Friday, July 04, 2008

favourite quotes

"If you cannot improve on the silence, do not speak."



"If you care to know of past live's causes,
Look at rewards you are reaping today
If you wish to find out about future lives,
You need but notice what you're doing right now."


"It is said that if you want to know what you were doing in the past, look at your body now; if you want to know what will happen to you in the future, look at what your mind is doing now."

The Dalai Lama




the 2nd and 3rd quote are basically the same thing with a slightly different focus. liked both, so put both in haha. these 3 quotes have kept me grounded recently :). especially the first quote. helped me trememdously when i was in australia. hope these quotes can be of inspiration to you!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008


Knowing life is short, how can we quarrel? - The Buddha
Our time is too precious not to love.
- Jack Kornfield

Saturday, June 14, 2008

anaphylaxis

i'm like damn round now. as round as a char siew bao. (see my problem?? i love food so much, i even use them to describe myself) scared ppl can't recognise me when i go back to singapore. boo :(.

aim to run everyday back in singapore!! woohoo!! hehh. hope i do get down to it.

i hate anat. it's pissing me off. gaaaahhh. and we look like sai when we are foetuses. ugly parasitic lifeforms.

hahahaaa dont mind me, i'm just a bit mad now. and bitter. bitter mad meddie. heh.

soleus muscle.

gaah why do i always do start studying so late, i might as well just go and die. argh

i'm allergic to studying.... getting histamine released from mast cells which originate from basophils (granulocyte). due to IgE binding to it's Fc receptors. my arteries are dilating and capillary permeability increasing, losing circulatory volume and decrease in bp... getting an anaphylactic shock... and as there's no adrenaline to administer to me subcutaneously... i'm officially pronounced dead!!

whheeeeeeeeEEE~~!

oh, oh! on a happier note, i can't wait to go to Thai Express!!! *salivates* ...wait, did i just give in to my stomach again? :/

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

wishlist

1) sambal stingray
2) katong laksa
3) bah chor mee
4) jap food. soft shell crab
5) sambal kang kong
6) crab (black pepper/chilli/ tang hoon)
7) san lao he fen
8) mom's food. actually that's at the top. :)

Saturday, May 31, 2008

amusing medical quotes

A Short History of Medicine
2000 B.C. - "Here, eat this root."
1000 B.C. - "That root is heathen, say this prayer."
1850 A.D. - "That prayer is superstition, drink this potion."
1940 A.D. - "That potion is snake oil, swallow this pill."
1985 A.D. - "That pill is ineffective, take this antibiotic."
2000 A.D. - "That antibiotic is artificial. Here, eat this root."
~Author Unknown



When a lot of remedies are suggested for a disease, that means it cannot be cured. ~Anton Chekhov, The Cherry Orchard



It is a mathematical fact that fifty percent of all doctors graduate in the bottom half of their class. ~Author Unknown



Did God who gave us flowers and trees,
Also provide the allergies?
~E.Y. Harburg, "A Nose Is a Nose Is a Nose," 1965



It is a good thing for a physician to have prematurely grey hair and itching piles. The first makes him appear to know more than he does, and the second gives him an expression of concern which the patient interprets as being on his behalf. ~A. Benson Cannon



anyway urgh i have fever :(. for the past few days. and i cant rest cuz of the stupid assignment!!! omg i cant wait for this crap to be over.

Friday, May 30, 2008

lesson to be learnt

...don't anyhow bo dai bo ji go and find trouble.

attitude to take up: Don't Care, Don't Know, Don't Bother.

keep your mouth shut.

argh.

Saturday, April 05, 2008

A Stroke of Insight

http://www.ted.com/talks/view/id/229

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lOUpldRBxyg&feature=email


amazing videos on peace and happiness. the first one is about a woman who experienced a stroke. the second one is about prem rawat maharaji. i cried. really worth your time, for if you have time to check out my blog, you sure do have time to watch those videos :).

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

To rmb

hello darlings!

sorry for the lack of updates. have been really busy. no time laa. haha. but in a nutshell, life has been good and interesting :). hope life has been good for you guys too! shall blog more another time.

personal note: to keep my mouth shut. right speech dear, right speech.

Saturday, February 02, 2008

Beverly Craven - Promise Me

You light up another cigarette
And I pour the wine
It’s four o’clock in the morning
And it’s starting to get light
Now I’m right where I want to be
Losing track of time
But I wish that it was still last night
You look like you’re in another world
But I can read your mind
How can you be so far away
Lying by my side
When I go away I’ll miss you
And I will be thinking of you
Every night and day just ...

