in a foreign land

went for my community based placement today.

realised loads of stuff. a great day for self-reflection.

being an asian (especially when you were born in asia) in a western country does have its problems. i feel that you take a longer time to get acknowledged. not so bad in uni, maybe because the tutors are used to and HAVE to try to reduce their biasedness; but not so elsewhere. sometimes it's because they take a longer time to warm up to you. sometimes maybe it's because you are less chatty than your western counterpart; you may be considered very good in your home country, but you will not be good enough here.

and it doesn't help when you have a more-than-excellent partner. where the amount of work you have done is normally thought to be of normal to above average standard, it's totally negated because your colleague's work is way beyond excellent. that's fine, and i totally respect my partner for her effort. the problem is, i get judged by others for being less than imperfect.

...sigh.