh, she's so beautiful, and she acts so well! she has a lot of on screen charisma.
watched Nodame Cantabile and Swing Girls. saw her photos from Last Friends (where she acted as a butch). she looks so different, especially in Last Friends. have to admit that she looks very hot (as a female in her other shows, and as a lesbian in Last Friends).
i do wish that one day i can do a role like hers. really challenging and exciting :).
watched Nodame Cantabile and Swing Girls. saw her photos from Last Friends (where she acted as a butch). she looks so different, especially in Last Friends. have to admit that she looks very hot (as a female in her other shows, and as a lesbian in Last Friends).
i do wish that one day i can do a role like hers. really challenging and exciting :).
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
a happy day
today's such a good day!
I have a new love.... *shy shy*... and he's GERRY!!
ok don't think in the wrong direction... he's one of the anatomy lecturers. and yesterday, our PCL tutor was not free, so he came to teach us! oh, he's SO GOOD.
today, during dissection, Dan came along and made me answer 2 qns! ahh he made my day! reminds me of last semester's PCL. feel pampered and have some importance and less stupid in front of him than *some other tutor*.
and to add the icing on the cake, Gerry appeared! and so i requested to look at his body. ok, his cadaver, i mean. and he went through the wrist with me. waaah, he's so so so good. and you can tell that he really enjoys teaching. *beams*
went for clinical skills tute, and felt really happy as i'm getting gradually increasingly comfortable with my class. happy happy :).
hmm, at the end of this year, if the *some other tutor* still doesn't call out my name, i'd seriously consider shaking his hand, thanking him for teaching us, and say "oh, by the way, my name is lin." hahaha!
I have a new love.... *shy shy*... and he's GERRY!!
ok don't think in the wrong direction... he's one of the anatomy lecturers. and yesterday, our PCL tutor was not free, so he came to teach us! oh, he's SO GOOD.
today, during dissection, Dan came along and made me answer 2 qns! ahh he made my day! reminds me of last semester's PCL. feel pampered and have some importance and less stupid in front of him than *some other tutor*.
and to add the icing on the cake, Gerry appeared! and so i requested to look at his body. ok, his cadaver, i mean. and he went through the wrist with me. waaah, he's so so so good. and you can tell that he really enjoys teaching. *beams*
went for clinical skills tute, and felt really happy as i'm getting gradually increasingly comfortable with my class. happy happy :).
hmm, at the end of this year, if the *some other tutor* still doesn't call out my name, i'd seriously consider shaking his hand, thanking him for teaching us, and say "oh, by the way, my name is lin." hahaha!
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