Promise me you’ll wait for me
’cos I’ll be saving all my love for you
And I will be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And I’ll be home, I’ll be home soon

When I go away I’ll miss you
And I will be thinking of you
Every night and day just ...

Promise me you’ll wait for me
’cos I’ll be saving all my love for you
And I will be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And I’ll be home, I’ll be home soon

Promise me you’ll wait for me
’cos I’ll be saving all my love for you
And I will be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And I’ll be home, I’ll be home soon




beautiful song, it's ringing in my head.

..and i'll be home, i'll be home soon.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

周华健 - 其实不想走

你总是说我在
这样孤单时候
才会想与你联络
然而谈的情
说的爱不够
说来就来说走就走
怎么会不懂我
怎么会不知道
女人的心是脆弱
寂寞不是我
不能够忍受
只是每一天
我想你太多

其实不想走
其实我想留
留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬
你要相信我
再不用多久
我要你和我今生一起度过
其实不想走
其实我想留
留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬
你要相信我
再不用多久
我要你和我今生一起度过

(music)
怎么会不懂我
怎么会不知道
女人的心是脆弱
寂寞不是我
不能够忍受
只是每一天
我想你太多

其实不想走
其实我想留
留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬
你要相信我
再不用多久
我要你和我今生一起度过
其实不想走
其实我想留
留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬
你要相信我
再不用多久
我要你和我今生一起度过



i love this song. happen to hear it on the radio today. the lyrics sound nearly quite suitable. hahaha!

Monday, January 28, 2008

india pilgrimage slides

i'm preparing the slides for india pilgrimage now. oh my goooodneeessss, can die laaa. got SO MANY PHOTOS. going to take 10 years to go through this. gaaaaaaaaahhhh :/

and thus it has ended. :)

24 - 27 january, those 4 days flew by.

i feel a great sense of satisfaction and accomplishment, and yet also a sense of loss.

anyway, for those who don't know what i'm talking about, i've been acting in the play Passage of Time for those 4 days. let me recount my experience....


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24th January 2008; The First Night
loads of glitches. people missing their cues, coming out onto the scene late, etc. it's like a rehearsal la. in fact, we didn't have a rehearsal at all on the same day. the last rehearsal was the night before. felt it was pretty sucky, it was the worst of all the shows.

25th January 2008; The Second Night
we had a good show! but i almost had a heart attack, when i went backstage in between scenes to change, as i discovered that my costume was missing! turned out that auntie tusita took my clothes and ran off to the changing room. luckily someone ran to find her and i managed to somehow miraculously change in time for my scene (which was next). had a minor short circuit in my head, and almost screwed up the lines for that scene and the next one. luckily, nothing bad happened and all turned out well in the end hahahaha.

26th January 2008; The Third Day (Matinee)
the cast and some bf members were invited to a special lunch dana with Ajahn Brahm. but due to the lack of time, the cast left before finishing lunch :(. super rushed. didn't have much time for make up and stuff, back stage was chaotic. 3 mins to 5 mins before the play started, shu and pam came backstage to find me (thank you babes!) even though by right they weren't supposed to. and i was still doing my hair and make-up! gosh. so yes, under-prepared, partly complacent too. result was an extremely terrible first half. thank goodness things improved after the interval, managed to get some mood back. was feeling so apologetic towards my friends who came. thank you veron, juncheng, ta, pam and shu for coming! really appreciate your presence :).

26th January 2008; The Third Day (Night Show)
a lot of negativity while preparing for the night show. kept on thinking of how badly i acted in the day. thank goodness for angie, nick, wj, and everyone else who kept on encouraging me and told me to let go. this round i had time to get into character, and nick pulled me to send metta together with him to the audience. think it worked. hahaha. things went very very well, as if it was to make up for the afternoon show. the energy of the entire cast was very high. despite minor mistakes made here and there for the Finale, everyone was just so happy and joyful. felt extremely happy that night. the audience left very happy :). oh oh, Edmund Chen, Xiang Yun and their kids came. had compliments from them, made me very happy!

27th January 2008; The Last Night
ahh, the VIP night. had Minister of Health, Mr Khaw Boon Wan, and his wife to grace the event. Liu Ling Ling (actress of 881) came too! that night was very very good too. personally, i felt that i peaked on this night. however, as a cast, the best was the night before, the energy was higher. as an actress, this was my personal best. very happy.


