[Babies: Whatever!] + [Emo over POT] + [IDP]

goodness, you have to check this out. courtesy of my cousin. super funny and cute. "...whatever!" :)





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goodness, i'm sick again. actually, i'm already sick, just that when i was about to recover, i got sick again. got the India Flu/Cough when i got back, passed it to wj, and then now he's passed it back to me haha. poor boy, he's been hacking away for weeks. even lost his voice. :/

anyway, rehearsals seem to be improving. yaaay. nick is really amazing. esp when he puts his mind to it. usually he's already good, but when he's serious, whoa. he can pull me in with him. respect!

for the last play, i was more pro-active, and i tried asking people if they wanted to go (close friends only). this time round i haven't asked any. i wonder if it's the right thing to do. for my good friends all know i'm acting in a play (everytime we catch up, that's the latest development in my life, and when i fail to meet them, it's because of rehearsals). sometimes i think, if they want to go, they will naturally tell me when i tell them i'm busy preparing for a play. yet the problem comes when they DON'T show any signs of wanting to come. then i start thinking too much, wondering about their lack of support and thus feeling sad.

yet again, perhaps it goes both ways. they could be busy, or they think i don't want them to go, or maybe they are ambivalent and need a little push from me before they say yes. the point is i didn't ask. so why should i expect a reply?

aiyaaaar, guess it's cuz i don't want to pressure them, and more importantly though i hate to admit, i don't ask for the fear of rejection and disappointment (oh don't remind me please). and since i've chosen to shut my mouth up, i shouldn't expect anything (other than silence in return). live with your decision hui lin! and stop grumbling or being upset!

for the record, i do want my friends to come, but of course it adds on pressure on me la. hahahahhaa.

ok. i shall stop stop my emo-ing, even if i do decide to ask around and people don't wanna come. oh! i haven't asked someone important for the last round. shall ask her this time :).


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regarding my previous post about idp, i had a scare and almost died when the bank draft was thought to be lost. turns out that the mail was late and monash did receive my bank draft in the end, thank goodness. PHEW.