see you again in a few months. :)

the bf's on the plane:).

spent the day at his place today. almost cried twice then (ok i teared la hahaha). almost cried on the way to the airport too. but i managed to tahan at the airport! good on ya! *pats her own back*

chatted with his parents and met his uncle and auntie. and i really enjoyed it. one thing that i like about it is that i feel really at ease with his family. i don't have to purposely talk a lot, i don't have to put in effort to impress them or anything. it's a really comfortable atmosphere where i can be sincere and be myself. no pressure at all. and they are all really funny, cute, and down to earth. so real and humbling.

learnt a lot from his father. his father is really cute and funny! think he had a great influence on wj. they have very refreshing and wise perspectives on things. was a very enriching conversation. there were two "lessons" that i really liked:

1) 世上没有爱情, 只有感情. (and some nice cheem thing in chinese about starting a relationship by falling in love, and ending the relationship due to wrong views)
2) 世上没有好人和坏人, 只有好事和坏事. [There's no such thing as good people and bad people; there's only good deeds and bad deeds.]

liked the second one the most. hope i won't forget that.

on the way back home, while i was still his parents and relatives, i met my big uncle (da jiu jiu) on the mrt! like OMG. fate la. hahaha. luckily i had to tahan the slightly weird atmosphere for only 1 stop. was actually feeling worried that da jiu jiu will talk to wj's family after i get off, and that he will find out tt i'm attached, and he will report to my mom, and i will die, and and and... hahaha. then i decided that i was worrying too much for nothing. and if that really happened, then it's fate! everything will be in the open then and i won't have to avoid talking about him all the time. it will be shiok la! thus, either way? win-win :).

i realised that our relationship has really matured, as compared to how it was 1 year ago. may we continue on our journey together with faith, dilligence, and right effort. thank the buddha, dhamma, sangha!

feeling contented. yet i can feel the temptation to think about the lack of his presence, which will cause the hollow feeling in my heart to arise, making me feel like crying again.

ahh! i'm thinking too much!!

despite fearing separation and death, i do appreciate it. it is always a good way to remind ourselves to be in the present moment and LIVE. enjoy, appreciate, be.




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dammit, haven't paid my sch fees due to a screw up with the bank. and my application for a fee extension was rejected! urgh. just emailed the course administrator, and pray that i'll be given a few days grace. damn stressed.