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overall, i'm very satisfied with how things turned out. things have improved as a whole from last year's show. and despite my lack lustre performance on the first night and the matinee show, i still recieved kind and positive comments. so yes. it's very encouraging! should i ever get a chance to act again, i'll strive and work even harder!!

as individuals, everyone has grown, in both acting and maturity. it's amazing to see how much things have changed in just 1 year. i will miss everyone terribly when i leave.

have loads of things to do before i leave. i have 13 more days. jia you hui lin!

Monday, January 21, 2008

goodbye, zen neeon

my zen neeon's like dead. i can't turn it on, and when it doesn't respond when i hook it up to the computer.

ok, it IS dead.

so yes, i'll have to buy a new mp3 player. actually i don't HAVE to, but i want to. oops? hahaha.

dear friends, i don't mind getting a mp3 player as a farewell gift. take it as 5 years worth of bday presents.quite a good deal really, especially if you are sharing. hahaha.

ok just kidding, cuz i know no one will buy one for me :p. i'm just too lazy to go and buy lar. and i don't know what's good in the market now. any suggestions?

oh, i can't bear to lose all of my songs. cuz now my songs are all over the place, some of them are already deleted from the com. geez. oh wells.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

yawn**

lousy blog post title i know. hehheh. today i had another tiring round of rehearsals. wah. can die can die ahhaha. anyway feel like posting photos... posted in chronological order.






taken during Real Run 07, where we ran 10km with some other bf members. my virgin jump. wheeeee








taken on thurs. where only me, wj, mandy, ly turned up for this supposedly full cast rehearsal. hahaha. was so bored that day. didnt help that 3 of us were sick.






taken during today's rehearsal. hohoho. hmm we are quite sadistic actually. and we took that in front of the buddha statue some more. haha.




dinner:)




lovely sky today. the sky has been beautiful lately.




my latest photoshop product. woohoo. bored la, bored la.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Envy

gosh, ego and envy is such a big ugly monster.

even though i tell myself to let go, the feeling still arises in me. like why does ___ get such treatment but not me?? [even though it's not confirmed that i wont be treated that way, but it's probably so, based on unfortunate experiences]

yet again, i can understand why i'm not given such treatment. it's just unfortunate that i'm sort of involved in ___ treatment, so i'm aware of it. such a horrid feeling.

aiya what a waste of time thinking of it. ok i'm done. hahaha :).

Friday, January 18, 2008

Movies // film

whoa ho! i was browsing through Rotten Tomatoes, and then i remembered this favourite movie of mine, Who Framed Roger Rabbit! goodness, a classic. i remembered watching this on tape over and over again. and guess what? some kind soul has actually uploaded the whole thing onto youtube! think i'm going to watch it again now even though i'm super tired.

i just found out that it was made in 1988! the year i was born. wow. ok it's amazing to me hahahhaa.

and guys, if you haven't watched Pan's Labyrinth, go watch it. it's.... very, very good. very dark, very sad, very touching. can't remember who i watched it with. anyway, it garnered 96% thumbs up in Rotten Tomatoes! wowee.


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so, the filming has come to an end.

my verdict:
1. i'm NOT videogenic. gawd.
2. i'm too used to theatre style.
3. please refer to point number 1.

despite my complaints, i thoroughly enjoyed myself. i have met very nice people there. very interesting people who are really talented. one of them composes his own songs, and they are very nice. another takes beautiful photographs (actually they all like taking photos, just that i happened to see the photos from one guy).

part of me aspires to be like them. to be so talented in the artistic side. like photography, always in the moment. beautiful.


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regretted not speaking to joce and alicia more when i met them today. oh wells.

haha, he's like an ah peh now. bought salon pas for him, which didn't really work. tried finding Bengay's to no avail. wonder where my mom bought it...

Thursday, January 10, 2008

林憶蓮



i love this song. it's by 林憶蓮, <情人的眼淚>, Dick Lee's remixed version. so subtly sexy and sensuous. think my aunt used to play the tape (or it's just distorted memories hehe). check out <夜太黑> by her too. whoa, sexy with class. <傷痕> is a good song too.

gaah there's the filming tomorrow (today, to be accurate. it's 12:25am). boooo :(

but might get to see the bf! thus am i appeased :).

ytd, i couldnt sleep till around 4am. and i was woken up by the vacuum cleaner at 9:30am. oh, so sad. luckily i managed to take a 3 hour nap in the evening. hope i can sleep later haha. really sucks. and the poor boy slept even less than me, couldnt sleep in the afternoon, and coughs more than me. sigh.

oh, ta is coming for the show! ok i'm really happy :).

i so need to change my wardrobe. sheesh. anybody wanna go shopping? hahaaa

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

[Babies: Whatever!] + [Emo over POT] + [IDP]

goodness, you have to check this out. courtesy of my cousin. super funny and cute. "...whatever!" :)





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goodness, i'm sick again. actually, i'm already sick, just that when i was about to recover, i got sick again. got the India Flu/Cough when i got back, passed it to wj, and then now he's passed it back to me haha. poor boy, he's been hacking away for weeks. even lost his voice. :/

anyway, rehearsals seem to be improving. yaaay. nick is really amazing. esp when he puts his mind to it. usually he's already good, but when he's serious, whoa. he can pull me in with him. respect!

for the last play, i was more pro-active, and i tried asking people if they wanted to go (close friends only). this time round i haven't asked any. i wonder if it's the right thing to do. for my good friends all know i'm acting in a play (everytime we catch up, that's the latest development in my life, and when i fail to meet them, it's because of rehearsals). sometimes i think, if they want to go, they will naturally tell me when i tell them i'm busy preparing for a play. yet the problem comes when they DON'T show any signs of wanting to come. then i start thinking too much, wondering about their lack of support and thus feeling sad.

yet again, perhaps it goes both ways. they could be busy, or they think i don't want them to go, or maybe they are ambivalent and need a little push from me before they say yes. the point is i didn't ask. so why should i expect a reply?

aiyaaaar, guess it's cuz i don't want to pressure them, and more importantly though i hate to admit, i don't ask for the fear of rejection and disappointment (oh don't remind me please). and since i've chosen to shut my mouth up, i shouldn't expect anything (other than silence in return). live with your decision hui lin! and stop grumbling or being upset!

for the record, i do want my friends to come, but of course it adds on pressure on me la. hahahahhaa.

ok. i shall stop stop my emo-ing, even if i do decide to ask around and people don't wanna come. oh! i haven't asked someone important for the last round. shall ask her this time :).


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regarding my previous post about idp, i had a scare and almost died when the bank draft was thought to be lost. turns out that the mail was late and monash did receive my bank draft in the end, thank goodness. PHEW.

Friday, January 04, 2008

idp

i emailed monash hall admissions to ask them to accommodate me earlier from 11 feb(by default it would be 16 feb). and so they replied...


Dear Hui Lin Teoh,

Thank you for your e-mail. This e-mail is to confirm that we will be able to accommodate you from the 11/02/2008. Please arrive between office hours (9:00am - 9:00pm). You are still yet to pay your Building and Amenities Fee. Please remember to pay this by the 20th January 2008.

Kind regards,

Admissions Officer
Monash Residential Services


like WTH (@ the words i coloured red)?!!! because i already paid through IDP before i left for india.. think i paid them in the first week of december. so bloody inefficient laaar, haven't send my bank draft to monash.

as i read it yesterday night, past office hours, i had no choice but to wait till today to call and check with IDP. and as fate has it, IDP is closed on every first saturday of the month (which is today why oh why), and every sunday. great, just great.

they probably are waiting for every tom, dick and harry to hand in their bank drafts before they mail them over to monash. or so i hope. i'd rather it be this way than for them to have lost my stuff. gaawwd.

please let me have a roof over my head when i get there.

publicity

gawd, i'm leaving soon. i'm starting to freak out a little after i realised ytd how poorly prepared i am.

maybe a little bit too happy-go-lucky eh? or perhaps just a usual case of escapism. hehhh.

anyway, happy happy things, i went to his house today. so, it's a happy happy day. :)

anyway, i'm acting in the Passage of Time (POT) again.




wah, damn pretty photo of me. so anyway, might as well do some publicising here. the 24th and 27th are booked if i'm not wrong. so the rest are available. check this out for more info: http://www.buddhistfellowship.org/bf_new/pages/latest_events/announcements_POT_jan08.html

acting is a real challenge. and goodness, film is SO DIFFERENT from stage. i mean, i've already known about the differences in theory, but actually experiencing it is... truly an experience. hahaha. tongue-tied, tongue-tied.

ok i was multi-tasking and was kpo-ing at facebook. so i forgot what i originally intended to blog about. HAHA. whatever lar. goodnight all :)!